#30ish

I would lying if (and I'm giving up lying for Lent 2023) .... I would be lying if I said, i never thought... WHY NOT ME? Like Damn I know, i know we all have different path, yet why is everyone else going so fast or am i just Slow... Gosh, Idk but idc- i DO CARE, well i think....

They are passing me by and I slowed down to help them... i gave them a little gas, now I'm on E and it feels like no one will stop or rescue more.

Or are they just moving so fast that they haven't been able to see Me... i stumbled kinda slow and i hid so well because i don't want anyone to know, well pride said don't tell but i truly do wanna be seen but it is safe out there.... so ppl really say what they mean???

this rant is about me not about "them"... just making sure I move past my role any cautionary film.

i feel behind (here goes the feelings)...

WHERE IS MY "LIFE?

i feel like im still in the beginning & this is suppose to be mid life.

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Am I just taking the long way, you know the scenic route?

Did you bring me this way, so i could learn from all been through?

It's worth the wait?

A big assignment ahead?

It's crafted special and I could never be late (on your clock, the Creator of Time has spoken, AGAIN)???

You said, "Trust the process, im going the right way?".

You said stay the course, it's better than any illusion of a delay?

You getting me ready, like planning in advance?

You planting good seeds, so the harvest will last???

Thanks for the explanation, I'll go on with my day.

Here's to the long road....

Yes, I'm Suppose to go this way?