Survivingoverload

You broke my heart but it still beats for you. It still cries for you. The haunting that you left behind still wrecks me yet my heart still yearns for you. What is this my love? I told myself that I won’t let you in again. That I won’t break again . But here I am standing at your door ready to lose it all again.

In memory of my younger self

I wish you were here. The overthinker. The one who wanted to please everyone. You have made me into the person I am today, since you always put others before me. This is your doing. Did you always want this for me? Come over and brag. You cannot run away from me. No matter how hard you try, you cannot escape my sorrow. It belongs to you, too.

Remember the times when you tortured me every night? Whenever I tried to be happy, you asked me to worry. You told me to worry about this and that. You always questioned, What if this happened and what if that happened? Remember the agony you caused me. Now you have made me into this. I've lost so much because of you. You cannot escape now. I won't let you. My sorrow is yours as much as it is fine.

You should know I don't miss you. What I miss is the feeling of being you. The feeling of happiness. I hope you stay in the past. I hope you never come back.

I dream of a weary knight,

battle hardened,

losing all his might.

What must he do

to stay afloat?

His life is a sinking boat.

He flutters in the water,

never-ending pain

is on the platter.

He fears sleep,

it makes him weak.

The nightmares come,

monsters abode.

His life is a sinking boat.

The Night's getting dark

The heart Rumbles

What is to come

It mumbles

Will it be peace

or another storm

The heart has

forever been torn

Will it take away the gloom

or bring another doom

I know you're hurting

Wandering around in the woods

Thinking if all of this was worth it

To be left with nothing

After giving everything

How can you not be hurting

The ones who left will never come back

Wish they could take her memories back