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pairings : p1harmony x fem!reader (separate) synopsis : reactions about what happens when p1harmony members call their girlfriend clingy. warnings : crying, yelling, mean!p1h, angst, kissing, some things are set differently (dorm spaces, studio, etc.), humilation, lmk if i missed anything NOT EDITED. a/n : guys i'm thinking of stanning cortis... (martin has caught my eye) word count : 6k
back to library .
keeho - ๊ธฐํธย
the dorm was loud the way it always was when all six boys were crammed into one room. jiung and jongseob were locked into a video game battle on the tv, their voices overlapping in sharp bursts of trash talk. intak sat cross-legged on the floor with a bag of chips, narrating the chaos like he was some kind of sports commentator. theo hummed under his breath while scrolling tiktok, and soul sat nearby flipping through a notebook.
you were curled against keeho on the couch, half leaning into his side, chin tucked against his shoulder as you watched the game unfold. it wasnโt unusualโin fact, it was your favorite spot, pressed against him while the others did their thing.
but tonight, keeho wasnโt really leaning back into you.
you didnโt notice at first. you laughed when jongseob shouted in victory, you clapped when jiung fumbled his controller, & you shifted closer when the blanket slipped from keehoโs lap. your hand found his sleeve, tugging gently as you whispered, โlook, seobโs actually winning this round.โ
keeho stiffened. he gave a small, almost invisible shrug like he was trying to shake your hand off. your brows pinched, but you didnโt move. instead, you tucked yourself closer, smiling. โyouโre too quiet. whatโs going on in that head of yours?โ
that was when it happened.
keehoโs sigh was audible, sharp enough that the others glanced over. he pulled back slightly and said, without lowering his voice:
โgod, youโre so clingy sometimes.โ
the words landed like a slap.
the room went silent. even jongseobโs character died without him noticing, the announcer blaring on screen. you froze, heat rushing to your face so fast it made your ears ring. your hand fell away from keehoโs sleeve as if youโd been burned.
theo was the first to clear his throat. โโฆyikes.โ intak blinked wide-eyed. โuh, hyungโฆโ jongseob shot a glare keehoโs way, muttering, โnot cool.โ
soul didnโt say anything, but his pencil stopped mid-line. he was staring. jiung frowned, controller dropping into his lap. โdude, seriously? you didnโt have to say it like that.โ
you swallowed, forcing a weak laugh that cracked on the edges. โwow. okay. thatโsโฆ noted.โ you pushed yourself up from the couch, arms wrapping around yourself. you didnโt wait for a response. you slipped past the boys, trying to hold yourself together until you were safely behind a closed door. the sting hit thenโhumiliation, sharp and hot. not just because keeho had said it, but because heโd said it in front of everyone.
back in the living room, tension hung heavy.
keeho stared at the empty space youโd left, guilt slowly dawning across his face. โโฆi didnโt-โ โbro,โ intak cut in, still munching chips but his tone unusually serious, โyou canโt say that to y/n. especially not in front of all of us.โ
jiung shook his head, brows furrowed. โyeah, that was rough. you embarrassed her man.โ theo leaned back, folding his arms. โmore than rough. she looked humiliated.โ keeho opened his mouth, closed it. he dragged a hand down his face, groaning. โi didnโt mean it like that.โ
โdoesnโt matter how you meant it,โ jongseob muttered. โitโs how it sounded.โ even soul piped up, voice quiet but cutting; โshe looked like she wanted to disappear.โ
keehoโs chest twisted. he knew. heโd seen it in your eyes the second the word left his mouthโthat sting, that crumple heโd caused. and now all five of his members were staring at him like he was the villain.
because he was.
โshit,โ he muttered, standing abruptly. โi need to fix this.โ
you were sitting on the edge of the bathtub, when a soft knock sounded.
โbaby?โ keehoโs voice, muffled but gentle. you swiped at your eyes quickly, though the redness would give you away. โโฆbusy.โ
another pause.
โcan i come in?โ
โno.โ
a beat of silence. then, โplease. i messed up. i need to talk to you.โ
your chest ached, torn between wanting to slam the door shut forever and the part of you that still craved him, even when heโd hurt you. finally, you exhaled, shaky. โfine.โ the door opened slowly, revealing keehoโs guilty face. he stepped in and shut it behind him, leaning back against the wood as if bracing himself.
you didnโt look at him.
keeho crouched in front of you, voice quiet. โiโm sorry.โ you pressed your lips together. โin front of everyone, keeho? really?โ he winced. โi know. i know. it was the worst way i couldโve handled it.โ
โyou think?โ the bitterness slipped out before you could stop it. tears threatened again, but you forced them down. โyou embarrassed me. like i was some annoyingโฆ leech or something.โ keehoโs face crumpled. โno, no, baby. thatโs not what i think. thatโs not what i meant at all.โ
โthen what did you mean?โ your voice cracked. โbecause you looked pretty serious when you said it.โ
he dropped his gaze, ashamed. โi was tired. distracted. you were pulling at me and instead of just saying i needed a second, i saidโฆ that. and it came out so wrong.โ you let out a shaky laugh, humorless. โclingy. thatโs what you think of me?โ
โi donโt,โ he said firmly, lifting his eyes back to yours. โi think youโre loving. i think you make me feel safe and wanted. i think youโre the best part of my day. and i took all of that for granted when i opened my stupid mouth.โ something in his tone made your chest wobble. but the sting was still raw.
โyou made me feel small,โ you whispered.
keehoโs breath hitched. he reached for your handโslowly, carefullyโand when you didnโt pull away, he held it tight.
โiโm so sorry i hurt you. i would never want to make you feel like that. youโre not too much. youโre never too much. if anything, i donโt deserve how much love you give me.โ
your throat closed, eyes burning again, but this time from the sincerity in his voice.
keeho shuffled closer, resting his forehead against your knee. โplease forgive me. iโll apologize a thousand more times if thatโs what it takes. i love the way you cling to me. i love that you even want to. for a moment, the bathroom was silent except for your uneven breaths. then, finally, you whispered, โโฆpromise?โ
he looked up at you, eyes shining. โpromise.โ
something loosened inside you. you sighed, shoulders slumping as the tension drained. โyouโre such an idiot sometimes.โ a weak laugh escaped him. โthe biggest idiot.โ
you slid off the tub edge, into his arms. he wrapped you up immediately, hugging you so tightly it felt like he was trying to fuse your pieces back together. โiโm sorry,โ he murmured into your hair again and again, like a mantra.
this time, you let yourself believe him.
when you both finally re-emerged, the boys were still sprawled in the living room, pretending not to have been eavesdropping. theo raised a brow when he saw your swollen eyes and keehoโs sheepish expression. โeverything good now?โ
keeho squeezed your hand, answering, โbetter than good. but i owe all of you an apology too.โ
they blinked.
โi embarrassed her in front of you guys,โ keeho said firmly, โand that wasnโt fair. it was disrespectful to her, and it put you in a weird spot too. soโฆ iโm sorry.โ
intak nodded slowly. โthatโs more like it.โ jongseob smirked. โtook you long enough.โ jiung gave you a gentle smile. โweโve got your back. especially when our idiot leader fucked up with you.โ
you felt warmth flood your chest, gratitude swelling as the boys went back to their usual banter, tension easing away. keeho tugged you back down beside him on the couch, this time wrapping his arm snugly around your waist without hesitation. he whispered just for you, โsee? not letting you go ever again.โ
you smiled faintly, leaning into him despite the sting that still lingered. because you knewโthis time, he meant it.
หโโฎ
theo - ํ ์คย
the clock on the studio wall glowed 1:37 a.m.
you shifted in your seat, blinking against the haze of exhaustion. theo sat hunched over his notebook at the desk, headphones crooked on his head, lips pressed into a tight line. he hadnโt spoken in over fifteen minutes, pencil scratching furiously across paper while he rewound the same section of a beat again and again.
your back ached from the stiff couch, but you didnโt complain. being here mattered more than sleep. theo had been practicing nonstop for weeks, buried in choreography and lyrics, and tonight was one of the rare moments you could be by his side. you just wanted to make sure he didnโt drown in it.
โyouโve been staring at that line forever,โ you said softly, trying to lighten the mood. โwant me to grab you a coffee? or some snacks? youโll think better if you take a break.โ โi canโt,โ theo muttered without looking up. you pushed yourself off the couch, padding closer. โjust ten minutes, baby. come sit with me. breathe.โ
he stiffened when you touched his shoulder. โi said i canโt.โ your smile faltered. โtheoโฆโ he yanked the headphones down around his neck, finally turning to face you. his expression was sharp, eyes flashing with the frustration that had been simmering all night.
โyou donโt get it. i need to finish this.โ โi do get it,โ you said gently. โbut youโve been at it for hours. youโre burning yourself out, and i just want to help.โ he let out a harsh laugh, running a hand through his hair. โhelp? by hovering over me? youโre beingโฆ youโre being so clingy right now. i canโt think.โ
the word slammed into you.
you froze, hand still hovering uselessly near his shoulder. โclingy?โ theo groaned, turning back to his notebook. โjust give me space y/n, okay? please.โ your throat tightened, burning with humiliation. youโd stayed up for him, waiting, worrying, just to be dismissed like that. you stepped back quickly, arms wrapping around yourself.
โโฆright,โ you whispered, barely audible. โiโll give you space.โ
before he could respond, you slipped out of the studio, the door clicking softly shut behind you.
theo sat frozen at the desk, pencil slack in his fingers. the silence that followed was deafening, the weight of what heโd just said sinking in with every passing second.
clingy.
his stomach twisted. he hadnโt meant it like that. he hadnโt meant for your face to crumple the way it did, hadnโt meant for you to leave. โshit,โ he muttered, shoving back from the desk. his music didnโt matter right now. none of it did.
you sat on the floor just outside the studio, knees pulled tight to your chest. the hall was dim, quiet except for the hum of vending machines down the corridor. you hated that your eyes were stinging, hated that one stupid word had undone you so easily. but you couldnโt stop replaying it. clingy. like you were a nuisance. like your love was suffocating.
the door creaked open, and theoโs footsteps approached.
โbaby?โ his voice was cautious, almost pleading. you swiped at your cheeks quickly, though your sniffle gave you away. โโฆdonโt, theo. just go finish your song.โ he crouched in front of you, eyes wide with guilt. โno. i canโt. not after that. iโm so sorry.โ you stared at the floor. โyou didnโt seem sorry when you said it.โ
โi wasnโt thinking,โ he admitted, voice rough. โi was frustrated, and i took it out on you. and thatโsโฆ thatโs the last thing i shouldโve done.โ your chest tightened. โso you donโt think iโm clingy?โ
theoโs heart cracked at the way you asked it, so small, like you needed him to prove it. he shook his head fiercely. โno. never. i love that you want to be close to me. i love that you care enough to sit in a freezing studio at one in the morning just so iโm not alone. youโre the reason i can even keep going.โ his hand hovered before gently brushing against your arm. โbaby, youโre not too much. iโm the one who was too much. too caught up in my own head to realize how lucky i am.โ
your breath wavered, eyes finally meeting his. โyou really hurt me.โ
โi know,โ theo whispered, throat tight. โand i hate myself for it. but let me make it right. please.โ
he slid down to sit on the floor beside you, wrapping his arms around your curled-up frame. at first you resisted, stiff against him. but then his warmth seeped in, his heartbeat steady against your cheek, and you finally let yourself melt into him.
โiโm sorry,โ he murmured into your hair again and again, voice trembling with sincerity. โiโll never call you that again. i swear.โ your tears soaked into his hoodie, but you didnโt care. you clung to him now, tighter than before, needing proof that he wouldnโt push you away again.
theo held you just as fiercely. โyouโre not clingy. youโre the best thing in my life. donโt ever doubt that.โ the hall was quiet, but in his arms, the sting slowly eased.
when he finally pulled back, his eyes were red too. โcome back inside with me? i wonโt work anymore tonight. i just want to hold you.โ
you searched his face, wary but softening. โโฆpromise?โ
he cupped your cheek, nodding. โpromise.โ
back in the studio, the desk lamp still glowed over scattered papers, but theo ignored it. he pulled you onto the couch with him, tucking you against his chest under his hoodie, as if shielding you from every harsh word heโd ever said. you exhaled slowly, the ache in your chest loosening at last.
โdonโt ever scare me like that again,โ you whispered.
he pressed a kiss to your hair. โnever again. youโre my everything. too clingy? more like not close enough.โ
for the first time all night, you smiled.
หโโฎ
jiung - ์ง์
the dorm door clicked open, and jiung stepped inside, shoulders sagging under the weight of the day. his hoodie was pulled low over his eyes, backpack sliding down one arm like he didnโt even have the energy to hold it.
you were curled on the couch between intak and jongseob, waiting. the second you heard the door, you perked up, smile breaking across your face.
โji!โ you scrambled up, crossing the room to greet him. โyouโre back, finally! how was practice? did you eat? do you want me to heat something up?โ your arms went around him before he could answer, hugging him tight.
but instead of relaxing into you, jiung stiffened. โbaby,โ he said, voice low and rough, โnot right now.โ you pulled back slightly, blinking. โohโsorry, i just missed you.โ
he sighed, scrubbing a hand over his face. โi know. i justโฆ can you not be clingy the second i walk in? iโm exhausted.โ
the word landed sharp and cold.
clingy.
your smile faltered. behind you, the members shifted uncomfortably, the tension in the air immediate. intak opened his mouth to say something, but you shook your head quickly, forcing a little laugh.
โright. sorry. iโllโฆ give you space.โ
you backed away, retreating toward the kitchen even though your chest ached. jiung didnโt look up. he just kicked off his shoes and trudged toward his room, leaving silence behind him.
the kitchen tiles blurred as you stood there, staring at nothing. your arms still tingled from the hug youโd given him, a hug he didnโt want.
clingy.
like you were too much. like your love was inconvenient. intakโs voice broke through softly. โheyโฆ donโt listen to him. heโs tired. you know how jiung gets when heโs wiped.โ jongseob nodded. โyeah. he didnโt mean it.โ you forced a nod, but the sting was already lodged in your chest. โitโs fine. i get it.โ but you didnโt, not really.
jiung collapsed face-first onto his bed, groaning into the pillow. his body was aching, his mind buzzing from hours of practice, but all he could think about was the look on your face when he brushed you off.
god, why had he said that?
he hadnโt meant itโnot the way it came out. he just felt suffocated by the day, by the endless schedules and expectations, and when you hugged him, instead of grounding him like it usually did, it tipped him over the edge. but that wasnโt your fault. that was his.
and heโd said it in front of the others. guilt coiled in his stomach, hot and sickening. he sat up abruptly, dragging a hand down his face.
fix it. now.
you were curled on the couch again, knees tucked up, staring blankly at the tv that wasnโt even on. theo and keeho were talking quietly in the corner, casting glances your way, while jongseob scrolled through his phone. when jiung stepped out of his room, the air shifted. everyone looked up. his eyes found you immediately, and the sight twisted the knife in deeper. he crossed the room slowly, kneeling down in front of you.
โbaby,โ he said softly. you didnโt look at him. โshouldnโt i give you space?โ theo muttered something under his breath that sounded like dumbass, but jiung ignored it, shame burning in his ears.
โno. i was wrong. i didnโt mean what i said.โ
your arms tightened around your knees. โbut you said it.โ
โi know.โ his voice cracked. โi was exhausted and frustrated, and i took it out on you. i called you clingy because i didnโt have the energy to think, but the truth isโ i need your clinginess. i need you.โ finally, your eyes lifted to his, glassy with unshed tears. โyou really hurt me.โ
โi know,โ he whispered, throat tight. โand i hate that i did. youโre never too much for me. not ever. i was justโฆ too tired to see what was right in front of me. the person who waits for me, worries about me, loves me no matter how drained i am.โ his hand reached up, brushing tentatively over your arm. โi donโt deserve it, but please donโt pull away from me. not when i need you most.โ
you stared at him for a long moment, the ache in your chest warring with the sincerity in his eyes. finally, you exhaled shakily. โโฆyouโre such an idiot.โ a shaky laugh slipped from him, relief flooding his face. โyeah. i am.โ
you let him pull you into his arms then, clinging to him despite your words. he held you tighter, burying his face in your shoulder. โiโm sorry,โ he murmured again and again. โyouโre not clingy. youโre everything. i love how much you love me.โ
โdonโt say it if you donโt mean it,โ you mumbled against his hoodie. โi mean it,โ he swore, pressing a desperate kiss to your hair. โevery word.โ
keeho cleared his throat pointedly from across the room. โapology acceptedโon behalf of all of us who had to watch that train wreck.โ intak snorted, jongseob muttered facts, and theo just shook his head. but their teasing softened the tension, and you even laughed weakly into jiungโs chest.
he smiled at the sound, finally breathing again.
that night, he refused to let you out of his arms. curled together on his bed, he traced apologies across your skin with his fingertips, whispered promises into your hair until your breathing evened out.
and when you finally drifted off, he stayed awake just a little longer, holding you like heโd never let go.
โnever too much,โ he whispered into the dark. โnever.โ
หโโฎ
intak - ์ธํย
the bass rattled the mirrors of the practice room, sweat beading across the boysโ foreheads as they drilled the same eight-count for the tenth time. intakโs jaw was tight, movements sharp but not sharp enough for him. he cursed under his breath when he stumbled on the transition again, shaking his head furiously.
โfocus,โ theo said gently, but intak just nodded curtly and restarted the track.
you leaned against the doorway, watching quietly. youโd brought snacks and water, hoping to cheer them up after the long session. mostly, you wanted to see intak. heโd been disappearing into practices all week, and you missed him.
โbreak time, please,โ keeho groaned, flopping onto the floor dramatically. jiung laughed and joined him, tugging jongseob down too. โfine,โ intak muttered, tossing his cap aside and collapsing against the wall. his chest rose and fell with heavy breaths, sweat darkening his shirt.
you took that as your chance.
โhey, tak,โ you said softly, stepping inside. his head snapped up, eyes wide before softening a little. โoh. youโre here.โ you grinned and held up the bag. โbrought goodies! figured you guys could use fuel.โ
cheers erupted from jiung and jongseob as they scrambled over. keeho clapped like youโd just saved his life. you giggled, setting the bag down, then went to sit beside intak. โyou okay?โ he nodded, eyes fixed on the floor. โjust tired.โ you reached to wipe some sweat from his temple with your sleeve. โyou worked so hard. iโm proud of you.โ
his jaw clenched. โdonโt.โ
you froze. โโฆdonโt what?โ
he finally looked at you, eyes sharp. โdonโt smother me right now. i canโt breathe.โ your chest tightened. โi was just-โ
โyouโre being clingy,โ he snapped, louder this time. โi donโt need it right now.โ
the room went dead silent.
keehoโs eyes widened. theo shot him a look. jiung and jongseob exchanged awkward glances, halfway through unwrapping a granola bar. you sat back slowly, heat flooding your cheeks. โโฆright. sorry.โ
you stood abruptly, muttering something about needing air, and slipped out before anyone could stop you.
the practice room was thick with tension after the door shut.
โwhat the hell was that?โ theo demanded, arms crossed. intak groaned, dragging his hands down his face. โi didnโt mean-โ โyou called her clingy,โ keeho cut in, voice sharp. โin front of us. when she literally just brought us snacks?โ
jiung smacked him lightly on the arm. โnot cool.โ intakโs chest twisted with guilt, but frustration still buzzed in his veins. โi was stressed. i couldnโt think.โ
โwell, think now,โ jongseob muttered. โbecause y/n looked she wanted to cry.โ
intakโs stomach dropped. without another word, he grabbed his cap and bolted for the door.
you sat on the bench outside the practice room, picking at the hem of your sleeve. your chest still stung, the word echoing in your head. clingy. too much. the door opened, and intak rushed out, breathless.
โbaby-โ
you stood quickly. โdonโt. itโs fine. go back to practice.โ โno,โ he said firmly, stepping closer. โpractice can wait. you canโt.โ
your eyes flicked away. โyou made it pretty clear i can.โ his heart squeezed. he reached for your hands, but you pulled them back.
โiโm sorry,โ he blurted. โi didnโt mean it. i was frustrated, and i let it spill out the wrong way. youโre not clingy. god, youโre the oppositeโ youโre the only one who makes all this bearable.โ you frowned, still hurt. โthen whyโd you say it?โ
โbecause iโm an idiot,โ he admitted instantly. โi was mad at myself, at my mistakes, and i lashed out at the one person i should never hurt. i swear, it wasnโt about you. it was about me not being good enough tonight.โ
your throat tightened, tears threatening. โyou made me feel likeโฆ like i was in the way.โ
intakโs eyes softened, pained. he gently cupped your face, tilting it so you met his gaze. โyouโre never in the way. youโre the reason i even get through days like this. when you wipe my sweat, when you cheer for me, when you just show upโ itโs everything. i donโt deserve it, but i need it. i need you.โ
you blinked, tears spilling despite yourself. โthen donโt push me away.โ his voice cracked. โi wonโt. not again. i promise.โ
you finally let him pull you into his arms, his hoodie damp against your cheek. he held you so tight it almost hurt, murmuring apologies into your hair. โyouโre not clingy,โ he whispered again and again. โyouโre my safe place. iโm sorry i made you doubt that. iโll make it up to you every day if i have to.โ
you clung back, shaky but firm. โyou better.โ
he let out a soft, relieved laugh, kissing the top of your head. โyeah. i will.โ
when you both returned to the practice room, the others tried to act casual, but keeho still shot intak a look.
intak tightened his grip on your hand, tugging you gently closer. โweโre good,โ he said firmly, mostly to himself. you squeezed back, finally believing it.
หโโฎ
soul - ็ฝ็ฟๅคช
the dressing room buzzed with energy after the show. staff members hurried around, touching up makeup, collecting mics, tossing bottles of water into eager hands. keeho was joking with jiung, theo stretched his sore shoulders, and jongseob was scrolling through fan posts already.
you slipped through the crowd, eyes searching. finally, you found him.
soul sat off to the side on a folding chair, head bowed, towel draped over his neck. sweat clung to his skin, strands of hair sticking to his forehead. you crossed the room quickly, crouching down in front of him. โhey,โ you said softly, offering him a water. โyou killed it out there. the fans were so loud for you.โ
he didnโt look at you. โthanks.โ
you frowned. โare you okay? your shoulder- you looked like you were stretching it too much during the last song. want me to-โ he shifted back, jaw tight. โi said iโm fine.โ
you hesitated, then reached anyway, dabbing at the sweat on his cheek with a tissue. โyou donโt have to pretend with me. i just-โ โstop,โ he snapped, swatting your hand away.
your chest jolted. โi-โ
his eyes finally lifted, sharp and frustrated. โyouโre being clingy. can you just give me a minute to breathe?โ the room went quiet. a couple staff members froze mid-step. jiungโs head whipped around, eyes wide. theoโs smile faltered.
you felt the sting instantly, your face flushing hot.
clingy.
you pulled back your hand slowly, standing up on shaky legs. โโฆright. sorry.โ you mumbled something about grabbing more tissues and slipped out the door before anyone could stop you.
inside, tension lingered. keeho raised an eyebrow. โseriously, soul?โ
soul groaned, dragging both hands through his damp hair. โi didnโtโ i didnโt mean it like that.โ โsure sounded like you did,โ theo muttered.
jiung shook his head, clearly unimpressed. โy/n was just trying to take care of you. you couldโve just said you needed space.โ soulโs chest tightened. shame crept in, sour and heavy. he knew they were right. heโd seen the hurt in your eyes before you turned away.
and it was his fault.
you leaned against the cool wall outside, biting the inside of your cheek hard to keep tears at bay. the backstage hallway was quiet except for the faint thrum of fans still screaming outside the venue.
clingy. like you were smothering him. like your love was a burden. you hugged yourself, heart aching. the door opened behind you, and hurried footsteps followed.
โbaby.โ
you looked up to see soul, hair still damp, panic written all over his face. you turned away. โshouldnโt you be inside celebrating?โ he winced. โnot without you.โ
โyou seemed fine without me a minute ago.โ
the words cut, and he flinched.
โi didnโt mean it,โ he said quickly. โi was overwhelmed. i couldnโt even hear myself think. i lashed out, and i used the worst word i couldโve picked.โ your arms tightened around yourself. โyou made me feel like i was suffocating you.โ
he stepped closer, desperate. โno. youโre the only reason i can breathe on days like this. i swear, youโre not too much. youโreโฆ youโre everything.โ
you shook your head, voice small. โthen whyโd you say it?โ
โbecause iโm an idiot,โ he whispered. โbecause i was mad at myself for messing up a step, for being tired, for not being perfectโ and instead of owning that, i pushed you away. i hurt the one person who was only trying to help.โ
his voice cracked. โi hate that i did that to you. i hate that i made you doubt how much i need you.โ slowly, he reached for your hands. this time, you let him take them. his grip was trembling but steady, grounding. โyouโre not clingy,โ he said, looking straight into your eyes. โyouโre the one person who sees me when all of thisโโ he gestured vaguely toward the venue โโfeels too big. you keep me sane. iโm so, so sorry i made you feel like a burden.โ
your throat wobbled, the ache in your chest loosening just slightly. โdonโt do it again.โ he nodded quickly. โi wonโt. never again. if iโm overwhelmed, iโll tell you. iโll never push you away like that.โ
you searched his face, and all you saw was raw honesty. finally, you let out a shaky breath and leaned into him. he wrapped his arms around you instantly, holding you like heโd never let go. his hoodie was still damp from sweat, but you didnโt care.
โi need you,โ he murmured into your hair. โcling to me all you want. i want it. i want you.โ
you clung back, relief washing over you at last.
when you both walked back into the dressing room, everyone looked up. soul kept your hand firmly in his, expression set. โweโre okay.โ he said quietly. keeho smirked. โbetter be.โ jiung gave a small approving nod.
you squeezed soulโs hand, and this time, he squeezed back without hesitation. that night, when the lights were off and the noise of the day was gone, he whispered into the dark with your head on his chest:
โnever too much. never clingy. just mine.โ
and you believed him.
หโโฎ
jongseob - ์ข ์ญ
the dorm was unusually calm for a friday night. the other members were sprawled in the living roomโkeeho watching a movie, theo half-asleep with his hoodie up, jiung scrolling through his phone.
you were curled up on the end of the couch beside jongseob, legs tucked under you, head resting on his shoulder. heโd been quiet all evening, distracted by whatever track he was mixing on his laptop.
you didnโt mind at first. being near him was enough. you liked the way his warmth felt against your side, how his fingers tapped softly to a rhythm only he could hear.
but after nearly an hour of silence, you started tracing gentle circles on his arm. โyouโve been staring at the same screen for twenty minutes,โ you said softly. โyou okay?โ
he hummed, barely looking up. โyeah.โ
you smiled. โwant me to get you a snack?โ
โno, thanks.โ
you shifted a little closer, resting your chin on his shoulder to peek at the project. โwhatโre you working on?โ he sighed quietly. โjustโฆ something.โ your smile faltered. โyouโve been kinda distant lately.โ
that made him pause. just for a secondโthen his jaw tightened. โiโm just tired, y/n.โ โi know, but-โ you tried to wrap your arm around him, seeking closeness, something to melt the space between you.
but he pulled back a little, the movement small but sharp. โcan you not?โ you blinked. โnot what?โ his tone came out clipped, too harsh. โnot cling so much. itโs a lot sometimes.โ
the sound of it hit you like a slap.
even keeho glanced up from the movie, brows furrowing. theo lifted his head, still half-asleep with eyes flicking between you both. you froze, the air suddenly too heavy. โi was justโฆ trying to be close to you.โ
โyeah, well,โ jongseob muttered, rubbing his face. โsometimes itโs too much. it's clingy.โ
the room went dead silent.
you felt your throat tighten. โokay.โ you stood up quickly, forcing a small smile. โiโll give you space then.โ
keeho started to say something, but you were already heading toward the hallway. when the sound of your door shutting echoed down the hall, the silence that followed was deafening.
keeho turned down the volume on the TV. โwhat was that?โ jongseob groaned, dragging his hands down his face. โi donโt know. i justโi snapped.โ
โyeah,โ theo said flatly. โand you snapped at the wrong person.โ jiung leaned forward. โshe literally did nothing wrong.โ
soul, who had been silent up until then, looked over from his game. โyouโre in trouble.โ jongseob slumped back against the couch. โi know. god, i know.โ keeho sighed. โyouโve been stressed, sure, but that doesnโt give you the right to take it out on her. you better fix it.โ
he didnโt even respondโjust stood and disappeared down the hall, guilt written all over him. you were sitting on the edge of the bed, hugging a pillow, trying not to cry.
the word clingy kept replaying in your head; like it had weight. like it meant too much. youโd only wanted to help, to be near him. but now all you felt was foolish.
a soft knock interrupted your spiral.
โy/n?โ his voice came quietly from the other side of the door.
you didnโt answer.
he waited, then sighed. โcan i come in?โ after a long pause, you said, โyeah.โ he slipped inside, eyes immediately landing on you; small, curled up, and clearly hurt.
his chest twisted. โiโm sorry.โ
you didnโt look up. โyou made me feel like i was annoying.โ
he winced. โi didnโt mean that. i swear.โ
โthen whyโd you say it?โ
he hesitated, words fumbling out. โbecause i was tired, and my brain was loud, and i justโฆ wanted quiet for a second. but i didnโt mean you were too much. i love that youโre close to me. i just-โ he ran a hand through his hair, frustrated with himself. โi said it wrong. i hurt you. and i hate that.โ
you glanced at him, eyes glassy. โyou really did.โ
he nodded, walking closer slowly, like he was afraid to scare you off. โi know. iโm so sorry. youโre not clingy. youโre caring. youโre the only person who makes this place feel calm.โ
you stayed quiet, chewing your lip.
โsometimes,โ he said softly, โi get so lost in my own head that i forget how lucky i am to have someone who wants to be near me at all.โ that cracked something open in you. you blinked, tears slipping free.
โcome here,โ he whispered.
you hesitatedโthen let him pull you in.
his arms wrapped around you tightly, like he was afraid youโd disappear. he buried his face in your shoulder, voice breaking against your skin. โiโm sorry. i love when you touch me. i love when you care. i love you. i just got stupid.โ
your fingers curled into his hoodie, clinging back. โthen donโt push me away next time.โ โi wonโt,โ he promised instantly. โyou can hold me all you want. forever, if you want.โ
you laughed through a sniffle. โthatโs a little clingy.โ
he smiled, relief flooding his expression. โguess weโre both clingy then.โ
when you both rejoined the others in the living room, it was quieter softer somehow.
keeho didnโt say anything, just gave a little nod when he saw your hand in jongseobโs again. theo muttered, โgood job,โ without looking up. jiung smiled faintly.
you curled up next to him on the couch again, and this time, when you rested your head on his shoulder, he didnโt move away.
instead, his hand found yours under the blanket.
and just before you drifted off, you heard him whisper, barely audible, โcling to me all you want, baby. iโm not going anywhere.โ
หโโฎ
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