#-viv

So far, my experience on my nsfw acc has been shit the second people started coming into my dm's

Holy hell people have no common sense let alone think with their fuckin brains and not that damn thing

I promise that this is a good ass song

because..

Fucking hell.

of course it had to be ... Him.

Oh god.

Holy fucking shit, looking up self ship nsft for the first time is so mind boggling.

Like why am I hearing "a whole new world" playing as I scroll through the posts

Like- what do you mean that "mdni" doesn't apply to me anymore?!

I can reblog this?!??!!?

And say shit?!!??!??

and not feel ashamed to think about my beloved Eddie this way??!???!????!?

HUH?!!??

THIS SHOULD BE ILLEGAL?!?!!??!!

AAAA??!????

LIKE...

I can read AND reblog a post that says "imagine your f/o jerking off to the thought of you"

LIKE... I CAN DO THAT????

AND MAKE IT ABOUT MY ROMANTIC F/OS??????

HOLY SHIT????????

I CAN IMAGINE...... Him doing that.....???!????

HIM ?!!!

HIMMM ?????

oh honey.

OH HONEY.

OH HONEY.

OH HONEY.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I'M ONE OF YOUUUU NOW !!! IM AN ADULT NOW !!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YESSS HAHAHAHAHAHA YES !!!!

like ever since I was like 9 or 10 or so & I turn 18 in like.. 2 days? So. Yeah.

She's my favorite oc EVER, she's an assassin who works under this animal hybrid mafia dude (it's a whole thing) and I find her absolutely awesome

BUT ☝️!!

I wanted to get an opinion on this thing I wrote in her pov since I myself am not a transwoman and am instead a transman, I simply wrote it so I could have an outline for how she feels about herself and I wanted some pointers !!!

:D

Be warned that I projected a little bit of how I've felt regarding me being trans onto her (actually A LOT of her character is me projecting 💔) but I wanted to hear from actual transwomen & transfemmes how this interpretation of being a transwoman felt and if there are any changes or suggestions you have that you think would be a good idea!!! :3

Some Character points to help you understand her further:

her being admitted to a mental hospital is a big plot point in how her life spirals into how it does (need to do further research in that regard but I know I want that in the story), has an extremely transphobic & abusive family (not explicitly mentioned in the writing), has a very supportive brother who'd protect her from abuse as a youngin, She's a werebear and so is her entire family, Her name is Mariah redwood!! :3

I'm still building up her as an individual ect. But I know her personality very loosely or at least what I want it to look like.

She's very protective and very kind to the people close to her but she's generally closed off to strangers and new people, it takes her a few months to get used to somebody- especially if they reciprocate and act closed off to her as well. She doesn't have a lot of trust in the world due to her trauma and how she's been treated but she does have a tendency to be more optimistic than alot of people she knows, she's just hesitant to believe that optimism since she still believes it's somewhat naive to think that way. She's also insecure about a lot of things in her life, especially regarding things she had been picked on for in school and her time in a mental hospital. She struggles with being judgemental both at herself and those around her, as well as with her temperament but is desperate to get that under control, also has trouble with repetitive intrusive thoughts, and picking at the skin of her thumbs (just like me fr.), she loves video games and her boyfriend (a certain Nonbinary character who deserves a WHOLE other post. LORD. he is.... something.)

fun fact!

her last name is redwood because in my lil OC world, there are these superpowered alien bears that live in a supernatural forest based off the redwood Forests and she is connected to them in a way since she herself is a werebear ect. ect. [it's a whole thing] the alien bears are nicknamed "bloody bears" or "the crimson bear" because more often than not, they can secrete their blood which has certain properties and often times roll around in it or use as a projectile when threatened !

(Certain properties meaning; Medicinal to some and lethal to others [it burns like hell on human skin and reacts like a very toxic acid but does nothing on werebear skin] )

These are the redwood trees and they are HUGE !!

Top down view !

I love her a lot and I really. REALLY want to write her as good as I can.

So any constructive criticism is absolutely welcome !! And any notes about how to handle writing a POC character respectfully is also welcome !

I'm doing my own research on that as well but any notes from the community are absolutely welcome !!

/gen

Thank you for reading :)

Tw: internalized transphobia (?), implied transphobic mothers, themes of hiding one's true self.

4 days till this body is one of

you !!!!!!!

you ...

ADULTS !!!