Dec 20, 2025
I don't think I post enough art of Xainan for people to find the shadow gene joke funny…
#when it's not a serious or intricate drawing I draw Xainan with a shadow over his eyes (cast from his hat)#because I think it is fun and offers a little mystique#also tangent I hope my memes are not subsumed into fandom slop. I am not woobifying Xainan Esch#CHAOS PROTOCOL ARC 4 SPOILERS AHEAD#I just don't feel I have anything interesting to add to the conversation really nothing that one can't plainly see in the source material#and I hate to be repetitive or derivative#Xainan acting out by re-experiencing the trauma of his near death is still Bad even if it's understandable (and relatable)#*from not by#paired with the weight of responsibility that he cannot fulfill (being Nova's leader and protector) and it's sad but this a team culture he#*this is a#helped curate#also think it's very poignant and honestly satisfying seeing more conversation in the transplanverse#around how violence that is utilized for protection runs the risk of going awry when used liberally#and that it is explored through Xainan Esch who is a figure of fatherhood and authority with the specific motif of guns#and it's very satisfying to see the detriment or the consequence of violence enacted by one who is viewed as a favorable protagonist#not that this hasn't happened before in the transplanverse but it's nice to see on someone so beloved because it is so complicated#and it makes us wrestle with the violence we see from our family or friends or peers or allies and ponder what we find acceptable from them#and how our relationship informs that thought process#also satisfying because there have been many instances or arcs of characters harnessing power to enact violence for change#it's fun to see another take on the other side (falling into a pattern of violence for safety and security because the unknown is risky)#okay no more gushing#transplanarposting#jovi talks#transplanar rpg#waahhh it’s so obvious this was written in the early am
