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Im crying. Literally. Im writing this one because Im sad. The emptiness inside me’s killing me. Longing for d’ presence of a human being who once taught me what Love really mean. What family really mean.

It was a painful night when someone called, and told me that you’re gone. I felt my heart shattered into pieces. I felt the hollowness. I felt the pain! I felt that I lost everything.

You never said, goodbye. I never said I love you before you left. I’ve never seen u for quite sometime. And it breaks my heart! I tell myself that I was the one who did wrong, that I did nothing to help you. That I never noticed what you felt the past days before u left. I didnt notice that you already want to rest, that you’re tired already. Im so selfish to think that you can make it till im old too. Im so selfish to think that you’re still strong. Im so selfish!!!

Im so angry at myself that I didnt do anything. I miss you, Pa (lolo). you never did say Bye to me tho. I know you are in God’s arms at this moment, and happy to be with your Mom, and Dad, and God. I know you’re jumping out, with a full smile on your face. I know you are watching us and telling God to take good care of all of us. I know you are now playing a guitar and taking pictures, and speaking in English with everyone. And I know, you are sharing your love with you co-angels. Because thats what you do best, make everyone feel loved.

All the people you left here, will have a space, just for you, in their hearts. And thats 100% sure.

I will cherish all the moments we spent together, the laughters and tears Pa. the lessons u taught me. The hugs and kisses.