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@summerstealth​ sent:  “ i am not gonna give up that easy. i’m gonna make this way harder than it needs to be. ” for Kayla!!

“You? Giving up? Pfff, thought hadn’t crossed my mind.” Now making things harder than necessary seemed rather taxing, especially on children going to camp, but who was she to question it? She was no expert here, this whole camp counsellor job was new, and she’d been promised the more experienced counsellors would show her the ropes. Gathering up the items to be scavenged, she placed them inside a basket they’d use to carry to each location. “So tell me, what are we going to do to make this hunt a little trickier for the kids? Are there going to be challenges along the way? Doing a task leads to finding the treasure they seek or whatever, that kind of thing? Did they give us ideas, or are you going to… wing it off the top of your head?”

     Was she being a little petulant? Maybe. But Deb was getting tired of the way things were being run at the camp. So many of the other counselors were off partying and doing whatever they wanted while ignoring the things that needed to be set up and fixed. Kenny was meant to be in charge of things, but she hadn’t seen him in hours, leaving her to clean up the mess along the way. So after spending the afternoon doing multiple peoples’ jobs and having ninety percent of things go wrong she was more than just a little fed up. At least she could still count on Kay.

     “The memo left for me literally just said ‘scavenger hunt’. Except it was spelled wrong and I think someone spilled something on it. If I left it up to half of these people the whole thing would be over in five minutes, and no matter how frustrated I get I’m not going to just throw something together for the sake of checking things off the list. I might not have it planned out, but that’s what I’ve got you for, right? We can figure it out together.” And pin the blame on Kenny if it all ended up going to hell.

▌╳ @summerstealth sent : “ everything you learn comes in handy some day. one way or another. ”

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▌█ ∵   💋   ∵ █ ▌  Her features are warm as she looks at the other. Hands flipping through page after page of the books that Deb had brought with her before nodding softly. it was hard to absorb things, having people do things for her or help her more than they should was always the easiest in school. But, if she wanted to go into social work she really had to take it seriously, Deb had been a great resource for help so far. Of course, this was only during down time when the boys weren’t around or she was too bored to do anything else. But, nevertheless she liked the company and it was starting to get easier to learn things and actually stay focused when someone gave tips.  ❝ Right, like shotgunning a beer. Okay cool, I can so totally do this now! Who knew, you could be pretty and have brains, now I am a little bit more than halfway to being just like you Deb!  ❞

     Bringing the books had been an automatic response; there was going to be downtime, and with classes starting in only a couple short months it would be good to not only fill her spare time with her favorite stories, but her studies as well. Someone was bound to make fun of her, but after years of enduring the nicknames and teasing she believe herself to be immune. Or at least she had thought as much before Tiffany happened.

     Knots twisted in her stomach as she paused in what she was doing, gaze trailing awkwardly to the girl sitting beside her. When Tiffany had expressed interest in studying Deborah had thought she was joking. What did a girl like that need books for, anyway? And yet despite her misgivings she had decided to help the girl by offering up her own study tips, teaching Tiffany several different ways to retain rapidly absorbed information. For a few moments it had actually been fun--but all too quickly the excitement faded, replaced instead with cold, uneasy dread. 

@summerstealth​: " parties aren’t my thing. “

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Face scrunching up just SLIGHTLY in disbelief, Chad shook his head. He shouldn’t have expected anything more. “You don’t mean to tell me you WILLINGLY took up this opportunity to be the ones in charge JUST to be a stick in the mud?” He asked, tilting his head to one side. Sober, Chad wasn’t a man of many words- nor socialization. With alcohol, however- he’d say whatever he pleased. He didn’t KNOW her, she didn’t know him. He was bored already. “What? Gonna call it a night THIS early? C’mon-”

     “In charge--we’re responsible for making sure the camp is ready for the kids. That’s why we took this job, Chad.” God, he was annoying. What was he even doing in a place like this? She might have seemed out of place with her ballet flats and comfortable sweaters, but she looked like a regular camper when placed next to Chad Kensington, King of Douche Mountain. She had known him only a short time, but already she was wishing she had those hours back. 

EDUCATION:   high school | college | university | master’s degree | PhD(s) | other. HAS BEEN:   in love | hurt | ill | mentally abused | bullied | physically abused | tortured | brainwashed | shot.

POSITIVE TRAITS:   affectionate | adventurous | athletic | brave | careful | charming | confident | creative | cunning | determined | forgiving | generous | honest | humorous | intelligent | loyal | modest | patient | selfless | polite | down-to-earth | diligent | romantic | moral | fun-loving | charismatic | calm. NEGATIVE TRAITS: aggressive | bossy | cynical | envious | shy | fearful | greedy | gullible | jealous | impatient | impulsive | cocky | reckless | insecure | irresponsible | mistrustful | paranoid | possessive | sarcastic | self-conscious | selfish | swears | unstable | clumsy | rebellious | emotional | vengeful | anxious | self-sabotaging | moody | peevish | angry | pessimistic | slacker | thin-skinned | overly dramatic | argumentative.

LIVING SITUATION: lives alone | lives with parent(s) / guardian | lives with significant other | lives with a friend(s) | drifter | homeless | lives with child(ren) | lives in an institution PARENTS/GUARDIANS:   mother | father | adoptive | foster | grandmother | grandfather | other SIBLING(S): sister(s) | brother(s) | half-sister(s) | half-brother(s) | none | adoptive brother(s) | adoptive sister(s) | other (step-sister). RELATIONSHIP:  single | crushing | dating | engaged | married | separated | it’s complicated.

HAS A(N): learning disorder | personality disorder | mental disorder | anxiety disorder | sleep disorder | eating disorder | behavioral disorder | substance-related disorder | PTSD | mental disability | physical disability.

THINGS DONE BEFORE: had alcohol | smoked | stole | done drugs | self-harmed | starved | had sex | had a threesome | had a one-night stand | gotten into a fist fight | gone to hospital | gone to jail | used a fake ID | played hooky | gone to a rave | killed someone | had someone try to kill them.

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a plan? well, plans are subjective, she thinks as she rifles through drawers, looking for a set of keys she knows should be somewhere in the house but realistically could be anywhere in the camp. everyone drives the damn car, so the keys usually get left in whatever cabin the most recent driver is staying in. “ shit! “ she hisses in frustration, moving to the next one. “ the plan is to take the car, pick anyone who’s left up, and get the hell out of here, but the fact that the keys are nowhere to be found is kind of fucking with that plan- “ as she speaks she opens the next drawer, and she falls silent as she picks up what was residing within it. 

after a moment of contemplation, she looks up at deb, a new spark in her dark eyes. “ alright, new plan. we fix the phone and call the cops. “ she hands her the fuse she’s found, and she resolutely picks up the axe she’d found in the last cabin. “ can you do it? fix the phone box? “ she has no idea how to do this particular task, but she’s well-aware that deb is a brain and has been since kindergarten. “ because i’ll back you up. “ 

jason’s thrown a sizable wrench in her summer plans. but she has no desire to die, and while she’s scared out of her mind, the primitive part of her recognizes that she must act or die. the opportunity to act has presented itself to her and deb, and she intends to take it. 

#.*   @summerstealth​   said:   ’ please, tell me you have a plan. ‘  

     Heart hammering, blood pulsing in her ears--despite the adrenaline pumping through her body Deborah felt completely useless. What was she even supposed to do? Campfire stories were practically a rite of passage, ghost stories and urban legends passed down from generation to generation. Never, in her wildest dreams, would she imagine one to be real. How was she meant to fight against something that ought not exist? Logic told her that Jason couldn’t be real, that people couldn’t be dying, and it was as though all the gears endlessly turning in her mind had suddenly come to a grinding halt.

    Thank god for Victoria. 

    There was something about the girl that helped ground Deborah, helped keep her centered just enough to push back the ever encroaching panic. If she let herself succumb to that fear she would be dead in an instant, torn apart or brutalized like the victims from the stories. Like their friends. If she panicked she would not only doom herself, but Victoria too, and that knowledge alone helped her focus. They were still alive; they could still make it out.

     Hopefully.

     Deb’s heart sank once she realized the car was not a viable option. Her father might have helped her learn how to fix basic problems with the engine, but he’d never told her what to do if the keys were just gone. People in stories were always hot wiring them, but that hardly seemed like a viable option. But staying put in the camp and calling the cops was dangerous; there was no telling how long it would be. Would they be able to last long enough for a rescue? It wasn’t like they had much of a choice--

I know you can die, Jason!