#2018intentions

So I was laying in my bed scrolling thru Facebook last night, and I came across this article titled “Seven Questions to End 2017 With Clarity and Enter 2018 With Intention.”  So I clicked it and the article was actually very insightful and asked really great questions.  I’ll share the link if you find yourself wanting to read it and use it for yourself by the time you finish reading this post...

After I read it figured it would be a good idea for me to answer these questions honestly, and share it with you all.  I’m undergoing an intense transformation and I’m beyond excited for the newness of 2018 and what I’m going to make out of it.  

So, let’s get to it:

1.   What was one of the moments I was most proud of this year?What does that tell me about what I want to spend my energy/time/money on next year?

My proudest moment was hosting my first event for my brand The Sage Series.  It was a spirituality workshop, the first of many, and I was discouraged because literally nothing was going as planned (virgo rising probs lol) but my friends kept motivating me and urging me to still have it and that’s what I did.  I’m so used to being behind the scenes or letting the people around me have their shine because I hate attention, but I can feel Spirit pulling me out from the shadows and fully showing my creative talents.  This shows me that I want to spend my time and money on further building my brand.  I want to promote and expand my network and gain exposure.  I want to be confident in my abilities.  And I will.  

2. Who really enriched my life this year in a big way? Who is someone I am wanting to get to know better in the year ahead? 

Honestly, it’s multiple people.  My tribe of sisters that I got closer with this year, K.B., Gabby, and Kee.  I found shelter within these women so many times and we all have bonded over so much. We inspire and empower each other, and I love it. I love them. It’s warming.  I am looking forward to getting to know my future life coach better in the year ahead.  And my therapist as well.  

3.   It was a year of resistance for many people. What did I resist most effectively? What did I surrender to?

I resisted the SHIT out of being consistent. In almost everything, mainly yoga and tarot.  I surrender to the fact that it’s time to level up on my discipline.  It’s time to do the work and worry about the rest later.  So, I surrender to growth.  

4. Who did I feel most jealous of this year? What is that person up to that I want to bring more of into my own life?

I honestly don’t get jealous of people, I admire them if they have traits I wish I had.  So since that’s what jealousy is, there’s a few people that I wish I was in the position of or had their drive.  One person is TatiannaTarot.  AMAZING woman.  I love everything about her and what she does. She’s organic and gifted as hell.  I follow her work and I just love how consistent and busy she is.  Even as a mom now.  I love it and I truly wish I had the ability to easily focus and get shit done in terms of tarot.  I want to travel and create.  Dassit.  

5. When was I most physically joyful in 2017? How can I get there more in 2018?

I was most physically joyful when I went to Myrtle Beach this past summer.  I went with the person I was dating at the time, and even tho it is over now, I appreciate the spiritual awakening that occurred for me, within me.  I opened up a deep layer of myself that I never share with anyone really, and it showed me what I truly need to work on internally and heal from.  I appreciate that moment, regardless of who it was shared with.  I can get there more in 2018 by getting the help and guidance I need, through going to therapy and digging into the things I opened up about and [I guess] embraced this summer.  The moon was full in cancer during that time too, so it was a lot of healing, or preparation for healing coming through.  

6. What is one question that you found yourself asking over and over again this year? What version of an answer are you living your way into?

“When are things going to get better/change?”  That was the overall question.  The words “change” and “better” rotated.  The version of an answer I’m living my way into is things will change when I make the decision to change them.  It’s that simple. I made it harder than it needed to be by ignoring instincts and not disciplining myself. On all accounts. Won’t happen in 2018. 

7. And finally, in honor of Krista Tippett’s beautiful modeling: What makes me despair and what gives me hope right now?

Failure gives me despair at the present moment.  Not being enough no matter what you do or what decision you make.  Going against my better judgement.  The choice to change all of these circumstances is what gives me hope.  The knowledge that there indeed is a light at the end of the tunnel and that more awaits me on the other side once I do the work of changing my circumstance and perspective.  My passion for growth is what gives me hope. I stifled the fuck out of myself this year.  

I feel lighter after answering these.  I answered these questions as I went along, no pre-writing.  This is leaving me more excited and inspired than ever to move on to better things and really grab life by the horns.  

Link to the blog as promised: https://onbeing.org/blog/courtney-martin-seven-questions-to-end-2017-with-clarity-and-start-2018-with-intention/ 

#thankfulthursday

The temperature is currently below freezing and right now all I want is to be on vacation somewhere warm. The amazing thing is that I get to do just that in March! I was invited to a leaders retreat in the Gulf Shores!! Me? On a leaders retreat?

When I signed up for this coaching gig I saw these top coaches go on these paid vacations and awesome retreats and I thought to myself “that will never be me.” I mean, I am a full time doctoral student, I was CONVINCED I would quit within 6 months, and I didn’t even want to share on social media that I was coaching out of what people may say. But here I am, two years later, still going strong and getting rewarded for helping myself and others on their health journeys.