this is the day we reconnected. a lot of things had happened since we last spoke and even though i try not to bring it up as much sometimes i cannot help but feel regret and sadness for the past. you reminded me why i was attracted to you to begin with, even though you didn’t know you were doing that. you showed me why i liked you and why i had done all that i had done up until then, though things were five times more confusing than two months ago and i wasn’t sure what i was doing or saying at that point. you made me feel comfortable in the way you welcomed me back into your life, your words were smooth and relaxing and i felt like i could be your friend again, like i could speak and nothing would happen. i didn’t have to worry so much about my feelings, things rolled smoothly and it was easy to say what i had been suppressing all this time.
Deep conversations are always nice and boy, did our conversation get deep quickly. it seemed to spiral out of control and out of context and if that made you uncomfortable then i apologize but i absolutely loved being able to open up and tell you everything i needed to tell someone. it was relieving, i was finally feeling like who i really am because hiding it from everyone (myself included) must have been the most stressful thing i ever had to do. i will always be thankful for you listening to me that one time, for being so understanding of my feelings and making me feel like they were right and they mattered. thank you for being so patient and not minding the fact that you had to keep a secret from others. thank you for sharing my feelings, i think that was the best part of everything. you are such a lovely friend.
