Okay, okay, but fic idea; Regressed Ennis helping Jack out with the sheep. Maybe feeding em and giving them water while Jack does all the hard labor LOL
Agere!Ennis del mar Cg!jack twist fic
Note: hey!! This is a very cute request!! I loved the idea but I gotta say Iâm sorry cause Itâs only a part of the story near the end, I got a little invested so itâs just a little long I hope you enjoy it thought anon!
Cw: queer guilt mentioned (very little, only really referenced) / eating avoidance
The sky was beginning to slowly light up as the freezing cold air that was natural from the mornings in Brokeback began to sway away, the signs from the day starting were approaching surely, and Ennis could sense it immediately as he was the one who always woke up first between him and Jack.
He let out a quiet hum as he woke up, intending to stay quiet enough to not wake up the man beside him.
âBetter to not be a botherâ he thought as he rubbed his eyes with his hands, still pretty tired after all the work he had to do yesterday, he wished he could have just one day away from all of this, with Jack of course, but the money was a good enough reason to not complain to anyone about it.
He felt as if something was a little off this morning, he couldnât quite put his finger on it yet but it definitely felt familiar to him, maybe his lack of sleep was finally getting to him, or maybe he was just tired from all the work he had to yesterday, one thing he knew: he didnât like it, and he wished this sensation could stop, and he also wished Jack was awake, so he didnât have to do with the guilt alone.
Anxiety was running through the cowboyâs veins, an usual occurrence for Ennis as most of the time he got too deep into his thoughts and they ate his mind away, still, he preferred to stay quiet about the problems in his head and not having to share much details about his life to anyone, only thing is that he wasnât with anyone right now, quite the contrary; he was with the only person who he actually managed to share his thoughts with, the man who he trusted the most Jack Twist
He thought about the night prior and how he hugged Jack in his sleep, he never said anything about it because of how embarrassed he was to even realize the action, but he couldnât help himself around Jack, he loved him, and oh god how much he wished he was awake right now..
He kept looking at Jackâs face, not thinking much now, the anxiety was still there, but it was starting to become replaced by something else, some strange fuzziness affecting his brain and making him want to do one thing and one thing only: wake up Jack, and cling onto him just as he dreamt to do every night they slept in different tents.
Ennis wasnât thinking straight anymore, or he wasnât thinking at all, he could barely get himself to question what he was doing as he put one of his right hand on Jackâs shoulder, shaking him ever so slightly.
he put his left thumb on his mouth as he started to chew on the skin next to his nail, he was nervous, anxious, but most importantly: very needy, he wanted Jack right now, and that was the only thing his mind could focus on, even if he was scared of making him angryâŚ
As Ennis kept shaking Jackâs shoulder slowly he began opening his eyelids and he changed his position while still mostly unconscious, he looked to his side and noticed Ennis before doing a big yawn and then he began staring at the cowboy, intrigued by the reason he had woken him up.
Ennis was shaking, his little mind was in fear as he remembered almost vividly how his father yelled at him whenever he woke him up for whatever reason it was, what if Jack was gonna react the same way? What if he was mad at him? What if he yelled?
âMorninââ said Jack with a slightly more deep voice than usual, product of the fact he had just woken up.
âWe.. gotta go to the sheep yet? Or whyâd you wake me up?â He asked while looking at Ennis with a tired and confused look, he was starting to notice the strange behavior in the man, but he didnât wanna brought it up just yet.
âN-no..â Ennis managed to mumble, Jack didnât seem mad, but he couldnât just trust blindly in anyone, and he was still involuntary shaking along with his voice.
âEnnis, youâre shaking.. catch a cold or somethinâ?â Jack asked with concern, which made Ennis quickly shook his head at Jackâs question, he wasnât sick, he just.. needed him.
Jack stared at Ennis for a few seconds, he knew what it was, or at least he was pretty sure he knew, he just needed confirmation in his theory, so he moved himself closer to Ennis as they both laid together on the tent.
âNot feelinâ too big, are we little lamb?â He asked with a little smirk in his face, he liked comforting Ennis of course, but a little tease here and there was never wrong in the eyes of the playful cowboy.
Ennisâs cheeks quickly turned a light red color as he started looking at the ground, starting to chew on his thumb again, he was so embarrassed anytime Jack teased him, and he knew it well.
Jack took the finger out of Ennisâs mouth out of instinct and he chuckled quietly as he shook his head in disapproval.
âCâmon now.. you can hurt yourself like this little lamb; dada doesnât wanna see you hurtâ
Ennis grumbled a little to himself, but at this point he couldnât hide his tiredness anymore, and his regression wasnât helping at all as he got closer to Jack and put his head on his shoulder. He felt so exhausted, he just wanted to be held by Jack for a moment, maybe even forever~
âMy poor boy⌠you woke up dada âcause you wanted to cling to him, hmmâ he muttered as he put his arms around Ennis.
Ennis only made quiet and small noises as he kept his head on Jackâs shoulder; he didnât say more than two words whenever he felt like this, whenever he felt this little.
It felt so cozy whenever he slipped and Jack was around him to take care of him; he loved it, and he loved his papa.
After a few minutes in the same position, Jack slowly unwrapped his arms, taking them away from Ennisâs body, which earned him a pitiful whine from the regressed cowboy.
Jack chuckled at the small whine before speaking.
âCâmon little lamb⌠I still got work to do⌠How about you help me out looking over the sheep and makinâ sure they are well fed while I herd them with the puppies, hm?â
Ennis huffed quietly, he really didnât wanna let go of the position he was in right now.. but he also wanted to make his papa happy and be good for him so he resigned himself to give a slow nod as he slowly got his head out of his dadaâs shoulder.
Jack slowly stood up, his body was still tired from all the work he had to do yesterday.
âCome now, weâll ride on my horse, little lambâ Jack smiled as he looked down at Ennis before ruffling his already messy hair
Ennis looked at Jack sheepishly, and Jack knew well what that look meant: fear, after seeing Ennis like this a few times already it was obvious that Ennis tended to fear animals at first, but Jack was gonna make sure he felt comfortable with all the animals they were gonna see today
âWould be cute if I saw him feed some sheepâ Jack thought as he looked at the now even more shy Ennis waiting for Jackâs next move.
âCâmon.. horse wonât do nothinâ to ya, he a real good boy, youâll seeâ he said with a smile, and he grabbed Ennisâs hand and helped him get up.
Ennis held onto Jackâs hand tightly, not wanting to ever let go as Jack guided then over next to the horse, but before they could Jack looked at Ennis with a worried look
âDid you eat something before I woke up, little lamb?â Jack asked with genuine concern, he knew about Ennisâs bad habits and how they tended to get worse when he regressed
Ennis stood quiet for as long as he could, his eyes darting at the floor because he didnât want to have a look at Jackâs face, he was too embarrassed to admit anything
âIâll take that as a noâŚâ Jack sighed, he wasnât upset or mad, but he was definitely worried about Ennis
âCâmon, dada can do something for you really quick-â
âN-noâ Ennis managed tu mumbled, leaving Jack surprised, getting the blonde cowboy to talk while regressing was almost impossible, but he also rarely got to see Ennis not listening to him when he was.. misbehaving even
âMy sweet lamb, you know dada only wants you to eat because he wants you to grow big and healthy just like him.. now câmon..â
âNoâ Ennis muttered again, he had a slightly defiant look in his face, but it was still a embarrassed one after all.
Jack sighed, even thought Ennis had always behaved perfectly when he was like this it was no surprise that toddlers and babies had their bad days, where they misbehave or throw tantrums, he wanted to keep insisting with Ennis until he gave up, but he knew it was getting late and he knew the sheep were unsupervised right now.
âWhen we come back Iâm makinâ you eat somethinâ little lambâ Jack said softly, but his voice carried a more strong demeanor to it this time, Jack worried a lot about Ennisâs wellbeing, and he was gonna make sure he didnât get sick or worse by avoiding his needs so much.
Ennis just stood there quietly while Jack checked on the horses in detail, he was a little scared of making his dada mad, he couldnât lie about it.. but in his mind and in his stomach eating beans sounded worse than anything on the world right now, and the sole thought of having to actually eat them was getting him genuinely upset.
âIâll help ya up the hoâsie sweetheartâ Jack said as he looked over at Ennisâs worried expression
âHe doesnât bite my boy.. I promise, he is a good boy, just like you areâ Jack smiled and gently patted the horseâs head
âSee? Nothing to fear here, little lambâ
Ennis seemed reluctant, he didnât trust the horse completely, but someone he did trust was Jack so he eventually nodded while he closed his eyes, letting Jack do what he had to.
He got a hold of Ennisâs waist carefully and he used his strength to help him on the back of the horse, smiling as he saw that Ennis was now secured in the back, before getting in the front himself.
âGrab a hold of me boy, put your arms around dadaâs body and we will go over to see the cute sheepâ he stated
Ennis listened carefully, and got a tight grip on Jackâs body as he started to ride his horse, leading them both over to the place where the sheep were.
Jack smiled all the way there, happy that Ennis was slowly getting more comfortable sharing the little side of him, he was still embarrassed, but he managed to not blush all the time because of it, and that was progress.
As they rode together Jack smirked
âYou see the sheep, kiddo?â He asked
Ennis nodded enthusiastically
dogs, horses, cows, (âŚ) they were all animals that scared him a little while he was regressed, and he always kept an eye on them to make sure they wouldnât âtry to eat himâ but with sheep Ennis was different, he found himself at peace with them and loved petting their fluffy hair, this was something Jack was certainly aware of, so he hoped that Ennis would enjoy doing this activity again while he actually managed to herd them.
âWell, weâre here lambieâ Jack announced, getting himself down and then helping Ennis to do this as well.
The sheep were seconds away from Ennis now, and he couldnât hide his excitement at all, his eyes were shining bright and he had a small smile in his face.
âSomeone is excited to see the sheep, isnât he?â He teased, enjoying seeing Ennis like this, a smile on his face was a rare sight for sure.
Ennis blushed but only for a moment before getting his eyes back on the sheep, he couldnât wait to play with them, that if his dada allowed it of course.
The blonde cowboy pulled on Jackâs coat, letting him know that he wanted his attention right now.
âYes, little lamb?â He asked softly
â..mmh..â he pointed to the sheep and mumbled
âYou wanna go play with âem donât yaâ Jack chuckled
âS-sheepâ Ennis mumbled with a little effort, he really really liked them
Jack eyes widened in surprise as he heard the word come out of Ennisâs mouth, it was a challenge to even hear him say yes or no, and he was saying the name of an animal now, Jack felt like a proud father now
âThatâs right! The sheep.. you said it so well little lamb, of course you can go play with them!â He smiled as he patted Ennisâs head
Ennis smiled at Jack and slowly walked over to the sheep with a smile on his face, a little shy at first of course, he said hi to them with a small wave from his right hand and he went on to pet as many sheep as he could, giggling and muttering as he kept going, it was truly a sight to behold, and the one who was enjoying it the most was Jack.
Ennis came back a few seconds later, looking at Jack and then pointing to the river that was nearby and then the sheep, his way of saying âtheyâre thirstyâ
Jack nodded, understanding what Ennis wanted to do perfectly as he got the dogs to guide the sheep to the water nearby, Ennis smiled at the sight, glad that their little companions were getting what they needed.
Seeing his little boy calm like this brought a sense of relief to him, and he couldnât help but get infected by Ennisâs smile
Jack sighed one last time before getting back into his horse as he started to herd the sheep again with the help of the dogs, and of course, the help of the best little helper in Brokeback mountain: Ennis Del Mar