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has anyone called you a petname?

yesterday

she called me beloved and it made me want to crawl my eyes out

the very word you once said

in that same exact tone

the one where you knew i was saying something ridiculous

or unintendedly disastrous

i miss you so much

i can’t go home without you

you’re the only place i wanna come back to

no matter what im doing i want to arrive at our doorstep

to rush in the kitchen to

tell you all about it

how ridiculous it was

how it didn’t feel like it did with you

how i thought “wow that was crazy, but i wish you would kiss me like that”

i thought about how weird it was this was happening with someone else

someone so different

and felt pretty nice

but the passion wasn’t like it was with you

i liked our banter and jokes but i missed how you understood me

in an instant

far more patient far more kind

far more loving

to be determined who’s more worthy of my time

it should be this one but the biomes aren’t compatible

meanwhile i always felt your body like my greatest curse and my deepest blessing

you were peace with passion comfort beyond my greatest imagination

my love

my baby

my doll

occasionally my angel

my dearest and my most true

countless words that cannot go to print

and forever my darling