#296

So, am very lazy in IRL and don't usually help or gift people stuff to strangers but am very talkative and genuinely make an effort to talk to friends online (Idk about IRL since only drawn to people with chemistry aka the same interest as me, but I would be probably be talkative) I also use my artistic talent as a way to feel "needed" in somesort of way and often put up a persona to feel valuable for it and love talking about my interests and get very demotivated, when it isn't about my interest. I also use my interest(ever changing) or art in exchange to get friendships since am scared of talking to people (I guess??) and I'm also very selective of who I want to be friends with, I also make myself "childish" so that people would guide me and not give me leadership roles since I don't think I would be fit for them and scared to take them. And I can be pretty stubborn to.

I also can get very lazy or demotivated when it comes to my other responsibilities and people that aren't related to my ever changing interest.

I also noticed that I been "outcast" when I was younger and until now. /But trust, I am not a E4. I also don't really like conforming to an interest of a group definitely not a So9 and I definitely do not prioritize the group over myself. But I do can lead a group as long as it's very comfortable for me like there are no restrictions to what I do.

Also here my current typing Sp/Sx 296 and I say a selective extrovert.

three pages remain. i'll update for the next 3 days to get it done before the holidays!