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I got tired of transcribing it from an oracle I found on P.S. , but here is (most of) my star chart, as October 3rd 1992.

#1 Ceres - Active, Nurture, Mothering

#10 Hygiea - Health & Hygiene

#100 Hekate - Goddess of the crossroads

#1001 Gaussia - Beauty & Grace

#1009 Sirene - Dark Captivation

#10199 Chariklo 1997 CU26 - Balance & Grace in life

#103 Hera - Greek goddess of marriage, Queen of Olympus

#1036 Ganymede 1924 TD - Youthful beauty; Bi-Gay enthusiasm

#10370 Hylonome 1995 DW2 - Emotional grief & loss

#1108 Demeter - Of Bounty on Earth

#111 Ate - Mischief for discord

#11240 Piso - Roman family of discredited

#114 Kassandra - Greek unbelieved Seer of futures

#1144 Oda - From a German farming calendar

#1170 Siva - Potent transformations

#1181 Lilith Asteroid - Independent craving feminine

#118230 Sado - Of taking advantage, also as BDSM

#11911 Angel - Prayers answered

#1198 Atlantis - Secrets of an unknown past

#120 Lachesis - Greek fate of length of threads

#1221 Amor 1932 EA 1 - The Roman Eros, but less sexual

#1247 Memoria - incidents of memorials; Death

#12711 Tumkit 1991 BB - Masturbation, sex as stress relief

#1277 Dolores - Sorrow from loss

#128 Nemesis - Of Karmic circumstances

#12923 Zepher 1994 GK4 - A Dance like the wind

#1328 Devota - an inspired bond or commitment 

#134 Sophrosyne - High in Wisdom curve of living 

#134210 2005 PQ21 - Porn, extreme sexual action, creativity

#136108 Haumea 2003 EL61 - Hawaiian goddess of fertility

#136199 Eris 2003 UB313 - Generational; aggressive feminine

#1387 Kama - Sanskrit for Lust

#1388 Aphrodite - Feminine magnetism & attraction

#14827 Hypnos 1986 JK - Inspiration of sleep & dreams

#14871 Pyramus - The young Romeo; Forbidden love

#148780 Altjira 2001 UQ18 - Aboriginal dreamer & creator

#1489 Atilla - Tactical & aggressive

#1566 Icarus 1949 MA - Exceeding reasonable limits

#157 Dejanira - Karmic as from a misplaced trust

#15760 Albion 1992 QB1 - A Uranian Pluto exploring unknowns

#15820 Groom 1994-TB - an aspect to Marriage and Partner

#15874 1996-TL66 - Generational Cluelessness; negative mind

#16 Psyche - Explorations of the deep mind

#164 Eva - Requiring a Man

#1647 Menelaus - Brother of Agamemnon, husband of Helen

#1685 Toro 1948 OA - Aggressively assertive

#171 Ophelia - Difficulty accepting circumstances

#174567 Varda 2003 MW12 - Tolkein Star Queen. A Jupiter Neptune aspect

#17458 Dick - coincidence; no data

#18 Melpomene - A Greek Muse of tragic song

#1808 Bellerophon - Thrown to his death by Pegasus

#184314 Mbabamwanawar 2005 EO302 - Zulu goddess of rainbows

#1862 Apollo 1932 HA - Greek male god archetype

#1863 Antinous 1948 EA - Involving homosexual men

#1866 Sisyphus 1972 XA - Cursed to roll a stone uphill

#1896 Beer - Oddly connected to alcohol

#1912 Anubis - Egyptian god of Death

#1932 Osiris - the first photo-jesus

#1930 Lucifer - the light bringer

#19426 Leal - conditions of Loyalty

#1943 Anteros 1973 EC - Brother of Eros, more mindful

#195 Eurykleia - the nurse of Odysseus

#19521 Chaos 1998 WH24 - Chaos bore Tartarus, Gaea, Erebus, & Nyx

#2 Pallas Athena - Greek Goddess of civilization

#20000 Varuna 2000 WR106 - Wisdom & knowledge

#2060 Chiron 1977 UB - Emotional pains, physical loss

#2063 Bacchus 1977 HB - Our close friends

#208 Lacrimosa - Heartbreaks

#2101 Adonis 1936 CA - Male archetype of physical beauty

#2102 Tantalus 1975 YA - The fruit out of reach

#2150 Nyctimene - Triumph over adversity

#2199 Klet - like Dick, no data

#2212 Hephaestus 19778 SB - Greek god of craft

#225088 GongGong 2007 OR10 - Martian Pluto, generational

#2340 Hathor 1976 UA - Egyptian mother of Horus 

#239 Adrastea - Nurse to Zeus. Conditions inescapable.

#24 Themis - Advocate of justice (1 & 2) to Greek Zeus

#24219 - Conditions to/for Anal sex

#248 Lameia - Greek version of Lilith

#251 Sophia - Greek name for Wisdom

#25143 Itokawa 1998 SF36 - Japanese NEO; no data

#258 Tyche - Greek goddess of Luck

#26 Proserpina - Roman Persephone, wife to Pluto <3

#268 Adorea - Worthy to love, adoration

#273 Atropos - Of the 3 fates, who cutes the threads

#28 Bellona - Roman goddess of strength & war

#284 Amalia - Of a practical politic

#2878 Panacea - Of alternative medicines

#28978 Ixion 2001 KX76 - Iconoclastic, irreverent

#2938 Hopi - Dissolute character

#29391 Knight - Black or White is a power

#3 Juno - Roman goddess of marriage

#30 Urania - Greek Muse of Astronomy 

#3163 Randi - Skeptical to the non material; seductive

#318 Marcelina - Mary Magdalena 

#31824 Elatus 1999 UGS - Charismatic from a defeated position

#3200 Phaethon 1938 TB - Reckless energy

#324 Bamberga - Failure to help the hopeless

#32532 There’s 2001 PT13 - Wrestles with bears and takes them home

#3267 Glo - Destructive; local pragmatic

#330836 Orius 2009 HW77 - Entitlement of thieves includes tragedy

#3361 Orpheus 1982 HR - Success lost by looking back

#34 Circe - The lustful Sorceress who stole time from Odysseus 

#346889 Rhiphonos 2009 QV38 - A violent Warrior allied to Dionysus 

#3550 Link - an unspoken bonding of attraction

#3553 Mera 1985 JA - to give up chastity for status

#3561 Devine - Hubris to divine interventions

#358 Apollonia - Persuasive to bad ideas

#3671 Dionysus 1984 KD - Adventures of the sensual

#37117 Narcissus 2000 VU2 - Intoxicating sense and scent

#38083 Rhadamanthus 1999 HX11 - The Fair Judge rules in the Hades Garden Spot

#381 Myrrha - Mother to Adonis

#3811 Karma - An potent event of changes

#38628 Huya 2000 EB173 - Generational; to live in rain

#389 Industria - Industrious to meet trend

#390 Alma - An intuitive effort that endures beyond destruction

#3908 Nyx 1980 PA - The powerful Mother of Zeus

#3989 Odin - To move on victory when known to be possible

#399 Persephone - Wife to Pluto was negotiated to live half on Earth

#4 Vesta - Ceremony potentially of being sexed. Feminine tradition

#404 Arsinoe - Sacrificing one for the other. File not Found: Error 404

#407 Arachne - The Webs we weave

#4198 Panthera - Associated to the lust of a Panther

#42 Isis - Egyptian Moon goddess. The feminine.

#420356 Praamzius - Lithuanian Sky God

#42355 - Typhon 2002 CR46 - The sleeping Monster; (Godzilla)

#430 Hybris - When un-communicated, failed Lusts

#432971 Loving - Associated to interracial unions

#433 Eros 1989 DQ - Mindless amorous lust

#4386 Lust - Spiritually Possessive Lust

#443 Photographica - concerning photography

#4450 Pan 1987 SY - Hunter, Warrior, Power of applied confusion

#447 Valentine - Deep love worthy of extreme sacrifice

$4850 Child - perceptive, diligent, industrious

#4581 Asclepius 1989 FC - A healer of the Argonauts

#469705 Kagara - African; Mystical, Intense, Changes by storm

#472235 Zhulong - The Chinese Torch Dragon

#474640 Alcicanto - A night bird that leads to riches or defeats

#48 Doris - A prolific sea nymph

#486958 Arrokoth - Powhatan sky god

#494 Virtus - Roman Male Virtue

#499 Venusia - The no nonsense highly sexual experience 

#5 Astraea - Daughter of Zeus, placed in heaven to remain virtuous

#50000 Quaror 2002 LM60 - Generational Creation deity; native to L.A.

#5023 Agapenor - Loyalty to accept risk from the inexperienced

#5143 Heracles 1991 VL - Half human and half god. Hype 

#5145 Pholus 1992 AD - Peace loving Centaur who died tragically burying the dead

#523 Ada - Chaste to an ideal

#5261 Eureka - The discovery after long searching

#52975 Cyllarus 1998 TF35 - Centaur of great passion and violence

#5335 Damocles 1992 DA - Complications of enthusiasm & depression combined

#541132 Leleakuhonua - Hawaiin deity

#545 Messaline - of favored Roman wives

#5451 Plato - Social, industriously philosophical 

#54598 Bienor 2000 QC243 - A violent Centaur brought to a violent end

#54902 Close - Obsessional, reclusive research

#55 Pandora - where optimistic hopes yield a godless plague

#55555 DNA - named for the study of DNA

#55576 Amycus 2002 GB10 - A vengeful Centaur killed in a battle of retribution

#56 Melete - Favors a strong clique mentality, racial or cultural

#570 Kythera - Strongly implies a love of one from the past life 

#5731 1988-VP4-Zeus - Zeus; depressed, manipulative, powerful

#577 Rhea - Wife of Kronos, mother of Zeus & other Greek gods

#5808 Babel - of interpretations 

#58534 Logos 1997 CQ29 - A controversial explanation of collective consciousness 

#588 Achilles - Greek hero enchanted by his mother, killed by Paris

#5928 Pindarus - being sexually active and attractive after midlife

#6 Hebe - wife of Hercules, very admirable

#60 Echo - the one who speaks annoyingly; multilingual 

#60588 Echeclus - One who is often miserable

#608 Adolfine - Social reformer of dubious methods

#61342 LoveJoy - Fidelity issues arise from self ambition

#6235 Burney - the industrious observer

#627 Charis - Power of persuasion

#638 Moira - One of the three Greek fates

#642 Clara - the childless housekeeper

#65 Cybele - Unpredictable, volatile, only truthful in love

#653 Berenike - forms of vanity

#65489 Ceto 2003 FX128 - 986.571 year orbit. Mother to many sea creatures

#6583 Destinn - associated to Opera

#66652 Boraisis 1999 RZ253 - 292.9 year orbit, disappointments

#672 Astarte - Phoenician goddess of love & fertility

#677 Aaltje - A Dutch singer

#695 Bella - A dubious word for meaning Beauty

#7 Iris - the pleasant attendant to Juno

#7066 Nessus 1993 HA2 - An evil enemy from the past

#71 Niobe - the sexy daughter of Tantalus offended Apollo

#73 Klytia - a nymph loved by and later despised by Apollo

#7328 Casanova - Flirt, seduced; often sexually ditzy

#75 Eurydice - Wife of Orpheus (3361)

#76 Freia - Norse goddess of beauty and love

#763 Cupido - sudden attractions

#7696 Liebe - Mystical attraction often blocked

#7753 1988 XB - NEO denotes extreme sex practices 

#78 Diana - Roman Artemis; talented, behaves erotic virginal

#79360 Sila-Nunam 1997 CS29 - Inuit creator god of sky & life 

#787199 2002-XQ93 - Brilliant; powerful, controlling healer; Mothra

#80 Sappho - sensual attractor & expressions of erotic lust

#8081 Leopardis - a young published poet, creative prose

#81 Terpsichore - a Greek muse of choral dance and song

#812 Adele - Medical potentials, nurse, loving

#8130 Seeburg - Associated with possessions of a sexual nature

Alright, let’s see how unbearable it is trying to navigate typing long form on an iPad, with whatever this keyboard is. So far, not terrible, which is good.

I don’t know how regular people use this website, or social media, but for me: I assume the internet is still a private space, where everyone is anonymous and hides behind their screen name. How do you know I’m the person in the picture? Maybe I stole someone’s identity, does it matter? What are you doing here, why are you reading?

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Today, Emily is in surgery, for a rare primary brain stem tumor. As much as I am NOT enthused for her to have such an ordeal to go through, I am at least grateful that it’s peculiar / rare, meaning the surgeons will actually care about her case, because someone will want to write a paper on treating it. I’m increasingly irritated at the COVID hoax, & the fuck ass Vx, because this is all their fault. mRNA + spike protein + lipid nano particles = tumor factory // delivery // food system.

This is the lamest way to end humanity I could have conceived of. And that’s the thing: THIS was not my idea. For someone as obsessed with plagues as I am, who spent all that time learning about zombies and parasitology, this is a complete fucking farce. This is an INSULT to the end times, because it’s so fucking LAME.

With each passing day, there’s a new horror to learn about, and a new idiot’s plan about how they’d like to eliminate the human race. There’s no artistry, no finesse, no flare. It’s all tied up in child sexual abuse, the occult, and literal demons - absolutely ridiculous.

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I miss when I was younger, and stupider, just playing Plague Inc on my phone, while learning about humoral immunity and virology in the background, in college. Whatever amount of studying I did, to learn how to practice whatever amount of medicine I was proficient in.

That’s part of the rub, too - how little of that matters, now. I’ve lived my entire life based on a lie, perhaps based on what SOMEONE(S) else had planned for me. Psychic driving…. Handlers…. Spies. Bullshit.

And for what? Here I am, 33 years ancient, watching the world crash and burn around me, my family get sick & sliced up by surgeons, my cats held hostage by my evil husband - where do I go from here? What am I doing here? Why haven’t I been arrested? Why all those strange emails?

WHAT. IS. THE. POINT.

Why does it feel like simultaneously so much depends on my survival, but also that my entire life is meaningless, and invalid?

Who has any of these answers, anyways? Can I cheat?

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As far as I’ve ever been concerned, there is exactly one biological imperative that all species are supposed to abide by: survive, & reproduce. Try your best not to die on a daily basis, & find a mate to pass down your genetic lineage to. The simplest concept in the world, the Birds & the Bees. Whatever happened to the simple joy of life, I do not know…. We’ve strayed so far from the natural order of the world, no on even knows how to have sex anymore, apparently. There is no courtship, there is no “dating” culture - kids these days aren’t even hooking up anymore, all the boys are incels & the girls have OnlyFans.

That this is the society I’m expected to live in in such a fucking joke, but it’s not even remotely funny. The world USED to have beauty, & purpose. People used to see art & be inspired, have thoughts that mattered, pursue lives that had meaning - things that were worth fighting for, or dying to defend.

Nowadays, no one knows anything, or cares. They’re all so brainrotted, or dead inside, that each atrocity just feels like another Tuesday. No one cares about the grass that grows, or the flowers that smell. It’s almost criminal to even be outside at all. If you dare to explore the forests, you’ll be covered in plague ticks & contract Alpha Gal, or Super Lyme, or worse?

WHY have they done this, at all, but also, in such a way?

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It isn’t cruelty, & it isn’t “for the betterment” of mankind…. It’s hubris. It’s the classic dilemma of scientists for ages now - ethics. Just because we CAN, does not mean we should. Just because it’s POSSIBLE, does not mean it’s something we need to make happen. There’s no fucking humanity left, I swear to gods.

If we really needed to depopulate the planet so badly, why not just kill everyone quickly & kindly, with fentanyl or something? There are so many poisons and potions that already exist, fatal & easy to administer, it could be “solved” so quickly. But noooooooo, where’s the profit margin? Euthanasia is apparently not horrific enough for these sick science freaks.

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That’s the other thing that irritates me, the transhumanism of it all. Again, WHY. We did not need to go there, & the fact that it exists at all is an affront to divinity. Sure, there USED TO be such creatures, such hybrids, such beasts, but guess what? They went extinct, or were hunted into obscurity, TOO BAD. That’s how the planet is, how the food chain works - we can’t have nice things, if we destroy their habitats, or eat them all……

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had dinner, Em is out of surgery.