1 ) a television series i recently enjoyed is . . . i'm currently rewatching the blacklist! because i was missing it and as it turns out, has new seasons since i last saw it. it's very eden-core, actually. like the similarities between raymond reddington and eden are like. sooooo fucking funny. please watch the blacklist.

2 ) a meal or food that brings me the most comfort is . . . oh, i could not tell you. i'm such a foodie. i love all sorts of foods from everywhere, and they all make me so happy. okinawan zenzai ( the best kind btw. it's over shaved ice and sooo good and sometimes they make it with mugi and it's very good ) or sanmainiku. some of my other favorite foods / desserts are grape leaves, kunafeh, any kind of sandwich or salad with fresh mozz I LOVEEE FRESH MOZZ so fucking bad, lamb gyros, IDK MAN I COULD KEEP GOING i love food KJSBDKJC i love anything with noodles. pasta or ramen or udon or literally anything. i love noodles.

3 ) 1 - 3 songs i've had on repeat lately are . . . bad bunny's DtMF obviously. damiano david's zombie lady ( i will NOT accept criticism on that album idc what anyone says IDCIDCIDC ), and ghost's lachryma. also cheating but beartooth's ATTN.

4 ) my favorite go - to hobbies or pastimes are . . . writing, obviously! and reading! i am always reading. i've always been like this since i was young. i was a competitive reader, actually. like did y'all grow up ( those of you in america, at least, idk if y'all do this out of the states ) taking those AR tests??? i was obsessed. like, i've always loved learning and reading comprehension as a skill was something i was super good at as a kid by like ... force LOL. like i'd constantly read book after book and take those AR tests and i HAD to comprehend what i read if i wanted a good score on those tests because my school recorded the points and like, i got first place in the entire school in 4th & 5th grade AHAHA. like i don't know if i was having fun reading or if i just wanted to fucking win but either way i love reading and always have. i was also writing like fucking eragon/star wars/ingo crossover fanfic in the 3rd grade before i knew what that was SKDJBCKJS THOSE WERE MY HYPERFIXATIONS LOOOL. anyway, i love cooking! i'm very good at it!!!!

5 ) the pets i have at home ( if applicable ) are . . . bruno & oscar! bruno's on the left, oscar on the right!! little gremlins ... MISS AQSSA THESE PICTURES ARE FOR YOU!

6 ) the app on my phone with the most screentime is . . . tiktok..................................

7 ) something that always gives me heavy nostalgia is . . . god, any of the "old school" music i grew up listening to as a kid, either when i was really small or like, loooool when i was discovering my newly minted emo self writing fanfiction at my desk as i stared out into the street during a summer thunderstorm with rain beating against my window as the water flooded the streets and lightning crackled in the sky. i've always loved thunderstorms and the rain. i'll listen to things like early 2000s green day, AFI, or classic journey or sammy hagar era van halen ( best era of van halen btw i will not hear otherwise ), or my favorite new — at the time, anyway — emo bands like we came as romans ( they still have a special place in my heart. rip kyle ), etcetcetc. it's always going to be music! i love music. i'm always listening to music.

8 ) the earliest fandom i can remember joining was . . . death note KJSBDCKJSB. the next one was homestuck, i think. or maybe that came before. i don't know. maybe homestuck wasn't quite fandom because i wasn't in the community but i sure was rping death note and it gave me trauma because these old ass crusty dusty weirdo FREAK fujos in their 20s/30s were flooding my old matt jeevas blog for mattmello yaoi when i was like idk 12-13 LIKE!!!! GET AWAY FROM ME 😭😭😭

9 ) my zodiac sign is . . . ( & in my opinion, it should be ... ) pisces sun, pisces moon, and allegedly taurus rising. i asked my mom what time i was born and like she says idk 10 am japan time ( i was born in okinawa hehe ) but like idk the exact minutes so like it can't be that off, right. anyway i'm like so pisces-coded and i get the double pisces whammy so like as you'd suspect, i'm a crybaby bitch! i feel like i don't suit any taurus placements at all LMAO. except for maybe the stubbornness and slight possessiveness and inability to let go of material things of sentimental value ( i refuse to let go of this one baby blanket my mom made for me when i was like idk 2-3 like it's not like tattered and torn it's still quite like, in okay condition, but does have a few rough patches LOL ). idk what do you guys think suits me!! i have no idea what else i could be except for pisces but like, i'm such a chameleon a la bpd ... hehehe....

10 ) the last book i finished reading was . . . parable of the sower by octavia butler! i just finished it the other day. 5 star read btw. i bought parable of the talents the same day after work yesterday LOL like i didn't go to bed tuesday morning until i finished reading. it's soooo good. i love octavia butler so much. a top 10 author for me i think of all time.

11 ) my chinese zodiac animal is a . . . tiger!!! absolutely suits me and like, tigers have been my favorite animal forever I LOVEEEE CATS. ALL CATS DOES NOT MATTER. i just really am an animal person tbh it doesn't matter. i think my tigerness absolutely shows tho KJSBDC

12 ) my opinions on ghosts & hauntings are . . . i keep telling myself i don't believe in ghosts but like at the same time i will not play with the universe and i will not go to haunted places LMFAO. like. mildly superstitious to be cautious but with a grain of salt u know.

13 ) a few of my all-time favorite films are . . . LOTR AND THE HOBBIT. ALL OF THEM. STAR WARS PREQUEL TRILOGY. i do also love 1-3 obviously. I JUST LOVEEE star wars. also i was obsessed with the original marvel avengers film when it first came out like the grip tom hiddleston's loki STILL has on meeeeeeeeeee UGH.

14 ) if i could cast an actor to play myself, it would be . . . i'm super super super mixed so i don't even know but i'd want an okinawan actress for sure, and i feel like of the known actresses out there, fumi nikaido is probably the closest physical match like i don't at ALL look like her but we have similar enough features in like eye and nose and face shape that i wouldn't be mad about it KJBSDKJC

15 ) i'm currently obsessed with . . . i've been playing marvel rivals again like crazyyyyy........... thank u lissi, yana, and mack... also hockey olympics obviously

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Introspective Reflection-- A lot of my characters have a very active internal dialogue, whether that's because the character themselves are very introspective or because I enjoy writing through a character's thoughts, I'm not fully sure. I enjoy seeing the way a character is thinking versus how they are acting, whether that's opposite action and thought or how the action arises from the thought.

Tragedy and Angst -- I do love a tragedy and I love the character drama that comes from angst and working through emotions. I do have some light-hearted threads, but my writing tends towards the more grounded, leaning towards angst.

Struggling Against the Narrative -- Sort of implied by my url, but I love a character that seems to have some particular fate (narrative) and is doing everything in their power to defy that fate. I love a second option or a third option even, when a character is shown the 'possible' paths and decides to make one of their own instead.

Probably run-on sentences oops -- I love a long, rambling sentence with too many commas and I'm so sorry about that! If there's ever a time you (the reader/RP partner) need something adjusted for clarity, please tell me!

mbti: entp.

Quick-witted and audacious, people with the ENTP personality type (Debaters) aren’t afraid to disagree with the status quo. In fact, they’re not afraid to disagree with pretty much anything or anyone. Few things light up these personalities more than a bit of verbal sparring – and if the conversation veers into controversial terrain, so much the better. people with this personality type are knowledgeable and curious with a playful sense of humor, and they can be incredibly entertaining. They simply have an offbeat, contrarian idea of fun – one that usually involves a healthy dose of spirited debate.

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Sevens are extroverted, optimistic, versatile, and spontaneous. Playful, high-spirited, and practical, they can also misapply their many talents, becoming over-extended, scattered, and undisciplined. They constantly seek new and exciting experiences, but can become distracted and exhausted by staying on the go. They typically have problems with impatience and impulsiveness. At their Best: they focus their talents on worthwhile goals, becoming appreciative, joyous, and satisfied.

temperament: sanguine choleric

The Marketer is more enthusiastic than the other Sanguines. They get very excited. This is an assertive and energetic persons who works well with and through people. They have an outgoing interest in others and the ability to gain the respect and confidence of varied types of individuals. They strive to do business in a friendly way while pushing forward to win their objectives and sell their point of view. They easily promote their own ideas or the ideas of others. They exhibit poise and confidence in most situations, especially social events. They will become bored without activity and social involvement.

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You are an extremely difficult person to get along with (86.43%).

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god flirting with zeus is my final straw

seymour birkhoff

LIFE OF A SPIDER (DRAFT) by halsey. cause i'm the spider in your kitchen weaving webs through every year and i worked real hard on the last one but the last one got me here i'm minding my own business but my presence makes your curse i should be getting better but i'm only getting worse and, god, how dare i even think of choosing here to die? 'cause then i'm just a problem that you have to take outside and i know you hate the sight of me, i haunt you when you're fast asleep i've got eight legs, a million eyes, if only i had eight more lives 'cause i'm the spider on the ceiling and you're nothing but a guy you don't like it when i cry, you would break me if you tried and you will because i dared to be alive

I'M JUST A KID by simple plan. i'm just a kid and life is a nightmare i'm just a kid, i know that it's not fair nobody cares, 'cause i'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight and maybe when the night is dead, i'll crawl into my bed i'm staring at these four walls again i'll try to think about the last time i had a good time everyone's got somewhere to go and they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes

GOING UNDER by evanescence. now i will tell you what i've done for you 50 thousand tears i've cried screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you and you still won't hear me (going under) don't want your hand this time, i'll save myself maybe i'll wake up for once (wake up for once) not tormented, daily defeated by you just when i thought i'd reached the bottom i'm dying again

NUMB by LINKIN PARK. i'm tired of being what you want me to be feeling so faithless, lost under the surface don't know what you're expecting of me put under the pressure of walking in your shoes every step that i take is another mistake to you (caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) i've become so numb, i can't feel you there become so tired, so much more aware i'm becoming this, all i want to do is be more like me and be less like you

HOPE UR OK by olivia rodrigo. i knew a boy once, when i was small a tow-head blonde, with eyes of salt he played the drum in the marching band his parents cared more about the bible than being good to their own child he wore long sleeves 'cause of his dad and somehow, we fell out of touch hope he took his bad deal and made a royal flush don't know if i'll see you again someday but if you're out there, i hope that you're okay