We're Far Enough From Heaven Now We Can Freak Out

Or maybe it's still in there and I'm just weighed down by too many things

Well I think nosferatu was like that. Ellen wanted to experience unrestrained sexuality and the only figure who could do that unabashedly was a sexual predator who abused her as a child. Who she was clearly traumatized by. And when she was possessed by him she was actually possessed by her trauma because it can feel very much like you are being possessed by your past self. And there's a whole bunch of stuff about reenactment I'm not even gonna get into

I think Orlok DOES represent her repressed desires that she is deeply ashamed of and it's also entwined with sexual trauma, because what is sexual trauma if not a repressed desire to escape. Society is so repressed that there really is only one place to freely express her instincts, and it's a place of horror.

I saw people say that her relationship with Orlok was about embracing ones sexuality and escaping an unsatisfying marriage and female empowerment and I'm like well YES in a way but it's all through a distorted lens. But it's not twilight. I wasn't getting twilight