not also good with community.

i feel left out. as always. and behind.

as if i’ve done something wrong again.

it is because of my personality?

but i know im trying

.. really trying....

but i guess... there’s something in the past that i did that’s why i am being punished now.

consequences.

really not good with people.

not also good with community.

am i really trying?

am i hard to love?

or people just don’t care or interested with my life.. at all.

really not good with people.

not also good with community.

i just want a small world.

where... im deeply genuinely happy

with myself and my life..

without having to try.

without fear.. and shame.

just myself.. and the Lord

smiling..

random anxiety (attacked by the enemy) ⚡️

‪allowed myself to missed those chance again. i wish i was braver back then.. and now i blame myself again for putting me in this situation 😆 cycle! 🆒‬

it never stop until you decide to fully to stop 😋

april na. exciting sana tong month na to kung normal lang lahat. exciting kasi easter. may bakasyon ako. hehe. kaso yun. di kasi normal ang mundo kaya meh. hoping for the better days in the coming weeks. 🤍

hmmm... grabe. naalala ko last month inaabangan nmen tong month na to dahil sa avengers; end game. ang bilis ng panahon pero kanina hahaha binalikan namen ung laban at umiyak pa din ako. the best talaga to. isa sa mga history. hay. ngayon ayun, 1 year ago na un. wala ng aabangan na ganun. 😔 wala ng avengers. sadt. but. yah. gotta move on ♥️ hehehe.

yung hindi ka na sana’y pag hindi mo suot yung ring mo tas ngayon hindi mo masyado nasusuot kasi nasa bahay ka lang palagi 🤪✨

side kwento dahil dami tayo time; wala akong idea kung anong type or cut ng ring ba gusto ko kasi hindi ko lang talaga siya naiisip before pero nung binigay niya sakin to, this is exactly what i want. he knows me 😂

march 12 yung huling pasok ko sa work. 13 till now, house arrest pdn. nakakasad lang kasi yung sa work may nangyari related to covid pero okay naman na. nung una okay na po di ko inexpect na mawawalan talaga kami ng work dahil inimply na nga yung enhance community quarantine, so suspended talaga lahat ng work. ready naman ako mag work need ko ng money eh. hahah pero yun. tulog, kain, nood, nood, basa lang ginagawa ko dito sa bahay. bagal lang ng net pero okay ndn. tinatry ko wag masyado kumain at mag tipid kasi sabay ko na to sa pag diet ko dahil sa pinag hahandaan ko pero may times dami ko pdn kukain. hehe. wala lang. wala lang talaga ko magawa ngayon and sunday na. dapat mag kasama na kami ni asy ng gantong oras at siguro nag wewedding planning kami kung normal ang lahat pero dahil hindi, nganga lang muna tayo. hay.

sana matapos na to. sana maaskyonan na ng mabuti ng gobyerno ang mga problema. pls Lord. stop na sana mangurakot muna yung mga demonyo sa gobyerno. hello, ang yayaman niyo na. wag na kayo maging greedy dahil hindi naman na kayo hihirap. maawa kayo. 🙄 pero si Lord na ang bahala sainyo.