Unlearning some trauma-learned behaviours/thought patterns is fun because atleast now instead of the soul crushing guilt at any minor mistake, I now know I shouldnt feel guilty for it. However I still have the irrational fear that I am racking up “bad points” every time I do something annoying or burdensome or wrong and that this will make the person slowly grow to resent me and make my life hell. I just now no longer feel like I deserve it, I guess
















