Why you? Well. I want to see you win.

I put my star sign in my bio not because I believe in astrology but because I would like you to associate my bizarre behavior with others of my sign and compare them to the disquieting standard I have created

the liberals made up fucking nuance for the word fascist and now we can't just call fascists that anymore

The goalposts are continually shifted to exclude fence sitters like them until the only people who can be fascists are nazis, who as we know all died or got better in 1945

instead of “this person made good art so they can’t be a bad person” try looking at it like this: “this person made art so they can’t be a good person”

yeah fuck it. Fuck this place. Fuck this whole website. I love you girls but this ain't it. beating a dead horse over here and letting Matt continue thinking he has a social media site worth half a shit from his ad dollars and engagement metrics. how about you go broke and die alone. anyway mutuals can ask for my discord

i sure am glad ffxiv is the first game to recognize and accomodate for my kindergartener reading level

I've got volumes and volumes of information about the oracle of light but how about this children's picture book that seems more your speed

It's fat foxgirl fursday. grab her tummy and squeeze

computer. show me a girl with a dazed blank expression and a painfully erect penis

why's it keep requesting Webcam access. stop that

It kinda feels like the internalization of "you can't trust other people to see you as closely as you see them" did significantly raise the bar on "how loudly I need to shout out my feelings for them to feel real" (I'm pretty sure that's how it works? It's possibly I'm caught in the cycle (The degree to which I feel the need to layer my own thoughts to provide the necessary context to understand them feels absurd. A safety mechanism. Prove that you care about me enough to get this far. (I don't really know how to explain it is the thing. Sometimes you hide too much (I cried for an hour this morning. I noticed tears on my face and I didn't know where they were from (I've been feeling so anxious recently. My capacity to maintain relationships is always below what it needs to be. I live in a forever war to try to maintain them and I'm always losing. I just want to be stable (I think I'm always running away. At some point I left home or maybe I never had home and I've never felt home since (I don't know if that's true (Is anything true? (I hope something is.))). I sleep most comfortably on a pile of used clothes and I eat most comfortably when the food I take is left aside in a small bowl with a permission slip to eat it. I do chores like I'm earning my keep and nothing ever feels like it's mine.) and I never feel stable.) so I said fuck it and started crying. I felt terrible. It didn't help. Usually crying helps.) and in the layers of hiding you lose something. You lose track of what's real or isn't real. And then you just have a big roiling mass inside you threatening to get out and you have to untangle it.) Prove that you understand me enough to make sense of it. Prove that you deserve to be here.) of believing it to be true and reifying my own beliefs. But it really feels like the reason why 'suppressing emotions' takes such a toll is that. That the feelings demand to 'exist in a social context' and thus demand that you express them in your social context.) but maybe I'm just imagining things.

art claws it's way out of a living thing. sometimes it kills you on the way out

how to grow the fuck up

Imma need this eventually cause they don’t teach you jack squat in school

Ima schedule to reblog this when I’m 16.

Ima need this eventually

same fam.

reblogging so i have it for when i leave school in a year yessir

If therapy ever helps it's when you're willing to engage with them with the same unbridled enthusiasm you put into posting on this damn website. not just about your problems but the things you like or find funny or just enjoy doing. you're never going to get anything out of your therapist if all you give them is your frustration and negativity. you gotta get vulnerable with your positivity too