.Lost in Eternal Sadness.

I did change, I now want to hurt everyone else just as much as I want to hurt myself. I want the entire world to burn the way my heart does every second.

I knew something was up when you started being unresponsive, distant, cold, what was once my warmth and light is now just a gaping hole and a hole you left in my heart. You lied to me and then when it got boring you broke me like a child with a toy.

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Well, my lungs feel like they're on fire, my heart is caving in, my own tears burn me as they descend , and I happen to be the loneliest I've ever been. I had never believed it possible for me to become anymore isolated but i stand corrected, and i had never imagined myself living with all of this pain for so long but here I am... Hurt, Broken, and exhausted

But now I’m on the ground crying

And this is exactly why i distance myself, because none of you actually care, everyone lies, everyone fakes it no one really fucking wants me and it hurts unimaginably.

Am i the only one whose depression feeds into itself like a black hole? I get anxious and depressed a lot and then i try to reach out for help but that gives me more anxiety and doubles my depression because then i feel like they hate how bad i get all the time. Trying to tell people about my depression gives me hyper anxiety and i hate myself more for being this way and always having these problems. I don't really know how to explain.

Nope, unfortunately i only post things that i feel with my heart and if it relates to my situation and/or others, romanticized mental illnesses aren't really my thing because in reality they're not pretty nor romantic, they're terrible and ugly and deadly 🦋