May I request Matt Murdock x reader. Reader is insecure about their voice since they don't think it's attractive or sounds feminine.
A Voice Like No Other
Matt Murdock x reader
Words: 803
Authorâs note: Omg yes yes yes, thank you! Iâve literally been twiddling my thumbs waiting for a request while also trying to think of my own fics ofc. But yay so happy you requested đ Okay also this ask is so real because Iâve been told sort of bad things about my voice and I hate hearing how my voice sounds, soooo this is reallllll! Anyways thanks for requesting đđđ
âYour phoneâs ringing!â You shouted towards the open doorway that led to Mattâs bedroom.Â
You had spent the night at his, (finding the walk to your own place much too far), and you were currently helping with the remaining dishes from breakfast while he was just finishing up his shower.Â
âCan you see who it is?â His voice rang back, not recognizing any of the specific ringtones he had saved for any of his usual contacts.Â
You glanced back at your hands that were wet, âyeah, just one sec.âÂ
You tried your best to quickly rinse your hands and dry them but as you dried them the sound came to a stop.Â
âToo late.â
âDid they leave a voicemail?â
âLet me check.â
Easily opening Mattâs cell you press the telephone icon before clicking his voicemail list. You were about to reply that the unknown caller did in fact leave a voicemail when something stopped you.Â
On the screen you noticed a list of old voicemails with your name attached to every one.Â
The fact that there was a list made you slightly nervous but still you hit the most recent one.Â
âHey Matt, itâs me,â immediately your shoulders hunched together as you physically cringed at your own voice before clicking the next one.Â
âHey MattââÂ
Before that one can continue you click a third one. âHeyââ you donât even get past the first word on that one.Â
You clicked on a final one that was actually labeled with your name and the words sleepy beside it.Â
âMatty Matt Matt,â Jesus, your nose scrunched at the utter disgust you felt before pressing back.Â
Matt, finally dressed but hair still not completely dry, comes out from his room.Â
You waste no time in asking him the important question.
âBlegh, why do you have like a hundred voicemails from me?â
âA hundred? I donât have a hundred voicemails, I just have a few.â
Your eyes shift back to the phone in your hand as you start selecting each voicemail.Â
âIâm going to delete them real quick.â Matt was quick in grabbing the phone, practically giving you no time to react. âNow why would you even do that?â
âAre you kidding me? I sound terrible. I just listened to the first few and I sound like a scratchy conductor who doesnât know how to open their mouth right. Itâs gross, let me delete them.â
You hold your hand out waiting for the phone, which of course never makes it there.Â
âWhat are you talking about? Your voice isnât scratchy, and I can understand you perfectly fine.â
âI sound disgusting Matt. Please?â
Right now you probably knew you sounded possibly like the biggest brat in the world but you were honestly getting desperate. Imagining him hearing your annoying voice never hit you before but now you realize itâs probably mostly how he recognizes you.Â
âMatt Iâm serious, I sound infuriating and loud.â You repeated the words youâve heard directed at you and your voice in the past. Your voice mustâve sounded desperate as his tone finally matched the seriousness of yours.Â
âWoah hey,â his voice was calm now, much more enticing than yours, at least thatâs what you thought. âYour voice is not infuriating, alright. Itâs not annoying or loud. Do you want to know what I picture when I hear your voice?â
It didnât matter if you said yes or no, you knew he was going to tell you anyway.Â
âWhen you talk I picture a walk along the beach...the waves sweeping in and out against the land but never is it annoying. And when youâre excited itâs like the sounds of an arcade at the boardwalk nearby. You want to go near that sound. It sounds exciting and fun. Your voice is just like that, so stop discarding it as something unloved. Because I love it.â
You wanted to fight against his praise, tell him what people have said in the past thatâs now been ingrained in your head for years but how could you when his words were that sweet.Â
âYou can keep the voicemails. Just donât play them around me please.â
âWeâll unpack that later.â
You frowned and he set the phone down, reaching for your arm and pulling you into his warm, loving embrace.Â
âEvery single part of you, from your voice, to your brains, to your appearance, is remarkable.â
âIf you say so,â you reply, a slightly forced smile spreading on your lips.Â
âNot just if I say so. There is no question about it.â
You let out a little sigh, letting some of your stress get carried out with it as your head rested against his chest. It was warm, comforting
Who knows, maybe with time and reminders you could learn to dislike your voice just a little bit less.Â
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Summary: Called up to fight, your tearful farewell to Tommy on platform one of Birmingham Moor Street station leaves you with nothing but dread as you watch him depart for the war unfolding across the channel. But with Tommy now bravely fighting for King and country, you too find yourself in danger when someone from your past reappears in your life, forcing you to make a drastic decision that will have you sent to the front lines in France to face the horrors of war.
Warnings: Language, angst, mutual pining, descriptions of war, descriptions of injury.
Word Count: 3.5K
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Called up, coerced, conscripted. Whatever it may be that had each man bidding their final farewells before they embarked on the fight for Britain, one thing was guaranteed. Not a soul between them would be shown mercy when it came to the empty fields of no-mans' land and the destruction that awaited them at the sound of a whistle. For each was but a mere soldier, suited and booted for a war, neither class nor money could save them from.
And here you were with your own soldier. Standing on platform one of Birmingham Moor Street station, with only two minutes remaining until you'd kiss the last of summer and the love of your life goodbye.
"All aboard!" the whistle-blowing conductor shouted for every uniformed son, father, husband and lover to board the train as the chugging wheels came to a screeching halt along the iron-welded tracks.
" Y/N?" you heard the faint sound of your name being called as your welling eyes darted in a panic to the wailing of women desperately holding onto their men. Of sobbing children tugging at the ends of their father's uniform to be pulled into the safety of their arms for one last final hug goodbye.
" Darling?" Tommy's voice quietly drifted to you with a sweep of his thumb over the curve of your cheek in a gentle attempt to calm your trembling fears as a weeping mother, straightening the bill of her son's hat, caught your eye over his broad shoulders. Her 16 years of nurturing him coming to a tearful end as she waved him off into uncertainty.
" Darling, look at me" Tommy cupped your chin, raising your eyes to meet his when your body fell to the weight of the heartbreak crushing against your chest with a mumbling string of pleas as you buried your head into his jacket. Blurry eyes straining through your tears to see a woman sobbing into her husband's shoulder as he pressed a hand to the swell of her belly, and the unborn child safely nestled inside.
" Tom, please...don't..." your words trailed off into nothingness, into unanswered cries for him to stay as you desperately pulled him from the platform edge, pulling him from the surrounding chaos to a secluded corner away from the deafening cries of women and children.
" Y/N I..." Tommy battled the internal tug of war within him to stay, and his duty as an Englishman that had been called upon by King and country.
Burying his head in the locks of your hair, Tommy breathed in the soapy lavender remnants in the seconds that remained as the ticking hands of the clock stroked noon. And as a gentle breeze that came with the crowd of men boarding the train, a brief silence settled between you as a blur of rushing feet raced by.
A moment of peace among the mayhem, you and Tommy blocked out the wailing cries for the chiming sounds of the fairgrounds' music box from your youth as he gently swayed you in his hands, tips of your noses brushing against one another as your eyes closed to the flashing images of spinning carousels and the summer memories you'd both call upon when the approaching darkness of war weighed you down.
" That's enough, lad. Come on now" a superior officer had him slipping from your arms as he ushered him to the wooden carriage.
" You stay with Polly at Watery Lane, you hear me?" Tommy strained to see you over the teeming crowd of men boarding the train. His desperation to be heard, muffled out by the rustling sound of bodies pushing him forward.
" Come on son, soldier up. You're going to war!" the seasoned officer, hardened by the many battles he'd seen, pulled him by his duffle bag of neatly folded clothes back in line.
" You stay with Aunt Pol, Y/N!" Tommy called out to you as every imaginable scenario flooded to him in a suffocating wave of worry. His farewell kiss, stolen from him in a panicked moment to secure your safety as he was pushed onto the crowded train.
" Tommy, wait!" you raced across the platform, hat flying from your head as you and a dozen other women collided into the closing doors for one final embrace goodbye.
" I love you. Fuck, I love you!" Tommy pulled you up off your feet to the window of the cabin door, his adoration for you mumbling through each breath of his lips crashing into yours as he dragged his hat from his head to cover the tracks of his tears streaming down his face.
" I love you too, Tommy" your hands clutched onto his strong frame, feet tip toeing in the air as you made him swear he'd return. "Promise you'll come back to me? Promise me?"
" I promise" he pressed his nodding head to your brow as your lips rushed to plant one last kiss before you landed back down to earth.
" Don't you forget me, Thomas Shelby!" you called to him, wiping the tears from your cheeks as the steam engine began to whistle, the chugging wheels began to turn.
" Now how could I ever forget that, eh!" your heart skipped a beat at the echoing words he'd spoken to you that last summer's day in 1907 as he leaned out the window, gold ring catching the rays of sun in a twinkling goodbye.
As the swirling cloud of steam pummeled along the tracks, you stood in silence watching the disappearing smile of Tommy through the white clouds of coal being burnt until he faded from sight.
" They'll come back, won't they?" The mother to be who had caught your eye in the chaos moments before asked as she stood beside you, cradling her blossoming bump in her hands.
" Yes..." a tear rolled down your face as you turned your head to see the same uncertainty you felt pooling in her lashes.
Hands clutching those of the stranger beside you, a moment of shared fear had her leaning onto you for support. Your welling eyes watching the last of the engines' smoke funnel into the air above the red bricks of Birmingham's city as you numbly whispered his oath to yourself.
"...he promised"
Sat at the foot of Tommy's bed with a book precariously placed on the knobbly end of its metal frame, you signed off your message with a kiss before securing your handwritten letter in its paper envelope with a stamp destined for the battlefields of France.
A repetitive ritual that had become a part of your daily habits, one that had cost you a pretty penny with your weekly trips to the red mailbox on the corner of Watery Lanes' dusty street. For letter writing had become the sole part of your day you found comfort in. A comfort to you, but one that had begun to concern the remaining members residing in the Shelby household with its frequency.
" Tea?" Polly's eyes rose above the folded paper of doom and gloom from across the channel as you plodded down the creaking wooden stairs into the living room.
" Gotta get to the mailbox before last pick up" you sheepishly pulled your coat around your shoulders as you tucked the envelope into your pocket, slipping past Ada sat by the crackling fire and her looks of concern.
"Only a short one this time" you turned back with a smile, one you hoped would reassure them enough into thinking you hadn't become reliant on sending letters to safeguard the last of your sanity.
"Ok, love" Polly's voice softly replied, not wanting to prod and poke into what gave you comfort in such dark times.
" How many is that, now?" Adas' head snapped to her aunt with the sound of the front door swinging shut.
" This week? Three" Polly rose from her chair, stubbing the end of her cigarette into the plate of stale biscuits she had baked to busy her mind from the relentless news of war that bombarded her every waking moment.
" I worry about her, Pol. We've had no letters from any of them in weeks" Ada watched her throw the newspaper into the roaring fire, fingers curling around the mantel of photo frames, to the portrait of her uniformed nephews and the candle burning beside it, she lit with a prayer each morning.
" Letters are the least of our concerns, Ada" she looked to each brave man she proudly called kin, eyes settling on Tommy and the worry that had ignited in her bones for you and your emerging lack luster for life since his departure.
"God help us if they don't come back" Polly shook her head with a sigh as her eyes drifted to the burning wick, its dancing flame flickering in her hazel eyes.
" But they will, Polly. They will come back " Ada rose to her feet for the bottom of the stairs with a knitted frown, eyes darting to her aunt for her famous insight she hoped would settle her fears about her own sweetheart, bravely fighting alongside her brother in France.
" Whatever's left of them" Polly's forbading words sent her niece's heart plummeting to her stomach with dread, not even her practicality and thick skin could ward off.
For Polly's premonitions were not those of a rambling woman with the desire to install fear. But words of reality. A reality her watchful eye had taken note of, when the steady stream of injured men no longer fit for war returned on stretchers back to Small Heath, screaming for their mothers, screaming of the horrors of war. Horrors her nephews were still in the thick of, still bravely fighting against.
Would her boys return men of sound mind? Or would the screams of troubled hearts be heard by all those residing in Watery Lane?
Last in line, your shuffling feet dodged the large sand bags propped up against the makeshift bunker that could see a hoard of people descend down at any given moment as your eyes darted through the many women eager to send their letters from home.
" Come on, please" you panicked, fearing yours wouldn't reach the brightly painted letter box in time before the postman swooped in and sealed off any hopes of yours making last day's delivery.
With a sigh of relief, you watched the rapidly shortening queue come to an end, leaving you the last person in line along the quiet street to send your sealed letter. That was until a tattooed hand and an all too familiar voice from your past blocked your attempts.
" That for lover boy?" the voice you hoped to never hear again startled you as your letter scrunched into its owner's knuckles covering the thin opening and your only line of contact with Tommy.
" Sean..." you stepped back, eyes widening as he propped himself with a grin up against the red letter box.
" Guessing you've forgotten we pass through this dump every year" he swiveled the peak of his cap to the back of his head with a snap of his tongue, eyes glaring at you from head to toe.
"Stay away from me" your brow lowered as you span on your heel to the safe haven of your new home, and Polly's hand gun she kept stuffed in the kitchen cabinet if needs be.
" Where do you think you're running off to again, ay? You owe me, Y/N!" he raced after you, grabbing your arm between the heavy bands of gold stacked on his fingers.
" I don't owe you shit!" you shrugged him off, feet walking you back to the curb of the road as you watched his heavy boots caked in mud from the fields of the fair follow after you.
" That pretty little head of yours is so forgetful" his condescending tone seeped through his smirk of enjoyment upon seeing your face of fear dart around the empty street as he rapidly closed in.
" You be forgetting how I helped you out when your daddy kicked it, now don't you?" he hopped up onto the sidewalk with hands buried in his pockets as your back hit the brick wall of terraced houses.
" So that wasn't out of the kindness of your rotten heart then?" you glared at him as a chuckle of amusement left his smirking lips.
" Darling, a deal's a deal" he grinned, stretched arms displaying the many unsavoury dealings he'd made that had him dripping in gold.
"Don't tell me you thought my attentions towards you were free, hm? Sweetheart?" his voice menacingly teased as he closed the last centimeters between you to tuck a limp lock of hair behind your ear.
Free? No. Nothing came free when dealing with Sean O'Connor. You knew there would be a price to pay the moment you asked him to house you in return for extended work at his family's fair. You knew he'd play on your reluctance to return to the old country your mother and brothers had fled for, to a hardened way of life you had no intention of living again. You knew you had strung it out as long as you could until his hounding of you, until his talks of wedding and bedding you became a daily occurrence you could no longer avoid. You knew.
Stupid girl, you berated yourself as your eyes scrunched shut to the feeling of his calloused fingers tracing the vein of charging blood, pumping in your neck.
" Any decent man would 'ave stayed back and kept you safe" he breathed a heavy sigh that had your welling eyes flutter open with a trembling bottom lip as his fingers traced the edges of the letter in your hand.
" Maybe he doesn't love you, Y/N" his brows knitted with his misplaced observations clearly intended to have you question Tommy's priorities, to install doubt into your already tired mind.
" My Tommy's no coward" you seethed, pushing past his imposing frame as his curling smile dropped from his face at your unwavering support for your man fighting hundreds of miles away in France.
" Old men make wars, so that young men can die, darling!" he made his opinions known to every resident of your street as you clutched your hands around your body with each wobbly step back to the front door of Tommy's childhood home.
" You owe me, Y/N! Don't you forget, you fucking owe me!" Sean shouted to you as the door to Watery Lane closed shut, his grinding teeth snapping to the whispering chatter of old women that shared your sentiments for the bastard too cowardly to fight for the future of his country.
" What, ay?" O'Connor spat at the feet of a crowd of cane-wielding women as he turned the corner and stormed off into the back alleys of Small Heath.
With his words still ringing in your ears, you raced to the single bed and feathered cushion in Tommy's room to bury the buzzing words of truth found in Sean's mighty speech on the stark reality of war your summer love was fighting for.
" Tommy..." your eyes blinked through your tears to the weathered window and darkening skies of twinkling stars peaking through.
"...come back to me" your head turned with a sob into the lasting notes of his musky cologne still embedded in his pillow. Chest tearing with a strangled cry a foolish part of you hoped he would hear, hoped would have him racing back to you to stop you from another night of crying yourself to sleep.
With the last of your tears spilt, your body drained of force, you slipped from the quilted bedding to the window of Tommy's room and the soothing nightlight in the sky above, lulling the residences of Small Heath into a peaceful slumber.
" Sweet dreams, Tommy" the pads of your fingers ghosted over the weathered glass as you looked up at the serene night, to the peaceful orb sat among a dusting of stars. Unaware that at that very moment, was a fraction of time shared with Tommy as he lay in the pits of the mile-long trenches across the channel, crystal blues gazing up at the glowing moon as he whispered you goodnight...
" Sweet dreams, darling"
While the cats away, the mice will play. Or as Polly now found herself saying, when honourable men are away, the rotten come out to play. Her words ringing true for every woman left in Britain to fight off the strays alone while their men fought off bayonets and gunfire.
A harsh reality you suddenly found yourself facing with Sean's unexpected appearance back in your life. One you'd be darned to sit around and endure until Tommy returned.
But when rushed decisions were made to get out of dodge, you found yourself thrusted mere miles away from the enemy line as a newly trained, newly qualified nurse in as little as a few weeks.
Out of the frying pan, and into the fire. Shit.
" Nurse, you and Helen must go at once" Sister Margaret pulled you and your colleague to the side in the chaos as a truck load of soldiers, bloody and bruised, were pulled out one by one on stretchers into the makeshift hospital on the outskirts of what the newspapers called, the battle of the Somme.
"To where, sister Margaret ?" you wiped your crimson-stained hands on the front of your apron, ears battling to hear over the strangled cries of men begging to be taken out like a wounded horse, rather than lose a limb to the doctor's hand saw.
" La Bosielle" her hand clutched the rosery around her neck as she silently prayed for those that had fallen, those that would lay for an eternity at the bottom of the crater in the small French village only a few miles away from camp.
La Grand Mine, the English called it. The result of a 16 meter deep tunnel with 30 tonnes of explosives buried within. A booming start to the battle of the Somme. A victory for England and France but the beginning of a conflict that would cost the lives of many men for the next five months.
"Go child. You must tend to the wounded" she settled a heavy bag of medical supplies that would see you through only an hour of tending to the injured if the stories that had seeped back to you were true.
"Lieutenant Pike will accompany you both to the front" she ushered you and Helen onto the back of a truck full of men ordered to return to battle or see the end of the barrel of a gun for their cowardice if they refused.
Blood rushing to your ears with a deafening ring, your and Helen's hands reached for each other in a panic as your eyes watched the colour drain from each man hunched in the back of the small cargo truck as the rumbling wheels took them back to their cheated death.
" God be with you. God be with all of you!" sister Margaret's shaky fingers hoovered over her trembling lips as she watched you disappear through the film of fog that had settled between the muddied tents when the bandaged soldier opposite you rose his defeated face with a scoff as he mumbled the sentiments of all the men silently waiting for the reaper to collect their doomed souls.
" God. God's abandoned us"
"This way ladies" you followed the Lieutenant through the shovel-dug trenches, your bodies huddled together with each muddy step you took as every gunfire, every shattering bomb landing on the deserted fields of no-mans' land had you flinching with a stifled gasp as the earth trembled below you.
"Y/N..." Helen's hold on you tightened as you passed through the line of men each side of you with vacant stares in their eyes, gaunt faces and battered bodies undisturbed by the sounds of bullets peppering into the soil.
" In here" Lieutenant Pike threw open the makeshift door hanging by a thread, to a small bunker that had been dug out for briefings, for shelter, and for today, a hospital where you would see to every injury imaginable without the supervision of a trained doctor.
" Right. Just like we've been trained" you smoothed down the front of your apron with a shaky breath as you looked to Helen's trembling hands unwrapping the tightly bound cloth of scalpels, of dagger-toothed knives you prayed you wouldn't need to call upon.
" Go on" Pike ushered the first man forward as each followed slowly behind until the darkened, muddied room was full of soldiers too tired, too worn to stand to attention.
" Where have these men been?" Helen tended to a deep wound encrusted in his hairline, caked with so much dirt she couldn't distinguish what from what in the dimly lit candled room.
" Below miss, underground" the Lieutenant arranged each man into an orderly line for the remaining soldiers to enter.
" You mean..." her eyes widened, hand full of cotton doused in alcohol, hovering over the soldier under her care she had suddenly realised was one of the men that had spent months tunneling along enemy lines.
" Come" you shook the shared stare of horror with Helen from your face as you waved the next man forward when the rustling feet of the last three soldiers to enter had your eyes darting up to each of them one by one until they settled on a pair of blue orbs dull of life, hidden under a face covered in mud, staring back at you.
Danny Whiz-bang. Freddie Thorne...Tommy Shelby. Your Tommy.
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chapter summary: Yunho arrives at his new dorm, hoping for peace and quiet, but his expectations are shattered when he meets his unexpected and enigmatic roommate
pairing: yunho x mingi
genre:Â smut (not yet but there will be eventually), angst, fluff, romance, m/m, non!idol!ateez, sub!yunho, dom!mingi, drama, coming of age, collage, religion
rating: 18+ (for the whole series bc there will be smut eventually) | mdni
word count: 2.2k
warnings under
collage, roommates, sub!yunho, dom!mingi, bad boy mingi and religious church good boy yunho same-sex attraction, m/m, teasing, dark themes, homophobia, self discovery, pet names, strangers to lovers, religion and religious topics, aaaand more will be added soon hehehe
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Yunho grew up in a house where silence spoke louder than words. Yunho grew up in a house where everything had its place.
Every Sunday morning, he woke up to the scent of his momâs freshly brewed coffee and the sound of his dad humming hymns in the kitchen. Breakfast was always ready by 8:00 a.m. sharp, the same time they left for church.
His family wasnât unkind; they loved each other in the way a well-rehearsed choir loves its conductor: faithfully, dutifully, but not too loudly. The Jeongs didnât argue or slam doors. They lived in neat, quiet harmony, with Bible verses framed on the walls and a family portrait taken at the church picnic hanging above the mantel.
Yunho always knew his role in this symphony of order.
He was the son they prayed for, the one who didnât talk back or skip curfews. At 13, he was the boy who stayed late after services to help clean up, stacking chairs and sweeping floors while other kids hung out in parking lots blasting music. He was the one teachers praised, neighbors admired, and his parents held up as an example, they always smiled proudly, calling him âtheir angel.â
And Yunho liked being good.
At least, he thought he did. Until the dreams started.
Dreams that left him waking up in a panic, drenched in sweat, begging God for forgiveness before he even got out of bed. Dreams that werenât about the soft curves of a girlâs body, like he knew they were supposed to be, but about sharp jawlines, strong hands, and broad shoulders.
It wasnât just the dreams. It was the way he couldnât stop looking. At first, it was small thingsâadmiring how his classmateâs uniform shirt stretched across his chest during gym class or wondering why he felt so warm when he saw certain smiles. He convinced himself it was normal. Just admiration, nothing more. But it didnât stay fleeting.
He prayed for hours at night, whispering to God to make it go away. âPlease, Lord,â heâd say, clutching the cross on his bedside table until his hands hurt. âDonât let me feel like this.â But the thoughts didnât stop.
He never told anyone. Not his friends, not his parents, not even the priest during confession.
He thought about telling Father Lee once. After Sunday Mass, he lingered outside the confessional, hands trembling, heart racing. But when he finally stepped inside, knees pressing into the wooden kneeler, the words froze in his throat.
âBless me, Father, for I have sinned,â he managed, his voice barely audible.
The priestâs calm, steady reply came through the lattice screen. âWhat troubles you, my child?â
Yunhoâs hands gripped the edge of the pew until his knuckles turned white. He wanted to say it. He wanted to confess. But the weight of it, the shameâit was too much.
Instead, he mumbled something about talking back to his parents and skipped dinner that night, too sick with guilt to eat.
Books became his escape.
Yunho discovered literature the way some kids discover a secret hideout: by accident, but it quickly became his sanctuary. He wasnât one to seek it out; books, like distant cousins, were something that didnât seem to fit in his world. But on a lazy summer afternoon, when his parents were busy with their own lives, Yunho wandered into his fatherâs study. The room smelled of old wood and dust, filled with shelves of books that always seemed too formal to touch, too thick to bother with.
It was there, buried under a stack of untouched textbooks, that he found an old copy of The Great Gatsby. The cover was faded, the corners of the pages slightly curled, but something about it called to him. There was no reason for Yunho to pick it upâhe wasnât interested in the world of the Roaring Twenties, the glamor or the excessâbut something about the worn edges, the ink fading in places like a secret waiting to be unraveled, made him curious.
He sat down on the living room floor, cradling the book in his hands, the cover smooth under his fingertips. When he opened the first page, it was as if the world had shifted. The words seemed to leap off the page, weaving a narrative that was both foreign and familiar. He got lost in it: the parties, the glamour, the yearning, the tragedy. The way Jay Gatsbyâs life felt so full of promise, yet so hollow at the same time.
There was something about the way words could paint entire worlds, how they could make you feel things so vividly that it almost hurt. With every turn of the page, Yunho found himself sinking deeper into Gatsbyâs world, a world that was both dazzling and dark, where no one was who they appeared to be. For the first time, Yunho could relate to the idea of masksâof playing a part and feeling alone, no matter how many people surrounded you. It was as if the book had taken something deep inside of him and pulled it into the light.
For Yunho, books werenât just stories; they were freedom.
They were a bridge to a place where no one judged him, where no one expected him to be perfect. In the pages of The Great Gatsby, there was no family name to live up to, no prayers to recite, no duty to be a certain kind of son. There was just the raw, beautiful act of existing without judgment. The characters, flawed and human, didnât try to pretend they were anything other than what they were. They loved, they hurt, they sought something moreâbut they were always, in some way, authentic.
Books gave Yunho a place to escape the life he had to leadâone that demanded perfection, one that demanded silence when all he wanted was to shout. Every character, whether they were noble or tragic, flawed or redeemed, felt real to him in ways his real life didnât. He could be whoever he wanted to be when he opened a book. He could think things that scared him, feel things that frightened him, all in the comfort of knowing it wasnât real.
He read everything he could get his hands onâShakespeare, Frost, BrontĂ«. Wuthering Heights, Jane Eyre, Hamletâthe classics that made him feel like he was standing on the edge of something monumental. He fell in love with the way poetry could turn pain into something beautiful, the way prose could make even the simplest moments feel profound. Each word he read felt like an invitation to a world he was never allowed to explore in real life.
There was power in poetry. The kind of power that made you feel seen even when you werenât speaking. A line from a poem could echo in his chest like a secret whispered into his earâhow the pain in the words felt like his own pain, and yet it was shared, universal. He began scribbling lines in the margins of his notebooks, quoting his favorite poets, trying to capture something of the way they made him feel. But his words never seemed enough. His words never seemed to touch the depth of the feeling, the longing he couldnât explain.
In books, there was no shame. No guilt. Just characters and their stories, raw and human. No one to look at him with pity in their eyes, no one to ask questions he couldnât answer. He was free in a way that no one ever told him he could be.
When the acceptance letter from the University of Seoul arrived, Yunho saw it as a sign.
A fresh start.
A chance to focus on his studies, to leave behind the heavy silence of his house, the suffocating expectations of his family. To be free, not just in his mind but in the world. He dreamed of quiet nights in a tidy dorm room, stacks of books surrounding him, the hum of a desk lamp keeping him company as he read well into the night. He imagined himself walking the leafy campus, the world sprawling before himâendless possibilities, untouched and waiting. He imagined being the kind of student who got lost in lectures, who lost track of time in libraries, who got so caught up in books and ideas that the rest of the world felt far away.
He imagined a life where he didnât have to hide who he was. Where his thoughts didnât feel like a burden. He could be a literature major, someone who was known for his intelligence, for his passion for the written word, without anyone ever asking about the things he kept hidden. No one would ever know about the turmoil inside him, the yearning that crept up every time he thought about something or someone in a way that didnât feel right.
The thought of a fresh start was everything heâd dreamed of. It was the chance to begin again, to bury his fears in books, to embrace his studies without the guilt.
But when he stepped into his new dorm, those dreams started to crack.
The first thing Yunho noticed about the dorm was the smell.
It wasnât badâjust different. A faint mix of cleaning solution and something else he couldnât quite place, something organic, maybe even a little musky, like a place that had been lived in. It hit him instantly, a sharp contrast to the scent of the fresh air outside. As he stepped inside, the small living room greeted him with beige walls, mismatched furnitureâan old, faded gray couch with a wobbly coffee table in front of it, and a tiny kitchenette tucked into the corner like an afterthought. The kind of space that made you think the people who built it were more concerned with efficiency than comfort.
There were two doors leading to separate bedrooms, just like the housing brochure promised, and a narrow hallway that led to a cramped bathroom. It was basic, functional, nothing fancy.
Yunho let out a small sigh of relief. It wasnât perfect, but it was enough. It was quietâblissfully, eerily quiet. The kind of quiet his mom had warned him about, the kind heâd been desperate for since theyâd first dropped him off at the university.
âCall us when you get there, alright? And eat well! Are you sure youâre not forgetting anything? Donât forget your vitaminsâoh, and make sure you pack extra socks!â His momâs voice had been a constant hum in the back of his mind the entire journey. She was always so concerned, so fixated on the little things.
His dad, quieter but just as insistent, had kept reminding him to stay focused on his studies and âbe a good boy.â It wasnât that they didnât trust him, but theyâd never really let him out of their sight long enough to be sure he could take care of himself. So, as Yunho unloaded his suitcase into his new dorm room, his parentsâ voices still echoed in his head. âEat well,â âTake care of yourself,â âStay safe.â They said it as if every part of his life depended on their supervision.
But now, as he stood there alone in his new room, he felt a little freer than he expected. Sure, the place wasnât what heâd dreamed of, but it was his. No hovering, no expectations. It felt⊠private. Safe.
He dropped his suitcase by the door and took a moment to look around. For a second, the room felt emptyâlike it was waiting to be filled with something, or someone. Yunho had imagined this moment a thousand times in his head, but it didnât match what he had expected. Heâd pictured coming here to study, to read in peace, to finally get a break from the pressure of his family and the silent, constant burden of expectations that never seemed to ease. Here, he thought, would be his fresh start.
Then he saw it.
A black leather jacket draped over the couch.
It looked expensive, the kind of thing Yunho had only seen in movies or on mannequins in department stores. The leather was soft and worn, creased in places where it had clearly been lived in. The silver zippers glinted faintly under the fluorescent lights, and as Yunho stepped closer, the scent of cologne hit himâsharp, musky, and a little too out of place in a room this plain.
Yunho frowned. His roommate must have arrived already.
Curious, he stepped closer and reached out, fingers brushing against the cool material. It felt smooth under his touch, almost like the jacket had been designed to be a piece of armorâsomething protective, something that spoke of confidence and mystery. A strange thought flickered in his mind: Who was this person?
He had barely processed the thought when he heard a voice, smooth and low, slicing through the silence.
âSorry. I shouldnât have left it there.â
Yunho froze, his breath catching in his throat, as the sound of another voice rippled through him.
Excerpt from the upcoming chapter of I Hear a Symphony
The presence announced itself with a disapproving hum. Rodrigo ignored him, forcing his eyes shut tighter as if he could will the man away.
âYou should not be here.â The soft, Austrian accent reluctantly pulled Rodrigo from his reverie.
He cracked an eye open, thin gaze landing on Herr Mozart.
âNot now, Amadeus.â The words came out in a harsh whisper.
âAmadeus,â the man huffed, offended. âYou used to respect me. What happened to âMaestroâ?â
âI did. I do! Mierda, please, Maestro!â Rodrigo begged, desperation creeping into his voice. âSheâs almost to the end.â
Mozart remained silent, allowing the young conductorâs request. As they listened, the warmth of the music came through, muffled by wood and seeping beneath the doors he found his back pressed to.
His arms lifted, hands sweeping in a familiar motion as his fingers flit and danced across the air. Rodrigo conducted, imagining the motions she would take and finding himself pleasantly surprised by her interpretation of the piece. The distant undertone of familiarity echoed, vibrating through him in a achingly full way.
He would know her blind, by the way her music swelled, the song picking up in places she had grown too excited or slowing in her sadness.
The memory of the drawn out oboe flashed across his mind - their first meeting - and the way itâs melody had pricked his heart as something unique to her yet intimately known by him.
Mr. Coombe's voice resonated through the air, carrying the weight of excitement and anticipation. His arm rose high, commanding the attention of the crowd that had gathered for this momentous occasion. The atmosphere buzzed with a sense of pride and awe as all eyes turned toward him.
"Ladies and gentlemen " Daniel's voice boomed with authority, reaching the farthest corners of the gathering. "Today, we stand on the precipice of progress, witnessing a remarkable feat of engineering and vision. Our beloved town of Henford enters a new era, propelled by the mighty force of the steam train and the grandeur of the newly constructed train station, generously provided by the Little Rock Locomotive Company."
"With unwavering pride, we unveil this magnificent steam train, a marvel that will connect our town to a tapestry of neighboring locations. From the enchanting shores of Brindleton Bay to the majestic forests of Moonwood, from the bustling streets of Newcrest to the hallowed halls of Britechester, and from the serene wilderness of Granite Falls to countless other remarkable destinations, our horizons expand, and our possibilities multiply."
The crowd's attention was rapt, hanging on Daniel's every word. His commanding presence and fervent delivery stirred the hearts of those in attendance, kindling a sense of unity and excitement.
Amidst the stirring speech, Lucile's gaze wandered past the bustling crowd, and there, she spotted Jackson and his family.
Her heart skipped a beat, and a sense of trepidation washed over her. "Oh, dear," she thought, a knot forming in her stomach, this time she was going to make sure to steer clear.
"Let us not forget the remarkable efforts of the skilled craftsmen and engineers of the Little Rock Locomotive Company. Their dedication, expertise, and unwavering commitment have birthed this extraordinary creation, a testament to human ingenuity and the power of collective vision."
As Daniel's gaze swept across the faces of the crowd, his voice resonated with a blend of gratitude and determination.
"Together, we embark on this transformative journey, forging new connections, nurturing prosperous relationships, and embracing the boundless possibilities that lie ahead. The whistle of this steam train shall become a symbol of unity and progress, heralding a future where our town thrives, where dreams are realized, and where our community flourishes."
With a final sweep of his arm, Daniel's voice resounded with pride and conviction.
" Let us carry the torch of progress, hand in hand, and build a future that honors the legacy of our beloved Henford. "
With the conclusion of his heartfelt speech, Mr. Coombe's turned his attention back to the ribbon. With steady hands and a smile on his face, he brought the scissors down, severing the ribbon in one graceful motion. The crowd erupted in cheers, the sound of jubilation echoing through the air.
The Henford Trainstation was now officially open for business.
Amidst the crowd, those who had purchased their tickets ahead of time, their faces beaming with excitement, happily shuffled inside the station. Carrying their well-worn leather suitcases and travel bags, they were met by the courteous train conductors, dressed in a smart uniform complete with a polished brass pocket watch hanging from his vest.
"Tickets, please! Tickets, please!" the conductor called out, extending his hand with white gloves, ready to collect their boarding passes.
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Just thought of completing the âMondstadt setâ LOL. (Did I forget anyone? Please tell me if I did) Hereâs the first part of The Best Teacher Ever(?)Â if youâre interested. Hope you guys like it just as much as I enjoyed (sort of) putting this idea into words! If you wanna see what else I have, hereâs the masterlist!
For those waiting for part 5 of I Just Wanted to See You I, still intend to finish the story. Iâve just... been having too much fun writing new drafts before the idea is gone forever, hehe... (sorry for the wait). Will also fix up a masterlist soon since itâs getting kina hard for me to keep scrolling just to look for specific posts to copy link.
Just a bunch of short Genshin imagines. Imagine having [character name] as your teacher or supervisor.
Warnings:Â None. Just a bit of fluff and (mostly) humor.
Characters: Barbara, Diluc (some mentions of Aether/Lumine and Paimon), Mona, Rosaria, Venti
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Barbara
You stand next to Barbara during choir practices. She's notices how you keep going off key and offers to help you out. You get up the same time as the deaconess and join in on her morning idol practice. She teaches you some breathing exercises and vocalization to help condition your voice and lungs. You sing one stanza at a time while Barbara acts as your conductor during the session. Rather than scold you, she'll demonstrate how to do the parts where you go off key and be over the moon when you get it right. To celebrate, she'll show you how to make her signature spicy drink. When she's sweeping the courtyard, you help her out and the two of you sing some choir songs as a means to squeeze in some practice during your busy schedules. When you run out of liturgical hymns, Barbara teaches you some of her songs. Albert, who was always hanging around the cathedral, watched the two of you in awe. You sounded great together! Was this the birth of an idol duet? Albert shared what he saw with the other members of Barbara's fan club and it spread like wildfire throughout the city. The next day, you were surprised to see a huge crowd outside the cathedral hoping to witness the debut of Modstadt's idol duet.
Diluc
You and the traveler join Angelâs Share Bartenderâs Academy week because it looked fun (even without the alcohol). Charles gives you guys instructions and even demonstrates the proper techniques. The traveler was a natural! He/she has been mixing drink after drink based on the recipe chart Charles provided, but you on the other hand, can't seem to get it right. In the middle of your practice, some customers have started coming in. Although the travelerâs got the technique down, he/she was still new to this and needed a bit more time per order since he/she always had to check the recipes. Charles was going back and forth. He was taking orders, supervising the traveler, and checking on you and the different drinks youâve been mixing. Charles was beginning to mix in the wrong ingredients because of all the commotion. Diluc steps in and offers to supervise you instead. He instructs you one drink at a time, guiding your hands as you pour, stir, and shake for you to get the right feel of the motions of each technique. He doesnât scold you when you make the wrong drink. He just passes it on to Paimon who gladly downs the drinks. He encourages you to try again in a gentle tone and praises you when youâve finally made a drink that passes his standards. He even gives you a gentle smile as an unintentional reward.
Mona
Unless the stars say itâs destined that your paths would cross and you would be the one to continue her legacy, she wonât even bother entertaining the thought. Sheâs far to busy with the âAll Thins Astrologicalâ column and ordering more astrology equipment. If youâre the type that wants to learn how to tell peopleâs fortunes for money, you can forget it. You wonât even get a chance to say anything âcuz she sees right through you. If youâre like her, truly fascinated by the stars and what the universe has predetermined, welcome aboard! Youâd most likely meet somewhere just as foretold by the stars. She would be a strict teacher. Mona would be the type to go into detail for each topic and make sure you truly, without a doubt, 100%, understand everything since precision is a must in this field. Misread something and youâll end up giving the wrong divination. Will keep a very close eye on you when youâre using her equipment since itâs hella expensive and repairs would just eat up the hours she could be spending on more important things. Always reminding you that your work is for showing people what fate has in store for them, not to give advice, not to get rich, not to get famous. Expect that the two of you will always be starving.
Rosaria
Youâre a devout follower of Barbatos. Aside from your duties at the church, Sister Victoria entrusted you with the responsibility of bringing Sister Rosaria with you to the morning and evening prayer meetings. Sister Victoria hopes that you constantly tagging along would overwrite Rosariaâs unorthodox idea of piety with your devotion. Of course, that completely backfires. With you sticking to her like glue, you end up getting in the way of Rosariaâs âworkâ and almost always nearly seriously injured because of your lack of combat knowledge. Since shaking you off is too much work, she resorts to teaching you how to fight at protect yourself. Every morning you have to move quickly so as not to lose sight of Rosaria. She believes in learning through experience so expect that sheâll intentionally take you to clear hilichurl camps as practice and slowly move up to the bigger (and meaner) fish. Donât worry too much, though. I mean, she should at least teach you the basics of how to use a polearm, right? Uh... right? In the process, you end up developing her bad habits of skipping your daily activities to look for a place to nap so you can use all your energy to help Sister Rosaria purge the evil within and around Mondstadt.
Venti
The âMost Popular Bard of Mondstadtâ would gladly teach you how to sing and play the lyre for a bottle of Dandelion Wine (or an apple)! Heâll turn you into the 2nd Most Popular Bard. Think heâs joking? Nonsense! He wonât make such a claim lightheartedly, not even for all the wine in the world. He knows how you secretly perform in front of Barbatosâ statue at night when no oneâs watching, or so you thought. Venti the Bard has always been watching from up said statue. He knows you have the potential not just because of you can kind of sing, but because of the serenity in your voice and your ability to bring out the true emotions of your audience with each song. Truthfully though, heâs not much of a teacher. Unlike Barbara, he just lets you do your thing and rates your performance. Ventiâs more of a practice partner, really. Would consider writing a song together and/or performing a duet with you if youâre up for it.
Wakko isnât book smart, or social smart, not by any means, but even he isnât dumb enough not to know that his family is worn thin. Threadbare and dying. They need more.
So he goes to get it.
Or: A 12 year old spends a year getting a single hay penny. Wonder what happened there.
Warnings: Death, Violence
Edit: this is part of a series, here is the Ao3 link
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The decision to leave isnât an easy one, and he can tell Yakko wants to argue. Of anyone in their family, Yakko is the one least likely to mention a want, but Wakko can tell that thereâs one on the tip of his tongue.
I donât want you to go.
If Yakko said that, Wakko would stay, because Yakko works so hard, Yakko deserves his wants. But Wakko knows, and Yakko knows, that they both want Dot to be alive far more than Yakko doesnât want him to leave. So he thanks the world that train fare is practically free and buys himself a ticket.
âWhy do you have to go?â Dot asks, the night before he leaves. Heâs resting right next to her, and her voice sounds hoarse. Tight. Weak. The reason heâs going, to make her better, cements in further.
âWe need money,â He tells her, honest.  âBesides, the ticketâs already paid for. Itâd be a shame to waste it now,â he shrugs, smiling despite the ever present ache, from starvation and exhaustion and the chill.
âI wish I could go with you,â She whispers, and he sighs.
âI wish you could too,â Because if she could, he wouldnât need to leave in the first place.
The next day is joyously morose affair. He leaves with the hopes of everyone on his shoulders. Yakko hugs him tight, and Wakko can feel Yakkoâs hands tremble against Wakkoâs back, balled up in fistfuls of his sweater.
âStay safe,â Itâs phrased more like a plead than a simple farewell, and Wakko would like to be able to make promises, but...
âIâll try,â he says, and he means it.
âSee you in a year, sis,â He ruffles Dotâs hair, and she smacks at his hands, but sheâs smiling.
âNot a day late or early,â She orders, and he grins.
âYou got it.â
And the train departs, and Wakko sits all by himself as the place he knew as his home for all his life gets smaller and smaller as he gets farther and farther away.
He lets himself cry when it disappears, because heâs young, and alone, and afraid. But he has to do this. He has to try. Dot and Yakko need him.
Itâs not hard to fall asleep. Compared to the abandoned orphanage they live in, the train seats are far more comfortable.
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He wakes up a town over, and the train offers hot food, but he declines. He doesnât have the money for it, even though his stomach screams for food. He nibbles on the jerky Yakko bought for him before he left. Wakko knows just how long he can not eat for before his body rebels against him-earlier than most people. Yakko says he has what one would call a âChronic illness.â All Wakko knows is that it makes him more of a deadweight for Yakko to carry, because despite Yakko trying to be slick, he could see at home that his older brother was giving him bigger servings while Yakko got less.
Hopefully, now that Wakko is gone, Yakko can actually eat like a normal person. With how Yakko is, though, Wakko expects heâll take that extra food and give it all to Dot.
People come off and on the train at every random stop, but Wakkoâs ticket is for a long ways away. Five towns over. Heâs heard stories there, about how there are always jobs open. Heâs going to do them all. Heâll work himself down to the bone, and come back with a fortune, and Dot will get better and everyone will be happy.
Days pass. He gets up, on occasion, to stretch his legs, because the last thing he needs are his muscles atrophying because he couldnât be bothered to move. He loses his seat once or twice, but he is very adept at annoying people into moving, so he never loses it for long. He makes the piece of jerky last, so that even on the last night before he gets off of the train he still has a quarter of a piece left. Itâs easy to not be hungry when you donât move much. That must be why Dot hardly has an appetite.
Heâs asleep when he reaches his destination, practically thrown from the train by a conductor who holds no pity for a half starved child. This town is prosperous, due to itâs industrious mining community. He can see the âHelp Wantedâ signs plastered on certain storefronts, and tries to figure out what to do.
Yakko had told him that under no circumstances was he to even think about going into the mines. The mines are where people go to die, and Yakko told him it was better if Wakko came home empty handed than not at all.
Theyâd had the conversation far away from the house, where Dot couldnât hear. She was already near bedridden most days, looking half dead. She didnât need to hear about how dire things were, when part of the reason things were that is because she was so sick. It isnât her fault, but she wouldnât see it that way.
He tries first, at the bakery. Heâs young, spry, and wiling to do whatever they need him to. Heâs made to be the janitor, because he doesnât know how to bake and they donât need anyone to learn. When things go in the oven, he clears the work space, sweeps the floor of the spilt flour, wipes down trays, cleans dishes. Itâs not easy work, but Wakko would like to say he works well.
He does not, in fact, work well.
It was probably a bad choice to pick a place filled with food for his first job when heâs been half starved for most of his life, but it seemed a good option at the time. He canât help but try and sample some of the goods, so hungry it hurts, and the owner of the bakery doesnât have time for charity cases.
He gets caught on his third day, and after getting yelled at so loud that his hands shake and his ears ring, heâs unceremoniously thrown out, sliding across cobblestone so hard his skin scrapes and heâs glad that black fur doesnât show off blood well. Three dayâs pay is a pittance, but itâs enough to get him some food for the night. He sleeps outside, in an alley, by the dumpsters.
The next day he goes to the general store. It doesnât sell food more so than it sells equipment. A lot of its sales comes from supplying the mining sector with its equipment, and the rest is from the random items the townspeople need.
Wakko is a stocker. It suits him fine. Heâs always been almost abnormally strong for his age, and he works hard not to mess this up. Itâs a nice routine, though his brain gets ever so slightly bored. Heâs someone who craves unpredictability, who loves chaos. The doldrum does very little for him, mentally, but he shoves it down and keeps working. He takes a breath every moment even though the cold air makes his lungs wince and puts his personality on the shelf and works and works and works.
He manages well for about four months.
And then, one night, he gets cornered in an alley.
âHey, kid,â There are three men surrounding him, tall and lean. Men is a strong word-theyâre teenagers, older than Yakko but nowhere near and adult.  âHeard youâre the new stocker at the general store,â Wakko has no idea why this guy cares, but he just nods, because it seems polite.
The response he receives is having his sweater be grabbed before he is slammed into the wall, head knocking against stone.
âYou think you can step in on my job while Iâm out of town? Huh?â He shakes Wakko, as if Wakko can reply when heâs still dazed from having his head knocked around.  âI own that job. I can come and go as I please, and make money when I want. Thatâs how it works here.â
And Wakko hates that. Hates the cavalier that this teen holds, to be able to come and go as he pleases, to always have a job waiting for him. Has this guy ever had to wonder if his sibling was going to survive the night? Has he ever even gone hungry?
Itâs the same entitlement Plotz has, and it brings out a fire Wakko didnât know he had.
âIt said help wanted,â he responds, shrugging nonchalantly.  âNot my fault that you were gone.â
That is, apparently, the wrong thing to say. Wakko has never been good with his words, and thatâs why Yakko always did the talking. He gets a fist to his jaw, dropping to the ground.
âWhat a smartmouth,â The leader sneers.  âWhy donât we teach this kid a lesson?â
âWell, Iâve never been to school before,â Wakko wheezes, grinning like nothingâs wrong, and he gets a kick to his ribs for that.
He should really stop trying to be Yakko.
âShut up,â One of the teens say, and he does.
It doesnât stop them.
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When he goes to work the next day, he has a black eye he canât see out of and a limp. Black fur doesnât show off bruises, but heâs pretty sure one of his fingers is broken with how purple it is. He shows up to work anyway.
When he does, the owner looks over him appraisingly.
âI see you met the town boys,â He says.  âThe leader is the mayorâs son,â Wakko frowns-of course he is.
Wakko gets to work, but the owner follows him.
âI thought he was staying out of town for another week, figured Iâd fire you then,â Wakko freezes, holding three boxes of pickaxes.  âBut I canât have the mayor down my neck. Find somewhere else to work.â
And Wakko isnât vindictive, not by any means, but he feels a little too good when he says âOkay,â and lets the pickaxes all drop to the floor, hearing the crash and running out before the owner can catch him.
From there, he goes through jobs like theyâre candy. He trips at the candlemakerâs and nearly burns the whole place down. Tries the printing press, but he canât really read well, so he canât tell if thereâs any errors, and makes too many mistakes. Works at a family farm, but one of the animals kicks him into the fence and the family says that itâs a sign that this isnât his place to work.
No wonder this town has so many help wanted signs , if these are the guys hiring.
His favorite job of the bunch is the inn, because they let him sleep in a spare room so long as he cleans it before he goes to work, and it doesnât count towards his paycheck. However, the mayorâs kid comes in one day, sees him, says something to the owner, and Wakko is back on the streets again.
He wants to break down and cry and go home. Heâs trying so hard, heâs doing what heâs supposed to. Itâs been eight months and he never has more than enough to buy dinner because he canât save when heâs losing jobs a couple months in.
He needs something stable. Something no one would fire him from.
He looks toward the mines.
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He remembers the promise he made to Yakko, to not work there. Knows he shouldnât. But heâs out of jobs, and heâs out of options.
He promised, but Yakkoâs broken promises too. When Dot first got sick, Wakko was nearly in tears with worry. Thatâs his little sister, why canât she play? Why does she keep coughing? Whatâs wrong with her?
âItâs just a cold,â Yakko had said.  âSheâll get better soon. Promise.â
But she hadnât, and thatâs why heâs here, so if Yakko can lie to make Wakko feel better than Wakko can break a promise too, to make sure that when he comes home heâll have something to give. Because, as much as it would break Yakkoâs heart if Wakko never came back, Wakko would rather that happen then come back with nothing and watch Dot wither away.
He goes to the mines, and puts on a hard hat, and gets to work.
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The mines are a grueling place, and Wakko understands very quickly why Yakko never wanted him to work in such an environment. Half of the time he has to stop and cough, because every breath is coal ash in his lungs, every time he moves he feels like heâs going to drop dead. Lunch time is fifteen minutes and he doesnât have anywhere to prepare a lunch so typically he buys some salted meats or preserved vegetables the night before and sticks it in his sweater pocket so he doesnât starve to death. He supposes the upside to having been poor all your life is that youâre good at eating quickly. Â
You never know when the food you have could be taken away.
They get coal, and then they lug it to the minecarts to be taken out of the mine. Rinse and repeat. He doesnât even have time to be zany when heâs so exhausted, so heâs just as dead eyed as the rest of the toons and men around him.
Every once in a while, there will be a rumble from above, and the whole cave will shake, and they will all freeze and hold their breath, because one wrong move could mean collapse.
One of the older men asks him, one day, âWhy are you here, son?â in the soft, kind way that brings back a far faded memory, more a feeling, of a warm crackling fire, and someone large and familiar holding him, of feeling safe and full.
âI need the money,â he responds, and the older manâs eyes go soft and sympathetic.
âDonât we all, son,â He tells him, patting him on the shoulder, and Wakko half smiles, because kindness is rare like gold and heâs dreaming of diamonds.  âDonât we all.â
Three months in, and heâs gotten the hang of it. Nearly made three hay pennies, because the older man, who asks him to just call him Sir, tells him about the safer tunnels, directs him to the areas least likely to collapse. He takes Wakko under his wing, and if he finds something exemplary, he lets Wakko take the credit for it.
Sir is here because he sends the money back home to his grandkids. His daughterâs husband ran out on them, and sheâs getting ill from the stress and work.
âDonât have much left in this world,â He says, heaving the pickaxe down against stone. He teaches Wakko how to hit it just right, and Wakko copies his movements and wonders if this is what itâs like to have a father who is more than a few years older than you.  âBut I ainât losing them.â
âYeah,â Wakko agrees, thinking of the small shack that is his home, five towns away, with the two people there that are his entire world, that heâs spending his days suffering and working for.
Itâs nice, though, to have company. Sir listens to Wakkoâs crazy antics, claps when Wakko has the energy to sing him a song during lunch, and says âyou remind me of my grandkidsâ one day, and Wakko doesnât want to admit how happy that makes him.
Four months in, and Wakko is venturing into an older tunnel, with a bunch of experienced miners. Thatâs the only reason Sir says that Wakko could come with, because he knows this is Wakkoâs last month and a big pay off from a new mine would be really helpful.
They get to work, and an hour or so in the ever familiar, paralyzing rumble from above starts. Only this time, the floor starts to shake, and the ceiling cracks, and rocks start to fall from above as the whole mineshaft collapses. Wakko is jumping out of the way of debris, letting his pickaxe drop as he moves towards somewhere safe, so focused on the different falling pieces and the people running around him he misses the rock falling above him.
âKid!â He hears Sir shout, and heâs slammed into by denim overalls and flesh and bone and hits the floor. Thereâs the sound of a crack, and then he feels, hears, sees nothing at all.
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Wakko wakes up to the feeling of something on top of him, covered in dust and soot and something wet and sticky. He blinks out the dizziness and realizes the thing on top of him is someone, someone he recognizes.
âSir?â he says, asks, hopes. Carefully, he crawls out from under the man, and looks around.
The cave is dark, and he hears groans from the other men, but he looks back at Sir, and shakes him. A slab of stone falls to the floor with a loud thud, from Sirâs back, and neck.
Something is dripping from Sirâs mouth. It looks suspiciously like blood, but Wakko wonât think it is, no.
âSir?â he tries again, and he shakes him harder. The older man drops, limp, laying face first on the ground.
Wakko. Stares.
âIs that the kid?â One of the other men says.
âSounds like it. The old man must have got on top of him to save him from the rocks.â
âPoor guy,â The first one says.  âHey, kid, câmere,â Wakko stands, on trembling legs, and walks toward the sound of the voices.
A hand rests on his shoulder, and he flinches, and the hand disappears.
âHey, itâs just me, kid,â He hears.  âThe old man told us about you. Thereâs been a cave in,â As if that wasnât obvious.  âWeâre seasoned, so theyâll look for us. They donât always for the newer guys.â
âOkay,â Wakko says, instead of anything else, because he can feel the wet and sticky on his cheek and it isnât his blood, and he canât turn around because if he does heâll be facing it.
He canât. He just canât
A hand leads him to a spot to sit, and Wakko does.
Time slips through his fingertips, and all Wakko can do is wait and breathe.
They consider making a fire, but it would waste their oxygen. The find a miraculously non broken flashlight, and Wakko can finally see. The cave is about half the size it was before it collapsed. Thereâs a pile of rocks at the entrance, and some of the men take their pickaxes and try to hit it, but it makes the walls shake so they stop. Wakko walks around the room, and stays away from one area.
He misses Sir.
A day passes. He nibbles on the old, near moldy piece of jerky he has, offering it to the other men. They rebuff him.
âYou look like skin and bones, kid,â One of the guys says.  âThis isnât our first cave in,â Wakko wonders when he became their kid, but he supposes it could be worse.
Itâs two days and theyâre running out of air. Wakko wheezes in thin, shallow breaths through chapped lips, and tries not to cry because heâs dehydrated enough. He doesnât want to die. He has Dot and Yakko to go home to, he canât leave them now.
Eventually, he just starts humming, because the silence hurts and he doesnât want to think anymore. Isnât this whole movie supposed to be a musical? Maybe it hasnât started yet.
âThere's always tomorrow,â It comes out wispy and small, like a a breath, but it sounds unbearably loud, in the small space, âFor dreams to come true. Believe in your dreams, come what may,â His voice cracks on the final word, and he coughs, but the men are all staring at him, a tiny shrimp of a kid way in over his head, singing because thereâs nothing else he can think to do.
âThere's always tomorrow,â He mumbles out the words, barely keeping up the tune, because heâs so tired. âWith so much to do,â
âAnd so little time in a day,â One of the men finishes the line with him, and Wakko blinks.
It seems that one joining in spurs on the others, because one by one theyâre all singing too.
âWe all pretend the rainbow has an end,â Wakko sees some of the miners leaning on each other. A couple of them have broken a bone of some sort, but thatâs all forgotten in the ever thinning air, singing because what else is there to do, in times of despair. Â
âAnd youâll be there, my friend, some day,â Wakkoâs eyes flick to Sir, the still body looking pale and the blood dried on the ground, and he forces himself not to cry again.
âThereâs always tomorrow, for dreams to come true,â Wakko leans his head back against the stone, coughing a little. Thereâs thudding in his ears, he thinks his heartbeat, growing ever louder.
âTomorrow is not far away...,â They trail off, and then thereâs a crack, from the wall behind him. He jumps, stumbling back from the wall, and he can see light peeking through the rock wall.
Standing was a bad idea. His legs shake, weak, and while he can see the light as he hears men from the other side calling for him thereâs darkness at the edges of his vision, and before the the wall breaks he starts to fall and everything goes black to the sound of the men shouting for someone to catch him.
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He wakes up at the local hospital. The mine is paying for the stay, so he gets to eat. Heâs given 10 hay pennies for his trouble-the three heâd already made were lost in the collapse, but he doesnât care too much because he lost far more important things there, too-, with the incentive not to take legal action against the mining company. As if he could. He asks around, asks if Sirâs family will be getting anything.
âLikely not,â One of the men from the cave says.  âHe didnât have enough tenure for that, and his family lives far enough away and are poor enough that the mine wonât bother.â
âDo you know where he lives?â He asks, and he finds out.
He places 9 hay pennies into the envelope. He is not good at writing, but he knows how to write âIâm sorry,â and âhe was a good manâ, and âhe protected meâ, and the sentences hardly make sense with how his hands shake but that doesnât matter. He has one of the older men write out the address and sends it off.
Itâs not enough, he thinks. But itâs something.
He tries to go back to work for a little more money, but every time he looks into the yawning pit of the entrance to the mines he canât breathe and he thinks of the sticky and wet and red that stained his fur until he washed it off two days later.
He knows how to get it out of his clothes, too. Now. He knows now.
He didnât think he would ever need to know, but the past year has been full of learning experiences, heâs sure.
A week and a half later, he walks out of town to that same train, and like the end of a circle heads back to where he started, sitting on that same seat. The taste of jerky as he chews makes him want to vomit, too familiar, too entrenched in memory to be anything other than unpleasant. Â
He comes home, and when he arrives he sees the smiling faces of his family and town, and they donât need the depressing tale of cruelty and hardship, so he smiles and dances on aching feet and sings about silly jobs that seem more fun than difficult and shows off his earnings and lets himself feel hope because even if it hurt it was enough, because Dot is going to be happy and healthy.
Later, when he is playing a mournful tune on a makeshift harp, he wonders if there was even a point to trying. If he should have stayed, should have just taken his time with his sister before she was gone, because regardless of everything that happened heâs right where he started. Except, someone is dead and heâs the reason, and his lungs ache and will spend months to get close to normal and he has to pretend because he canât let Yakko know he lied, and he was beaten and his youth has been stolen and Dot is still dying anyway.
Heâs tired of the cyclical, he needs change, and he looks up the stars and searches for something, anything, to make the hurt worth something.
The Wishing Star gives him a reply to his song, like beams of light through the rocks, like hope in the center of a blackhole of despair that refuses to be swallowed whole, and when Wakko makes the homestretch he asks for the people to get what they deserve, what is fair, what is right, and hopes the mother miles away with two kids and no father or grandfather gets something, too.
Fic Summary: Ensign Faith Diaz struggles to hide her mental illness from her fellow shipmates aboard the Enterprise until an intrigued Data goes out of his way to try to understand her behavior. At his insistence, Faith tries to figure out what she's truly passionate about and eventually seeks the professional help she needs. Fic Masterpost.
A/N: Hey guys! I have this fic posted over on AO3 already but thought Iâd post it here as well. Currently there are 12 chapters. This fic is ongoing and while I have a clear arc/story in the works, I havenât decided when it will end. Iâm just kind of going with it. This story has been my support fic throughout this whole fucking quarantine mess and Iâve been having a lot of fun writing it. Iâll be posting all the chapters so far throughout the week.Â
It may seem that everyday something happens aboard the Enterprise. It was almost like every week it was an invasion, a messy political shift, a weird time distortion loop, hostile negotiations...the list went on and on. However, in reality, there was a lot of time when nothing happened. When the ship glided through space effortlessly and the crew fell into a steady routine. Occasionally, they stopped at a planet to gather samples or map it. But other than that, all was quiet.Â
It was on one of those routine days that Data found himself in Engineering, helping Geordi with several re-calibrations. They were minor modifications the two had wanted to implement for some time yet had not been able to.
All had gone according to plan and they were in the process of completing their work when Geordi stood up straight, a triumphant smile on his face.
"All set," he declared. "The conductors are functioning five-percent higher than normal. We should run a level one diagnostic just to be sure but there shouldn't be any issues."
"I agree. Readings are well within standard parameters," Data concluded, fingers dancing across the console.Â
"I asked Diaz to do a manual sweep just to be sure," Geordi said. "I haven't heard from her yet but it doesn't seem like anything is out of place." He tapped his communicator. "La Forge to Ensign Diaz, what's the status of your sweep?"
Geordi waited for a response but one did not come. He tapped his communicator again. "Ensign Diaz, report!"
Nothing.
Data had only known Ensign Diaz in passing but he recalled Geordi's increasing frustration with the new crew member. She did not seem to have the same level of skills as some of her fellow engineers and her behavior had been less than exemplary.
"Where is she?" Geordi muttered. "Computer, locate Ensign Diaz."
" Ensign Diaz is located in Jefferies Tube 42B."
"Now what the hell is she doing in there?" Geordi said with exasperation. "And why isn't she answering?"
Data cocked his head as he ran through all possible scenarios. "I have calculated two hundred and thirty possible reasons for Ensign Diaz's behavior. One, she found a structural issue that she decided to correct. Two, one of the conductors may be showing signs of stress the computer cannot detect. Threeâ"
"Thanks, Data. I get it," Geordi cut him off. "Well, whatever the reason, I'm going to find out what's going on."
He had barely taken a step away from the console when his own communicator beeped. "Riker to La Forge, meet me in Transporter Room One. Prepare to beam to the planet's surface."
Geordi sighed but responded, "Aye, Commander. On my way."
Data saw Geordi glance in the direction Ensign Diaz had gone. "I am not required on the Bridge until oh-eight hundred hours. I can locate Ensign Diaz for you," he offered.
Geordi looked relieved and gave his best friend a smile. "That'd be great, thanks, Data. I'll be back as soon as I can." He gave him a pat on the back as he walked by.Â
Data finished his work a second later before heading to the tubes. He found one of them already open and climbed inside.Â
He did not see any signs of the ensign so he proceeded forward.Â
"Ensign Diaz?" he called, his voice echoing off the metallic walks around him.Â
He came across her communicator a short distance away, sitting at the bottom of a ladder. Frowning, Data picked it up and examined it. It did not look damaged and a quick diagnostic revealed it was in working order. He continued his search.
When he climbed the ladder, he was met with the sight of Ensign Diaz, deeply engrossed in one of the panels on the wall.
"Ensign Diaz?" he asked.
She spun around in surprise. Once she realized who spoke, she tried to straighten up, though it was difficult in such a tight space.Â
"Commander Data! What are you doing here?"
"I could ask you the same question." Data held up her communicator. "I found this in the shaft behind us. I believe it is yours."
Diaz touched the spot on her uniform where it should have been as if she had not known it was missing.
"Thank you. It must have slipped off when I was climbing." She took it from him, pinning it back in place.
"Why are you in the tubes? Commander La Forge asked me to find you. He said you were told to do a manual sweep."
"I was a-and I did," Diaz stuttered, tucking a loose strand of dark hair back into her braid. "While I was doing so, I noticed one of the panels was out of alignment. Physically. I-I tried to correct it. It wouldn't budge so I decided to try to get it from the other side."
"I see." Data moved forward to check her work. Sure enough, he could see where the unit was off-center. "Most curious. That should not be possible."
"That's what I thought. But I can't seem to get it back into place."Â
Data knew what was going to happen before it did. Yet even with his quick reflexes, he was not able to prevent the accident.Â
Diaz did not have a proper grip on the part when she tugged on it. She had been perspiring and as a result, her hands slipped. The momentum sent her forward, where she smashed her head on the metal edge of the unit.
She screamed in pain, hand pressed to the spot as Data pulled her away. "Son of a bitch!" she exclaimed.
"Are you alright?" Data asked.
"Aside from seeing stars, I think so. Let's just fix the stupid thing and get out of here."
"I will handle it." Data carefully released Diaz, letting her rest against the tube wall while he took her place. Within seconds he fixed the situation, securing the unit into its proper position before determining it was in perfect working condition.
"My readings indicate everything is in working order," he said as he moved his tricorder over the unit. "Good work, Ensign."
"Thanks," Diaz said, removing her hand from her head.
Data looked at her, only to realize her forehead was smeared with blood.
"Ensign Diaz, you are bleeding."
"What? No, I'm not."
"Yes, you are. I believe you injured yourself when you hit your head."
"It's not thatâŠ" She looked at her hand, the color draining from her face when she saw blood on her palm. "...bad."
Data put his recorder in his pocket and made a move to tap his communicator but she stopped him.Â
"No, wait! Don't!"
"Ensign, you are bleeding. I must contact sickbay."
"Honestly, I'm okay. I just need something to wipe up the blood. I'll be fine."
"I insist."
Diaz sighed and Data noted her eyes looked glossy. He wondered if the injury was more severe than she was letting on.Â
"Let's at least get out of this stupid tube," she said. "I promise I'll walk there myself."
"That would be acceptable. As a precaution, I will accompany you to Dr. Crusher."
He motioned for her to move ahead and the pair began to backtrack. It was slow work as Diaz was careful not to leave a trail of bloody handprints in their path. When it came time to climb the ladder, Data insisted on going first so he could monitor her in case she needed help.Â
He kept his eyes on Diaz, looking for any signs of distress while she descended. He noted her balance was unsteady. She rocked slightly and had to pause several times. During one of those times, she shut her eyes, arms wrapped around the rung in front of her.
"Ensign Diazâ"
"Please, call me, Faith. I never liked formal titles very much."
"As you wish. Faith, are you experiencing dizziness?"
"Sir, I'm fine."
Data found himself making a noise of disbelief. "No. You are not."
Faith cracked her eyes open, glancing down at him and Data saw her arms trembling as she tried to keep herself up. "Commander?"
"Yes?"
"I think I might pass out."
Her eyes rolled back in her head and her grip loosened, sending her tumbling off the ladder. For the second time, Data caught her in his arms. Quickly he tapped his communicator.
"Data to Transporter Room Two. I need immediate transport for two to sickbay. Current location Jefferies Tube 42B."
"Aye, Commander!" O'Brien's voice answered. "I'll have you there in a jiff."
A second later, Data found himself standing in the middle of sickbay, Faith's limp body in his arms. Dr. Crusher whirled around, eyes widening when she saw them.
In an instant she was at their side, scanning Faith. "What happened?" she demanded.
"Faith hit her head. She became weak and lost consciousness."
"How long ago?"
"The injury took place approximately ten minutes ago. She has been unconscious for thirty seconds."
"Data, get her up on the bed for me."
As he carried her across the room, her eyes fluttered open.
"Ugh, where am I?"
"You are in sickbay," he answered, gently lowering her down onto one of the beds.
"What happened?"
"Do you not remember hitting your head?"
Faith's eyes closed and she swallowed thickly, her head lolling from side to side. "It's all fuzzy." She grew still again.
"Faith? It's Dr. Crusher. I need you to open your eyes again. Can you do that for me?" When there was no answer, Beverly injected Faith with something while handing Data a towel. "Data, press this to her wound while I get my dermal regenerator. We have to stop the bleeding."
"Yes, Doctor."
Data did as he was told, pushing Faith's bangs back from her face so he could see the wound properly. It was deeper than he initially noticed. He pressed the towel to it, noting how much paler she had become in such a short period of time.
Beverly reappeared a moment later. He stepped aside so she could work, watching with rapt attention as she peeled the towel away before spraying the wound with antibacterial ointment. Once it was clean, she carefully sealed up the wound, leaving nothing but smeared blood in its place.
"That's done at least," she muttered to herself. She picked up her tricorder and resumed scanning the young woman.
"Will Faith be alright, Doctor?"
"She should be. According to my readings, she has a concussion. I recommend she be taken off duty for the time being."
"A smart recommendation."
Beverly finished scanning Faith, but this time her mouth deepened into a frown. "HmmâŠ" She scanned her again.
"Is something wrong?" Data asked.
It took a moment for the doctor to acknowledge his question. When she did, Beverly gave him a tight smile. "Nothing you need to worry about. Thank you for your help, Data. I can take it from here. You're free to go."
"I have already created a formal report of the accident. I will send it to you now for your records."
"That'd be great, thanks. And I'll let Geordi know not to expect Faith for a few days."
"Excellent. Have a good day, Doctor."
Data took his leave, but something came over him and made him pause, turning to look back. Faith was still unconscious and Dr. Crusher was staring at her as if deep in thought. Her expression was one Data had come to associate with that of concern.
However, he had duties to attend to. So he left sickbay and filed the incident for later review.