TabooTri

Joy dissipating from my soul

How now do I go on?

With anguish and torment

I die in sorrow

Nobody cares

So why do I share

Myself?

I’m obsessed with

Attention

But no body listens

And I’m just put

Back on the

If you just opened your eyes

You’d see life isn’t just full

Of those lies

You tell yourself

It could be beautiful

It could be beautiful

This realm

Taken by evil

Extracted and used

By malicious souls

What will become now?

The light is draining

Through the aperture

Of my heart, dimming

Like the extraordinary myths of a forest elm

You found my heart before I knew

And knew before I that our love is one that is true

It's a conquering love full of passion

And though not often, one that can sometimes lack ration

You are to me what I am to you

When the ruminating

Continues to drone

On and on and on...

The thoughts swarming inside

There’s nowhere my mind

Can hide

A hostage to myself

Forgetting something

Essential

I have the key

To set myself

Open soul

Let love in

Don’t be afraid

Of who you are

Cause I couldn’t feel you here.

Chasing your dreams, molding yourself

To become what you thought I wanted then

The time was never right, and I left too

To find out who I am

It never would have worked then

Since we were still growing up

Deciding our path, but following fate all the same

Where will it take us?

Bare of love

Of feeling

Of being

A space in the presence

Crowding clocks

Where does the time go

Disappears

Into fear

It doesn’t matter

I know

Take your time

In sublime

Imagine

You’re doing fine

Choices

Noises

Dragging her down

Pacing

daydream

Always hearing sound

Nearing here

Feeling clear

Jackets strapping me in

Let me steer

Let me hear

This isn’t what you call sin

Can’t you feel

Crystal clear

My mind was once free

Though my body

May not have been

I dreamt of the clouds

And of the land and sea

Thought of how I might

Break from society

And fight the good fight

To create a world with self esteem

But now, somehow

Both mind and body are caged

I merely get through the night

And get through the day

Soft green fields of flowers

And raging waters of the sea

And wide open skies

Are no longer my deities

A slave to the powers that be

Those monsters that hoard

All the money

My soul smothered.

It is theirs now

And not with me

I’m an empty carcass

Alive but dead

With a given purpose

To make money instead

Of be a human spirit

Something we all once were

A tired lifeless thing

I come to you

Looking past your face

As a translucent god

Sweeps you

I still imagine

What the future could be

If we stayed together

I never knew if

Our relationship would be

Able to last forever

But I didn’t think it would end

Like that...

I still dream

About your smiling eyes that

Complemented your pout

Permanently set

From sad thoughts

Which came with

Strange words that I never knew

If were lies

Or just talk.

I still think

About how I went wrong

And why you said

You wanted me

When you would barely

Touch me.

And why it was

Easier for you to be

With him

Every stain bleached and

Dry cleaned, steamed, ironed.

Tailored to be perfect

Like the designer brands they come from.

But

I was put through the wash,

With high hopes of the stains coming out.

Those stains stuck...

Remaining faded flaws

The demons come out to play

They say they won’t stay

Too long

But as time goes on

And the voices aren’t gone

My brain is stuck

Screaming hole

Has taken the

Place of my soul

and I don’t know