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BIG ASS GAUNTLET!

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When he pulled that last card talking about angel friends and I looked over at my picture. I was like... 😳

I'm just an emotional mess this weekend. 🥺😭

It's called Convention come down... Con crash or Con drop.

It's a sudden physical and emotional exhaustion often paired with mild depression or emptiness that hits after returning home from an intense multi-day convention.

Return to Reality: Coming back to normal daily routines causes a sharp mood drop or sadness once the excitement ends.

In due time.

The atmosphere with meeting CE last weekend at that FanExpo. Let's just say physically he was there, mentally he was not. He gave off this vibe like he doesn't want to be "bothered" by the fans. And with all this mess that's been going on it was tight as in like, no conversations with him. When I did the photo with him holding my hands I wanted to look at him, really look at him. I was not there to see Captain America, I was there to see Chris Evans and It took him a moment to focus on my face and look at me. He doesn't look at fans in the face every day. I asked him to look at me and hold my hands and look at me pretty much letting him know telepathically in a sense, "Dude you are losing us, the good ones that gave a damn about your career, supported you and rooted for you, how could you be so silent about EVERYTHING and go against EVERYTHING you said you didn't like!" 😔 I felt so many emotions. Elation 🥰 because of meeting him, frustration 😖 because of all this mess and what the fans who were once loyal have been through, Anger 😡 because of the trolling, lies and gaslighting, death threats as seen by many blogs. I looked him right dead in his eyes putting on my endearing smile for the photo and as he squeezed my hands a little tighter his eyes which have been pretty gray I've seen in recent pics in that instant became blue and I saw a hint of glimmer appear. (That twinkle). 🥹 When I let go of his hands and walked away from him, he looked over his shoulder after me. I walked away feeling a bit drained and heavy like a weight dropped on me, and heartbroken, sad, empty (like a chair or glass).

No fan should NEVER feel this way after meeting someone anyone they admire, look up to respect (not worship) like their gods. 🙄 Major cash grab from the fans and have a panel just to push around the same narrative while promoting your movies or whatever about your personal life, (did that at New York Comicon as well) when you say you're private just to cause more chatter on blogs and fanpages, just to remain relevant, not cool bro. 😒

Sometimes the best thing to do is just walk away. And be done. 😔

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Oh nothing. Just checking out the hot new actress talent. At D23.🤦🏿‍♀️Oh Christopher. Thinking with that head of yours again. Oh to be 20/30 something again. Proud Dad riiight.

Boi bye. 🙄

*Sighs*I felt giddy like a schoolgirl. 😏

Okay!! Fangirl moment done. He likes em young and brunettes anyway. 🤭🤣🙄

I wanted to share my thoughts after this weekend after I decompressed from it all. 😔