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Something terrible happened in my life. My cat Apricot is gone. The poor guy had been very ill since November, while I was studying in another city. I could only ask about his condition. He was given an IV drip and injections.. When I came for the winter holidays, he lost a lot of weight. He didn't eat well, but he drank and showed some activity. Even when I lost my nerve due to my worries, he came to my room and lay down on my bed next to me. I tried to help him as much as I could, he showed interest in food periodically and there was hope for his recovery, but by the time I left for studying, he completely refused to eat. Then I found out that I stopped drinking. And recently I found out that he died a week ago and my family lied to me that he was alive... It was very disgusting. I would have found out anyway. I've already shed a lot of tears in these three days, because I've been taking care of this cat more consciously. But even now, while I was making this video and writing this text, tears were pouring out of my eyes involuntarily.. Rest in peace, Apricot, you were a wonderful cat and friend.

I suppose it's something unusual for my blog, but whatever. I rewatched transformers prime ( best fukin cartoon with mechs for me), and... Ta-da! I drawn how i'd look like if I was some alien mech. That's an oc... Or sona...I'm not sure. I tried to imitate my blue bangs, and my goth/punk boots, plus she looks like a demon cuz I'm into demonology. I named her Umbra. Her wings are based on this weird jellyfish. ( Comb jelly I suppose). What do you think about this design in general?

So. I saw a tiktok trend on YouTube shorts. And I kinda liked it. But the only thing I hate is the same trend song. I rarely draw fan arts but... Let's say it's some sort of an excuse for drawing em. Ugh... Gotta buy new markers.. Fucking hate when they dry out quickly.

To the changes.

Inner child

Gross and vile,

Suffering inside my mind.

Worm goes wild,

Kills the child,

Leaves just emptiness behind.

Slowly dying

Loudly crying

Vanishing inside my head.

But alas,

The inner child

I was bored.. Finally played " No i'm not a human". So.... The best character for me is the cat 🐱.