weird.

the best way i can describe it is "normal." but i don't feel normal. i feel very far from normal.

i feel fake normal.

i'm performing, maybe. i'm performing being human, even to myself. maybe i've just started to become aware of it.

and i'm too clean. no, i'm not too clean. i don't know if i can be too "clean." this form, however, is too clean. it's not supposed to be this clean. and yet it is. strange.

everything i do is too intentional. i am too aware. and yet i am not aware enough.

Certain typing quirks really should be translated (ex: h1, h0w @r3 y0u? translated: hi, how are you?). It makes it SO difficult as an alter who uses a screen reader, and in a body where reading is very difficult.. like, please translate them, i would like to know what you're saying ;-;

(sorry if this comes off in a rude way)

Is there anything you need? Want me to draw cookie yaoi?

:(

especially when all of them are standard white dudes with dark curly hair