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Normalize accepting you're wrong about having DID.
Normalize accepting it might be a different disorder.
Normalize not calling people who were wrong with their suspicions fakers.
It's okay to suspect a disorder and turn out to be wrong. That's what research, suspecting, and getting professional help is for.
Some people will try to argue that Alters can't "be in a body part" while I'm over here completely dissociated from my legs because someone doesn't want to get up.
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anger issues as a trauma response is something i don't see a lot of people talking about, probably because it's an "unpalatable" or "uncomfortable" form of struggling. like yeah, my older sister consistently denied me any real identity or freedom of my own for the first decade of my life. based on the shit people say online, you'd think my trauma response would be to become as small and unobtrusive as possible. WRONG! i just got angry as fuck. i made myself bigger, more threatening, louder. harder to ignore. when i don't want to do something someone else does, i genuinely struggle not to just go "no, i don't wanna do that. we're not doing that.", because for so long, i had to go "okay, i guess we can do this if you want..." even when i didn't. the point is that my opinion never mattered, so i made it impossible to dismiss. and in the process became an angry, bitter, argumentative individual. and that's something i'm working on.
the point is, our brains are different, and respond differently to similar traumas. but shout out to all my fellow people who developed anger issues in response to trauma.

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Not only is the "Evil Alter" trope stupid and weird, but it also doesn't come anywhere close to capturing the true horrific realities of being a system. Such as one of your headmates liking Taylor Swift.
gay fragment call that a fagment
I think in general people don’t really understand that the outlandish or “evil” things that happen in our system is pretty normal or day to day. Like yeah sometimes you just have to ignore the parts getting tortured right next to you, yes parts are constantly being taken to god knows where because they “broke a rule”, yeah programmer parts will sit in the front room with us and simply watch us to make us uncomfortable and fuck with us, yeah there’s tons of programmed relationships that are abusive but we arnt deprogrammed enough to separate them yet.
Not to invalidate anyone or anything like that, but I really do feel like the term "flashback" is overused quite a lot in the PTSD and C-PTSD community. Especially the term "emotional flashback".
Flashbacks are not just any instance in which you are remembering a traumatic event and getting upset about it. They are specifically dissociative reactions in which you experience the event as if it's occurring in the present.
It occurs when a normally compartmentalized traumatic memory and the associated psychobiological personality systems of defence completely take over your consciousness, leaving you immersed in the memory and unable to access the part of you that handles daily life.
Of course there's variability in how it presents. You don't need to be having a flashback in all your senses at once and completely forget where you are for it to be a flashback. Some people also experience it as "the trauma never ended" as opposed to "the trauma is happening again". And so on.
But in order for it to be considered a flashback you need to be experiencing the event, at least partially, as if it's happening right now.
This is true for emotional flashbacks as well. Feeling anxious or upset, even in response to a trigger, doesn't necessarily equal an emotional flashback. For it to be an emotional flashback, you need to be re-experiencing the specific emotions you felt at the time of the trauma. It's not just being upset that it happened. It's being put right back in the exact emotional state you were in when it happened.
That's not to say the symptoms people are describing are fake. They're just misclassified, and better explained by other (usually intrusion category) symptoms. Namely:
Intrusive memories: recurrent and distressing intrusions where a person remembers the traumatic event (or aspects of it), without the distinct feeling of re-experiencing it as if it was happening in the present
Psychological/physical reactivity to reminders of trauma: distressing emotional responses (i.e. fear, anxiety, dread, anger) or physical responses (i.e. racing heartbeat, difficulty breathing, shaking) in response to trauma triggers
Hypervigilance: being on high alert and searching for danger, often experienced as a chronic state but there can be episodes where it gets worse than baseline without it being a flashback
I think it would really benefit people to learn more about the symptoms of PTSD and C-PTSD, because it really feels like people just aren't aware of all the ways it can manifest and so they just end up calling everything "flashbacks" or "triggers" even when there is other language is that is more accurate.
"sysmed" is probably the stupidest fucking word ive seen all day. maybe all year
Oh my god, seriously though. I have so many issues with this word.
How dare we say that a disorder is medical, right?
It stems from transmed, a term used to describe people who believe that trans people should transition medically and experience dysphoria, or they aren’t valid.
The fact that it stems from a transgender related term implies that being a system is an identity. Despite the name, DID is a dissociative disorder, not an identity.
If it's not implying DID/OSDD is an identity, then it is implying that being transgender is a disorder, which is not only wrong, but also transphobic.

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threatening to become the "evil alter" is prob my fav hobby. you ate my sandwich??? im becoming the evil alter. got cut off in traffic? i'm the evil alter now. this guy on the street looked at us funny? guess what, evil alter baybeeeee.
plenty of talk about dangerous hallucinations but what about the ones that impact literally nothing at all like yeah i saw abby fnaf on the bus and then nothing happened
ice begins to melt
Endos will talk about their “syscovery” coming from liking characters that had DID/DID like traits or reading stories and it becomes so painfully obvious that they literally just find us interesting and think a symptom is cool and quirky.
Again I just beg you all to imagine this for literally any other disorder. Imagine “non disordered mania” because omg wouldn’t it be fun? Am I insane?
do we have to Endure it tomorrow too?

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“you’re allowed to relax, you know” unfortunately i cannot do that. Otherwise they will get me
how it feels to give up on figuring out who's fronting and who you are