Warning: me commenting about transphobia, the issue with lack of gender neutral words in Spanish language and me feeling as I have a resistence to learn other persons pronunces and calling them for their name or using words as “person” for refering that people.
I’m scared to think what I’m going stop to learn because I RESIST to do it.
It really scares me so much.
What the pain caused because my father to forced me in a emotional way to learn certain concepts can do me to stop to learn from other persons.
That pain, fear to get more pain and my despair turned me in a person who hurt other persons, just as my father did it me.
What the world isn’t different and you can’t stand it, so you start to wish destroying it just because it isn’t fitting the standards what you have.
I think “persona“ and “ser humano“ in Spanish language are gender-neutral.
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I feel how I lost what I was going to write about.
I’m crying because I keep to think I’m going to become an abominable human being.
I feel as coward for thinking that way.
