My Life in a Blur

Literally the only person dressed up for halloween at my school. Like WTFFFF!! ITS HALLOWEEN WHERE IS ALLL THE HALLOWEEN SPIRIT🍊🍊

What made you decide to leave? You left your own daughter. Your flesh and blood. We'd been through so much together, mom leaving, your medical problems. I even had to call 911 for you I saved your life twice and you thought it was best if you left because you wanted drugs. That's all you've ever wanted. You would choose drugs over your own daughter. I loved you. I still love you and I shouldn't. It kills me. Hell it is tearing me apart. I live every day knowing that I wasn't good enough for you to say. I shouldn't be sorry but I am. I know it isn't my fault but thats all I can think about. I sit alone in my room begging for your acceptance knowing I'll nevet get it. Your gone, somewhere that I don't know. Living the life having everything you've ever wanted and I'm stuck here to suffer because of your mistakes, your choices. This is the hardest thing in my life I over eat, I have depression im turning into a person I dont want to be. I seek help to be told the same things over and over again. Its not working I dont like the version I have become. I want to be someone else I hate my body I hate my brain I hate all of me. All of this because of you. You ruined my life all because I wasn't good enough. All because you wanted something more than me. You wanted drugs.

Me: SHHHHHHHHHHHH

"Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart"❤