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Someone said that “Nobody’s gay when they’re 6. No child is looking at another boy and thinking ‘oh yeah I wanna kiss him.’”

And it just reminded me that a lot of people objectify children. They don’t view children as people. They view children as objects, as if they don’t have thoughts or feelings. They treat them as if they don’t absorb what goes on in their surroundings or the media they see, read, or listen to.

And the homophobic argument that children can’t know they’re gay (but conveniently for some reason can know that they’re straight) is a perfect example of this all-too-common belief.

Tons of people know they’re gay in early childhood. Not all of them, but enough people that it isn’t obscene, uncommon, or indicative of abuse. I knew I was bisexual as early as kindergarten, as I crushed on little girls and boys the same way. Sure, I didn’t have the words to explain my experience, but I was experiencing it regardless. At 6 years old I wanted to kiss my friends, heck I even wanted to marry them.

I know, shocking, a child wanting to kiss someone. But why wouldn’t I? I had two parents who were affectionate and pecked each other on the lips. I watched children’s movies where the prince would kiss the princess at the end when they got married. I knew kissing was something you did when you like-liked someone because I grew up in a society where public displays of affection are common and present in the movies and books I was watching and reading at that age.

Like over the past half year or so, XIV and I (the co-hosts here) have established a very heavy synergy and navigated some pretty intense issues that unintentionally found us developing a very very strong "hey no matter what comes up and how shit things are and how much this might stress me out, I am going to also keep my eye out for you and check on you and keep space in my mind to make sure that you are and feel supported - no matter what" cause we had some really hard and shit trauma processing times and stressful parts and dysphoria sessions

And this past few weeks have been a big mess cause XIV got too much into a trauma response pisser and thus really kind of left me hanging while he went off causing more issues and honestly, the sheer level of a sincere apology and immediate action and attentiveness the moment he "snapped out of it" just like...

Man I really fucking love (platonically, we are more like siblings than not) this man and am so fucking glad to have him as my partner in crime even if hes a chaotic antisocial impulsive piece of shit /affectionate, his own term/ that is stupid and puts me in places like this occasionally because he's a mentally ill fucker in this system too cause man does he do his best and genuinely shows genuine effort and dedication to trying to help me.

I do think there was this moment several months ago where the whole system was so extremely overwhelmed and flooded and both of us were melting and having massive flare ups of our individual trauma shit, he majorly relapsed in his Wing Chun class on certain things when I had just thought we were in the clear and it fucking burnt me the fuck out having just let my guard down thinking we were good and having that happen and like.... just when in the front made some dedicated time after taking some time to chill and somewhat recover myself, went to go check in on him since as much as I was suffering, >I< wasnt the one who just had a major breakdown and relapse despite being in one of the most healing places for myself.

And honestly that moment really did set a precedent on the account that he "did a bad" and everyone was stressed and riled up and despite all the shit that added, I was still concerned about him more than getting lost in everything else which we both noted as mutually a very warm and healing moment considering neither of us (cause we both ya know, have the same life) ever had anyone actually want to check in or care for us when we had meltdowns - let alone ones that were actively distressing. In the end of the day, in that moment he was "mostly fine" in the sense he had downregulated himself mostly, but the intent and solidarity behind the moment was an unexpected and well welcomed sentiment that hard established a strong sense of family and loyalty to one another and honestly that in itself is so fucking healing.

i know childe is also very guilty of almost destroying the entirety of liyue but i am also still salty over the fact that a certain someone used his genuine friendship / generosity for a questionable fake death plan

Very Excellent Fanfictions with heartbroken childe and guilty zhongli, all written by Dacia:

Pilgrimage (part 1)

Harbour (part 2)

- @lexicled

I pretty much agree with your points as well! I've only been using twitch consistantly myself for the past year so I can't say I'm the biggest bttv user, nor do I understand bttv culture fully yet. But! I have found chats that have a decent amount of bttv to be more enjoyable. Tubbo's and Sneeg's chat are both, in my opinion, a good balance of bttv usage to proper messages. Speaking of Tubbo I think he also does a wonderful job of controlling his chat, that perhaps Ranboo would be more comfortable modeling after instead of Sneeg. Tubbo has a wonderful way of being stern with his chat, but not being mean about it. He scolds, but as he does so he lets his chat know that he likes them and knows they're better than this, but at the moment they've gone too far. So it's a stern boundary but the praise mixed in makes people want to live up to his expectations!

And like I said in my own tags, I think there would be a lot of benefit from consistently raiding people. Ranboo's chat would learn more twitch etiquette simply by being sent to other twitch chat environments. Unfortunately obviously not all of Ranboo's chat would learn because people often leave immediately after the raid but! I do think enough of them would stick around and effectively learn, and maybe bring those lessons back with them to Ranboo's chat where it would hopefully spread there as well

Hey bb :-) heck yes thank u for coming to me

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They have tons of different styles of fangs (long, short, double, single, spiral, etc) and are really comfy to wear so I would reccomend those :-)