#083013

I’m writing this message cause I feel really bad, thinking about the way I hurt you makes me really sad. I hope somehow some way this gets through to you.

I’m genuinely sorry for all the hurt I’ve caused you and I regret the things I’ve done. Im losing and it seems I’ve lost the 1 girl I’ve loved more than anything since Day 1 and it was cause of the things I’ve done.

KC I feel so bad right now and each day, cause I tore your world apart, and now all I can think about is how I broke your heart.

These tears that run down my cheek are filled with sadness and hurt, because you really do mean alot to me and I care about you until the end. I messed up big time and I only wish I could go back in time and do things differently and maturely and not disrespect you and make fools out of each other or anybody else. I think about you often and hope some day you have the energy and courage to forgive me and know that the David you encountered recently isn’t the person I want to experience again ever. Nor should you or anybody for that matter. I hope you understand.

I know sorry’s not enough because I’m such a screw up.. But for whatever its worth I wanted to say, that you cross my mind every single day…

The thought of you makes me smile and not sad, and I know our love was and still is real, so I’m typing you this message so that you know how I truly feel.

What I really want to say is that I’m sorry, I know that you didn’t deserve to be hurt like that, and I know that you will soon find peace and things will eventually be calmed down and our heads will clear up as long as I can give you your space that you need right now.

So I’m sooo SORRY for everything I’ve done, also i have to say is that I care about you and really do pray for you and wonder how you are doing every day and I’m so sooo sorry KC 😕 I hope some day we can make things up and put our past behind us and be better people for ourselves and for us. At the end of the world, I love you and your family. I always will. I always had a mindset of you being “home” to me and I know it might be the opposite with you now but if it isnt, well…idk 😌. But you need to know that. Again, im sorry for all the hurt I may have caused you. I really truly don’t know why it all happened the way it did. I love you. Hope you are doing good, I miss ya. You always will be with me in my heart and soul. We are soul tied. 😌 Okay talk soon hopefully.

It has been really tough and hard on me to not be able to call you, text you, show up to your house, knowing that I’m not that far away from you. Yes I have showed up twice to your house uninvited but one of those times was for your brother and I apologize for not allowing you to have your space 100% for the time being. I just really hope you know and understand how difficult this has been for me. I really do miss you and love you! Nothing has been let go. For me to do this really has changed me somewhat so far, but in a positive way. We have always spent so much time together and times were never necessarily allowed to be spent being alone or with our own family. I can own up to that being my fault. I really do love spending so much time with you and I love you so much that I didn’t want to be away from you, just like I don’t like being away from you now. Tooooo much time spent together each week has caused us to fight because you became stressed out a lot and I didn’t necessarily allow you to spend some nights just alone to just detox and give yourself some self love when you had asked for it. I can say I was selfish with that. I’m sorry. We had lost our ways because of that. A big part of that is on me. I’m truly sorry for that. I had loved you too hard and got carried in the waves. I’m a good man and I know I can change little things to make a big impact to be a great man to you in your eyes. This time being alone has been sooo hard yet helpful and relieving because it really is helping me detox and think about my rights and wrongs and learning from them. My love and feelings for you is not lost and I haven’t let it go somewhere. I don’t plan on it either. I still definitely have a tight grasp on it. I still love and care about your family like they are my own and more. Some days I feel like I have more of a connection to your siblings than I do my own. Smh. Crazy. But it’s true. I love your family and I miss seeing them. Even though I haven’t spent quality time with you to talk to you and we just chill since 7/27/18, I honestly can’t wait to finally see you and talk to you and really catch up and see how gorgeous you look and to hear your beautiful voice, see your amazing smile. To me it will feel like the first day we went to Leatherbys and got to know each other. My heart will be filled with butterfly’s I’m sure. It will probably be the day of the concert, but I pray and hope it will be sooner. I miss you very much and I love you! I know you don’t miss me and love me enough to talk or see me now and that’s alright, you need your space. I respect you! I hope each day that goes by though, you miss me more and more and hope you would like to talk and see me and you continue to get back to your usual self that I fell in love with and I will do the same. I love you, I will always love you. I know just like you said, in order for us to work out we have to work on ourselves and get back to our true selves. Through the bad times and the good times. You will always have me in your corner and by your side. You got a real Ride or Die.❤️ Not some one who just says it, just to say it cause it sounds good. 😐 You are my bestfriend and I’m proud to say each and everyday that you are my best friend and the love of my life! I hope we never lose each other. You make things easier and I’m happy you exist in my life. You are such a strong girl and you aren’t weak like you say. You have to be positive. I know I am your bestfriend...now I just want to get back to being the love of your life again. Your Beard King. Forget Beyoncé, forget Sade. K.C is Queen!!!! Babylove 4 life. I LOVE YOU. 💕