ā ā ā ā every of stefan's words seemed to settle somewhere deep inside her, somewhere she usually kept locked away behind charm and smiles and carefully constructed walls. stefan, however, repeatedly managed to get through these walls. he spoke about forever with such certainty. such innocence. as though it were something beautiful and uncomplicated.
ā ā ā ā her heart ached; if only he knew.
ā ā ā ā a faint smile touched her lips nonetheless, soft and genuine as she squeezed his hands in return. "you make it sound very easy," she murmured as her gaze lowered briefly to their joined hands before lifting back to his face. "the rest of our forevers."
ā ā ā ā for a fraction of a second, sadness flickered across her features. subtle enough that it might easily be mistaken for tenderness. she did love him. she lived for a very long time by now and knew that what she had with stefan; what she felt for him, was rare. she didn't want to lose this, didn't want to lose him. she wanted to be honest with him but didn't know how she should tell him.
ā ā ā ā "i think i could live with that." katherine simply stated and she meant it. more than he could possibly know.
ā ā ā ā because despite everything she was, despite the centuries she carried and the secrets buried beneath her skin, the thought of a future with him was one of the very few things that still felt beautiful. dangerously beautiful.
ā ā ā ā her thumb brushed softly across his knuckles. "and for the record," she continued quietly, warmth returning to her voice, "i can imagine quite a lot when it comes to you, stefan salvatore." a small laugh escaped her. "perhaps more than i should." her eyes softened, brown eyes full of warmth lingered on him. "if it were you... i think i would be willing to do many things i never thought i would."
ā ā ā ā the statement sounded exactly as any young woman in love might intend it to sound. only she knew how much truth hid beneath it. for him, she was standing here trying to tell the truth instead of simply lying. her smile remained, but there was something fragile beneath it now because every second this conversation continued made the confession harder.
ā ā ā ā he looked so happy, so hopeful. she feared watching that expression disappear, feared seeing disgust where affection currently lived, feared becoming a monster in his eyes. despite anything, she also was a selfish being. she did not want to lose him.
ā ā ā ā "i care about you very much," she admitted softly before her voice dropped slightly. "and i hope nothing changes that." the confession escaped before she could stop it.
ā ā ā ā her gaze searched his face again as he struggled to reconcile her words with the version of her he knew. of course he couldn't imagine it. that was the problem. he saw the version, the girl, she could have been if nothing supernatural would have been involved. stefan saw kindness and grace. a young woman who was in love with him. not the vampire hidden beneath all of it.
ā ā ā ā katherine swallowed subtly, almost imperceptibly. yet for perhaps the first time that evening, genuine nervousness slipped through the cracks of her composure.
ā ā ā ā "it has nothing to do with you." her head shook lightly. "or your brother." she was quick to reassure him of that much. "you've done nothing wrong." if anything, he had done everything right which only made this harder.
ā ā ā ā her eyes lowered briefly before lifting again. "but would it still be that simple?" she asked quietly. "if it were something truly terrible?" another pause as though she were testing every step before taking it.
ā ā ā ā "what if i told you i had done things that were morally wrong? things that cannot simply be excused away." she held his gaze, trying so desperately to bridge the distance between truth and fear.
ā ā ā ā "would you still love me then?" the question was barely above a whisper. "if there was a darkness in me that you hadn't seen yet? even if this were only hypothetical." || @rapookiesmonsters