A Somber Woodland Fairy

Or to be precise, how to be "productive" at all? I'm in my bed for a whole week. Doing absolutely nothing. I would've get it If I could atleast make myself to watch a movie, a tv show even a kdrama. A FREAKING KDRAMA!! Guess my situation, how worse it actually is that I'm even resisting the urge to watch kdrama. I've so many things to, starting from studying. Schools are off, again online school because of covid-19. They're saying lockdown is to end on February. It's January 28th. I really don’t want offline schools though. I'm new on the school, I don't know anyone. I only attended 2 days. I don’t like anyone from my class. I don't even like the school. God show mercy on me please.

They're still the first thing that comes to mind when I wake up in the morning and before I sleep, even when I think about "love". But it doesn’t hurt anymore. It just feels like a habit to think of them several times daily. It's been weeks since I haven’t checked their social accounts. I feel at ease. Comparing every person with them is also fading. I stopped doing things that would make them forget the other person. Maybe they check my social media, or maybe not. Either way, It's okay. I'm accepting the truth. I'm young, we all are still very young to be lost in someone else when we ought to figure who we are at this very moment.

The forest has shrunk

And fear has expanded,

The forests have dwindled,

There are less animals now,

less courage and less lightning,

less beauty

and the moon lies bare,

deflowered by force and

then abandoned.