#06.14.19

Harry Redknapp announcing the World XI Team starting lineup, Soccer Aid 2019 | 14.09

Niall bid £34,000 for one of Mo Farah’s signed shoes at the Soccer Aid for Unicef Gala.

+ bonus:

Niall at Soccer Aid practice | June 14, 2019

this isn’t some sharp turn, one bad night after weeks of being okay - this is the calendar stretched so far out that the weeks start to look endless, blotchy and discolored. this is me waiting for the hour, the very minute when everything will settle and i can look back on this time and think of it as poetic. i spend my days with my eyes half shut and fingertips unfeeling and i wait, i wait for the time when i can take all this hurt and ball it up into something pretty on the tongue. i know that. you know that. you’ve gotten so much worse, is what you tell me. i know that.

we’re one in the same. you’re me, aren’t you? you’re so self-aware. our midnight talks always fall steep. our midnight talks always end terribly. most of our midnights, at this point, have turned watery.

I’m gonna miss my family, but California is so damn expensive and I can’t imagine not having my best friend around! I’ve always wanted to get out of here, too. I think it’s time. I’m really excited! I hope I can get everything together so that it works out.