“If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you wont give up. If you give up, you're not worthy. ... Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.” -Bob Marley

By far one of the saddest and most aggravating weeks I have had being at this damn hospital. The fact these people had audacity to ask repeated questions about my health and condition and I explain to them countless times what they are trying to make happen won’t work because I’m unable to walk around and then they get to have me have a seizure to run a brain wave test for testing purposes and succeed just for the end of the week tell me that I have to have my DL suspended for 6 months by the Dept of Health is mind boggling. Had I known the outcome of me being here to better myself and be proactive about my health and research and test purposes on my brain to just receive that news is so contradictory and fucked up. They literally said at the beginning of the week the goal was to have me have a seizure and all and I did it unlike my last week stay with these damn people. Just for me to get my driving privileges and all taken away. This really is just an eye opener to never ever go to the doctors or hospital unless you desperately need it. Cause they give absolutely no fucks about your wellbeing and life outside of the walls. My life for the next 6 months is changing drastically starting tomorrow. No life to feeling dead. My parents even said for the next 6 months I shouldn’t go back to work and focus on myself and elevate myself, cause they feel bad for me as well. I’m angry and sad with myself for choosing to do this damn visit. The week started rocky at first cause I was feeling extremely stressed out and nauseous the first night but it was good too with being able to do what needed to be done and making progress for it all to just go to shit in my eyes. Having people that aren’t even doctors or even my own doctor tell me it’s in their best interest to suspend my license and I no longer drive for 6 fucking months. I almost slapped a bitch and I was hella chill with them all too just for them to do me dirty at the end of my last couple of days here. My own personal doctor didn’t once fucking see me either on top of that…well now my doctor is going to sign me for disability medical leave. Soooo fuck the bs and it’s time to start some goals up and fulfill them. I got 6 months ahead of me to make the most of it. ✌🏻