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@sunphrenia
schizoscope -> starschizo -> sunphrenia
hi!
my name is aether/sun. i have schizophrenia that IS medicated, with mixed results. i try to tag posts as "actually delusional" when they are, but i slip up sometimes and this generally isn't a safe blog for you if you pick up other people's delusions easily.
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my mainblog is c--------v
(more info about me and this blog below)
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i kinda hate the rubber room with rats meme
how has it been repeated to me or in front of me Three Times this week by different people who dont know each other. i thought it was a dead reference
i kinda hate the rubber room with rats meme
it's always "you gnawed off your own leg to escape like an animal caught in a trap" and never "why didn't anyone try to help you out of the trap" or "why weren't you provided with any other resources to escape the trap with except for your own teeth"
you call it "tangential thinking". i call it my Metaphors
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sometimes when i get too upset i just. stop being able to take myself seriously as a person who feels things. and then so it looks to my peers like i cheered up when actually if anything ive started feeling even worse
help girl, i forgot which facade i left my soul in
getting yourself a cute jacket is great because now when you look in the mirror and see a person that is not you and look away lest you be compelled to bash your head in on the wall and ground, you can at least know that the person people see walking around in your place has that lesbian shit On
no you dont get it. if i just contort myself into the Right shapes at the Right times and just get really really good at it, i can make everyone like me.
i hate how tired and miserable i am 90% of the time, but i think i hate it even more how, when it's the other 10% of the time, i get Scared because i know how easy it is to fall into a delusion if i actually have enough energy for my brain to properly get tangled in those loops
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goodbye pride layout, hello whatever the hell this is
starschizo -> sunphrenia
my mom immediately reacting with "i dont think you could handle that" to me saying my friend kindly offered to help me get a job hosting bingo nights at a couple local restaurants is so. hm. it makes me very annoyed
"theres going to be lots of adults there" sorry, you're worried about me interacting with adults? i'm fucking twenty-three.
my mom immediately reacting with "i dont think you could handle that" to me saying my friend kindly offered to help me get a job hosting bingo nights at a couple local restaurants is so. hm. it makes me very annoyed
Girl who has increasingly obvious Symptoms over time: Actually I shouldn't put myself first because I'm the Healthy One and therefore responsible for everyone else all the time no matter what
i try not to let previous experiences color how i view people, but man. the knee jerk reaction of alarm i get when someone says something like "[alter] did that, not me" in response to criticism is really hard to set aside sometimes
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Psychosis can mess with critical thinking skills and make completely irrational things seem perfectly logical at times. When a delusion kicks in, it can be very difficult to logic your way out of it.
I periodically think my milk is filled with slugs and larvae, even though I know rationally, that's not the case. Most days, I can work through that by reminding myself that I live with other people who also drink the milk, and if there were bugs in it, someone else would have noticed, so it's more logical that I'm just hallucinating.
However, the worse psychosis gets, the ability to logic like that can become more difficult. I might start thinking things like "they're only pretending to drink the milk to trick me" or something. They're not, and the milk is fine, but... the brain fills in the gaps of the logic with whatever it can to preserve the delusion.
Delusions often sound completely ridiculous on the outside, but when you're in the delusional state, it feels completely rational, often in ways you can't fully explain.
I often come out of delusions and think "how did I think that was real", but… well, brains are mean like that, y'know?
i DO think if i see one more condescending post about how easy it is to switch to linux and that people who dont are "stubborn" i may just kill them
like ok. can i run my games on it. can i run my drawing program on it. can i do most things without going through commands.
if the answer is no or 'you can if you do x y and z first' the saw trap goes off. i think the term ''tech illiterate'' is used in a weirdly ableist way typically but i am certainly NOT tech savvy. if i routinely fuck up self-hosting minecraft servers when its a thoroughly tutorialized step by step process i promise i would fuck up linux
