Commander Fox x reader | Burns and scars
Got this idea from @suddenly-clones's idea of what Fox looked like. I just had to do it because I absolutely adore my boy Fox. He deserves love too.
And finally, I've written a longer fic.
You stood in front of Fox, your love, with your hands grasping both of his. The room was completely silent, neither of you saying a word. The only noise that could be heard throughout the room was yours and Fox's quiet breathing. He didn't want to be the one to speak first, and you weren't entirely sure what to say.
You looked into his darked T-shaped visor, a bit covered by the sun blocker as his head was tilted downwards, fixed on your hands intertwined with his. He was refusing to take off his helmet, and it worried you. You weren't force-sensitive, but you could feel the mix of emotions radiating off Fox. Emotions of shame and fear, among other negative emotions of the same category, and it broke your heart. You didn't like seeing him upset.
"Fox." You spoke his name gently. Someone was going to have to break the silence sooner or later, even if you still didn't know what to say.
He said nothing. The only reaction you got out of him to let you know he heard what you said was the slight lift of his head. He lifted it up enough where you could now fully see the visor, and you assumed he could fully see your face as well.
"My darling..." You spoke, your voice barley above a whisper. You watched as his head dipped back down, away from you. "What's wrong?"
Still, you got no verbal response. You watched his head move up to look back at you for a fleeting moment, before quickly looking away somewhere else. You had no idea what happened, but you knew it must've been something bad for him to be acting like this.
Fox wanted to give you a response. He really did. He didn't want to just keep quiet like he was ignoring you, but he didn't know what to say. He could open his mouth, but no words would form on his tongue. No sounds would come out of his vocal chords. He was speechless, and not in the good way. He was afraid. Afraid of losing you, either because of what happened or because he won't give you an answer. And neither were good options.
You let go of his hands, sliding them out of his loose grasp. His hands fell down to his lap, his head sinking down further as he found his feet suddenly more interesting than everything else around you two.
"Fox, look at me." You requested gently
He complied with your request, his head slowly moving up to look at your face. You wished you could see the man underneath the helmet and the armor. You brought you hands up to the underside of his white and red helmet, with the intent to pull it up off of his head. However, before you could, Fox's hands shot up to take hold of your wrists and pulling your hands down, preventing you from lifting it up.
"No..." Were the only words that slipped past his mouth. He sounded so defeated, and it only broke your heart further. You hated seeing him like this.
"Please." You begged, wanting to actually be able to see his face. See how much damage had truly been done, and see if there was anyway you could comfort him. Even if he wouldn't speak about what was wrong.
His head tilted downwards slightly, looking away from you again. He still couldn't look at you, not with the shame he was feeling. He knows he should tell you, that everything won't be as bad as his brain thinks it will be. He knows everything won't turn out nearly as bad as his brain thinks, but he just can't find the courage to do it.
"I can't." He said, shaking his head slightly
"Fox..." You pressed lightly, not wanting to take it too far, "please?"
You heard a small sigh escape his lips. Not one of annoyance, or relief, but one of defeat. He knows you'll find out sooner or later, and that he can't hide it forever. He's already hidden it for long enough. He has to face it sooner or later. He didn't give any verbal confirmation, only the nod of his head as he let go of your wrists, his hands falling to his sides.
You lifted your hands back to the base of his helmet, gently gripping the durasteel. You lifted up the helmet off his head, immediately noticing how his eyes immediately dart away from you to look somewhere else. He couldn't even look you in the eyes. He couldn't even look at you.
You discarded the helmet to the side, immediately noticing what was the source of Fox's worry, shame, and fear. It was a new, large burn covering the bottom left side of his face, adding to his ever growing list of scars and burns. You knew he was always self conscious about the multiple scars that adorned his face, but you never knew they could ever affect him this much. As if your heart was broken enough, knowing this only broke it further. You absolutely hated to see him like this. You never wanted him to be sad. Only happy, because that's what he deserved.
You brought your hand up to the burn, and he made no move to stop you. You gently rubbed your thumb over the now red, scarred flesh. It was warm.
"Is this what you were scared over?" You asked gently
Fox didn't say anything, only nodded a little. He still refused to look at you. The wall was much more interesting.
You smiled a small bit, knowing exactly what he needed. You leaned down to gently kiss his forehead, afterwards sitting down next to him on the bed so you could pull him closer to you. You drew different shapes into his red, ginger hair.
"You should know by now that a little scar isn't going to change how I feel about you, love." You said
Throughout this entire conversation, he finally met your gaze for the first time. His golden brown eyes held a bit of disbelief in them, as if he didn't believe what you were saying, "You're...not disgusted or repulsed by it?"
"Of course not." You reassured him, "I still think you're as dashing and handsome as ever."
"Do you really mean that?" He asked quietly, a bit scared of what your response could be. He still wasn't fully convinced.
"Of course..." You said, leaning down and leaving a few kisses along his new scar, "I love everything about you." You ran your fingers through his hair, reaching up to leave a small kiss along his hairline. "I love your cute, ginger hair..." after, your reached down a placed a kiss along the two faded scars, "I love every single scar on your skin." Then, you reached down to hold his hand, placing a kiss on top of the hand piece (he was still in his armor), "I love your hands, because they're warm to hold. I love every single part about you, and I can keep going on if you want." You said, looking up at your flustered lover from all the praise you gave him
"Oh, and there's one more thing." You said, sitting up fully, placing your hands along both his cheeks once you did
"What is it..?" He asked, a bit of fear still inside of him as he looked at you
"Just that I also love those wonderful lips of yours, because it let's me do this."
You then captured his lips with yours in a kiss, pouring all of your love for him into the kiss. He quickly melted into your kiss, deepening it as he pulled your body close to his. Once you pulled away, you leaned your forehead against his, a small smile gracing your features. Any thoughts of fear or shame went completely out the window for Fox. All his focus was on his beautiful lover in front of him, a small bit of guilt inside him for ever thinking you would ever leave just because he got a new scar.
"Thank you." He said, enveloping you into a hug, "I love you." He added, but quieter
"I love you too." You responded