Gun To Your Jaw And Tell You “Take It Like A Man”

Every catch yourself thinking a thought no one in a sound mind would think? Does catching this undo its insanity?

Darius Rucker i love you forever Southern State of Mind is such a personal song oh my GOD. Man i feel so seen.

Practicing not telling every thought ever by drafting it and then deleting if. Not this one tho. Not everything has to be a confessional. I will tell myself this.

“Girl you make my speakers go boom boom” — real country lyric i unironically got down to at like 9.

I watched brokeback mountain for the first time. Absolutely destroyed me. But like. I get them in a way. Obviously not to the same extent. But man the queer experience of wanting someone so bad but knowing you cant have each other only being reduced to stolen nights away. No one talk to mr im mourning

Blargh social media cleanse i need to change forgove me

So like i think something is wrong w me.

Im gonna clear out my blog here one day soon trust. I just need another day off.

I need to deeply reevaulate who i am as a person i think

Im not morally wrong for doing these things. I am a controbuting member of society. I am productive. This is not a reflection of my grander narrativr and character