Gun To Your Jaw And Tell You “Take It Like A Man”

Blargh social media cleanse i need to change forgove me

So like i think something is wrong w me.

Im gonna clear out my blog here one day soon trust. I just need another day off.

I need to deeply reevaulate who i am as a person i think

Im not morally wrong for doing these things. I am a controbuting member of society. I am productive. This is not a reflection of my grander narrativr and character

I ant to be kinder i want to be warmer i want to be bigger to embrace more people i want to touch lives and hearts and get to experience the depths of the human soul im so in love with humanity i want to help it save itself

Need er in my lap neow

Kinda wanting to cry bc i found a tiktok channel teaching words in the mvkoke language for kids and. I hate to be that white bitch talking abt her native grandma or whatever but. Getting to be close to the culture again after everything culturally signficant she had brought with her from her original reservation burnt in the housefire and getting to learn at least a little bit… idk it makes my heart swell. Closer to her in that way.

Everytime i get upset about my grandpa and how much i miss him i do have to temember he DID chose a random lady and meth over his kids and grandchildren. Remembering this does not hrlp.