Peaches and Caroline

And the only way to get rid of a shadow is to turn off the light. To stop running from the darkness, and face what you fear. Head on.

Be a better you, for you.

Eating disorders are so irritating because one day you could be laughing, eating a pint of ice cream and 7 pieces of pizza with your friends, thinking you’re completely recovered and then the next you could be crying in the bathroom wanting to purge because you ate a salad for dinner. 

I love you. I do. I love you. I’ve always been in love with you. I will always be in love with you. We can get married. And you’re gonna be an amazing surgeon. We’re gonna have 2 or 3 kids. We’re gonna have the best life, Lexie. You and me. You can’t die because we’re supposed to end up together. We are meant to be. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

Some positive things that I have realised since ‘losing’ my thigh gap…   I am so much warmer – yes hello to a normal core temperature. My body is now happier and healthier and able to keep me warm – which is an added bonus with winter just around the corner, being cold is no fun. Dropping my phone no longer results in it smashing onto the floor; THANK YOU BODY! Jeans are actually FITTING me! Like actually fitting! Imagine a world where they don’t just fall off, IT IS MAGICAL. My legs no longer ache/ get tired easily during a long shift standing up at work – strong thighs are beautiful. I can sit cross-legged and my feet warm up when they nestle against my inner thighs – yes this is my natural sitting position and it is now even more comfortable than before. When I practice Yoga my stance is so much stronger – my core stability is now amazing. I am starting to accept myself for who I am, not who I thought I should be. Preach it. One of the most important ones; my cat’s can now sit on my lap and not fall straight off! It is so lovely when a cat cuddles up on your lap on a dark/cold evening and they can finally sit there comfortably instead of nearly falling off every 5 seconds before giving up and retreating to their usual position on the sofa.  And finally; THIGH GAPS DO NOT MEAN ANYTHING. They are based on the biological positioning of your hips; most people are not “meant” to have a gap between their thighs. There are beautiful people who have thigh gaps, but there are also beautiful people who do not have thigh gaps. It is not a trophy or a thing to strive for. It is not ‘beautiful’ or 'desirable’ or an 'achievement’. The most important thing is to be happy and healthy; your body is meant to be unique. Take a moment each and every day to thank your body for keeping you alive no matter what. Make a vow to not mistreat or abuse it again; you only get one in your lifetime. You are incredibly important.