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Ever since that garlic incident and the very awkward dinner that followed, Felix had been distancing himself from you. He never avoided you, but he would never cling to you and the second Changbin was around he seemed to back away entirely. You had wanted to confront him the moment you noticed it but Changbin assured you that he just needed space and would come around eventually. Well, that had been almost a week ago and you were tired of waiting. 

You had tried approaching Felix after he got home from practice, Changbin staying late at the studio with Jisung and Chan to finish up a track. Felix came home to find you waiting on the couch for him, occupying yourself with some random drama you found on television. Things had been tense already but the second the words, “We need to talk,” left you he was locking himself in his room. As fast as you were, you didn’t react quick enough to catch him so now you were stuck waiting outside the room until one of you gave up. 

Yeah, you had realized by now you had probably gone about this the wrong way and scared Felix, but there wasn’t much you could do about that now. You didn’t have the ability to turn back time and you couldn’t exactly explain yourself when your boyfriend refused to listen. If he could at least open the door and look at you that would be a start. 

“I just want to talk to you,” you called out, much softer than when you were chasing him, “I promise it’s nothing bad.” Silence was the response you got and by now you were starting to lose your patience. Your teeth dug into your lip to keep from saying anything that would condemn you and you took a deep breath before speaking again. “Lix I just want to know why you’ve been avoiding me? Ever since that night, it feels like you’ve become a stranger. Talk to me please! I just want to know what’s going on.” Silence again and you were about to call it quits when you heard a thump from the other side of the door, signaling that Felix had sat down as well. It wasn’t opening the door but at least now you knew he was listening so you would take it. You were thinking about what to say next when he beat you to it. 

“You hate me now, don’t you?” his voice was small and he sounded like he was going to cry. You sighed softly and shook your head despite him not being able to see you. 

“Why would I hate you?” you asked as gently as possible. Felix sniffled a bit before answering.

“I keep messing up, I almost hurt you and I make you uncomfortable. I see how close you are with Changbin and I’m left out so I figured you didn’t want me around anymore.” There it was, everything was slowly starting to make sense and you had to huff to stop yourself from laughing. 

“Baby boy I don’t hate you,” you assured, “you’re not messing up anything. You made a mistake but no one got hurt and I already forgave you for that. I thought you knew that after dinner.” You shook your head and took a deep breath before continuing, “Yeah I got a bit closer to Changbin but the only reason you feel like you’re left out is because you’re the one leaving yourself out. How am I supposed to give you attention when I never see you huh?” 

“I guess...” Felix whispered. You rolled your eyes and stood up, gently placing your hand on the door. “Can you let me in please? I’m sorry that I made you feel left out so let me prove to you that I care. It’s too late to go out but we can play games or watch a movie until Changbin comes home, how does that sound?” He didn’t answer verbally but you could hear him scramble to stand up. The sound of a lock clicking echoed and Felix opened the door, peeking through a small crack and looking up at you. He didn’t look like he was crying but you could see the sad look in his eyes and the glistening of tears in the corner. Exhaling softly, you gently pushed open the door and let yourself into the room, Felix stepping back to invite you in. 

You softly pushed the door closed with your foot, not taking your eyes off of your boyfriend. He looked conflicted as his gaze darted around the room. Part of him wanted to believe what you said and embrace him, but he was still really unsure about all of this. You didn’t give him time to overthink and make things worse as you stepped forward and pulled Felix into a hug. He tensed under you but you didn’t care as you held him close to you and nuzzled your face against his neck. It had been a minute since you had been close to Felix and you were reminded of how different he was compared to Changbin. 

Felix had a smaller frame despite being taller, it felt like you were the one holding and protecting him. He also wasn’t as warm as Changbin, feeling slightly cooler against you and his skin was softer. Lastly, and most prominent, his scent was much sweeter. Whereas Changbins scent struck you as a natural musk, Felix was lighter and almost sugary. It was a distinct contrast between the two of them but surprisingly pleasant. It made both boys stand out more while also blending in together, you couldn’t imagine one without the other. A part of you also wondered how you felt to them if they could feel your presence the same way that you felt theirs. You would have to ask them one day. 

After a minute of just standing there Felix finally returned your hug. His arms wrapped around you and gripped at your shirt desperately as he hid his head in your shoulder. You smiled and relaxed a bit as you held him, humming softly and rubbing his back. Neither of you said anything, just standing in the middle of the room and holding onto each other. Felix was the one that pulled away first, keeping his hands around your waist as he raised his head to look at you. 

“So you promise you don’t hate me?” he asked, making you giggle a bit. 

“I love you too much to ever hate you,” you leaned forward to place a quick kiss on his nose which made him laugh as well. Though Felix was quickly back to pouting as he tightened his grip on your waist. 

“You gave Changbin a proper kiss, why don’t I get one?” he whined. All you could do was huff in amusement, trying to look serious but your smile betraying you. 

“As you wish,” you reached up to cup his cheek before leaning down to press your lips together softly. Felix immediately responded by kissing you back and bringing one of his hands up to rest at the back of your head. “Happy now?” you asked once you pulled away, Felix had turned a good three shades of red and was smiling wider than you thought was humanly possible. 

“Much better!” he confirmed, “now, what movie did you want to watch?” 

It took a couple of moments to select a movie and gather a few snacks, as well as letting Felix shower and change into his pajamas before you two were curled up in bed together. A few pillows supported you as you rested against the headboard with Felix snuggled into your side. His head was against your chest and his arm was lazily thrown across your stomach. Occasionally he would move to grab at one of the snacks but otherwise, he was still, focusing on the movie as you lazily played with his hair. You let Felix choose the movie, not really following it but as long as he was happy you didn’t care. 

You guys were maybe a quarter of the way through when Felix began to shuffle against you. “It’s kind of weird that you don’t have a heartbeat,” he mused with a laugh. 

“Bad weird or good weird?” you asked as you adjusted to look down at him. His head was perfectly still on your chest, no movement from you that would cause him to move. To you this was normal but it was likely he wasn’t used to that fact yet. 

“It’s definitely not bad,” Felix assured, “it’s just strange in a way. Like you look human and you act human but you’re not. You’re cold, you don’t have a heartbeat and you don’t even have to breathe if you don’t want to. It’s like you’re an illusion or something?” You raised an eyebrow at his rambling, not understanding exactly what he was talking about. You reasoned it was just Felix coming to terms with how you worked now that the changes were obvious. Yeah, he knew you were a vampire, he could see in some instances that you were a vampire, but if someone didn’t know better they could assume you were human. 

You also, ironically, weren’t that well educated on your own kind. Did schools even teach students about vampires, was that necessary? You guys weren’t born, you were created so you just instinctively had the knowledge you needed to survive. The urges took some getting used to but you knew what you could do, what you were capable of, what you needed, and what you needed to avoid. You also weren’t a part of a coven or family like other vampires, staying by yourself with maybe one or two close friends so you really didn’t care about the norms or ins and outs of your species. If you needed to know you could figure it out then but as of right now you didn’t care. Perhaps that was why your boyfriend's fascination confused you because you didn’t really stop to consider that it would be odd. Then again, in all the time you had known both of them they had only asked a handful of questions. Seems that would change now that you were starting to open yourself to them. 

Felix had returned his attention to the movie by this point. You had been too far in your own thoughts to pay attention to what was happening. You just stared at the screen trying to process what was going on. If Felix noticed you weren’t paying attention he didn’t say anything about it. He reached for another snack before freezing and looking back up at you. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you eat anything, can you?” The question was so innocent that you couldn’t find it in yourself to be offended by the assumption. 

“Depending on what’s in it, yes,” you answered, taking the chip he offered and glancing at it before taking a bite. It was much too salty for your liking but you quickly finished it before licking your lips. “My tastebuds are a bit sensitive and regular food won’t sustain me at all, but I can eat it just for the taste. I don’t often because it’s pointless but there are a few snacks I like.” He hummed in thought for a moment, staring at his food intently. 

“Could you eat meat? If it was raw or undercooked then maybe that could do something because, you know?” he asked. This time you made sure he could see your questioning expression, silently asking if he was serious. 

“I’m afraid that wouldn’t do much,” you informed, “it’s not enough.” The last part you practically whispered, not wanting to dive into such a sensitive topic. You never talked about feeding and there was a reason for that. Partially for your own peace of mind and also to make sure you didn’t come off as scary. Felix didn’t seem to get the hint though as he kept pushing, making you bite your lip as you thought about how to answer in a way that didn’t make you seem like some sort of monster. 

“How often do you have to feed?” you really didn’t want to answer but didn’t really see a way out of this that wouldn’t make Felix feel bad. 

“Do you really want to know the answer?” when he nodded you sighed, “it depends on how much I get. Donations tend to vary in amount but I can last over a month most of the time. Even then it takes a while before I really feel hungry.” Felix seemed content with that answer, nodding again and deciding to stop interrogating you for the time being. You felt relief wash over you when he shifted and focused all of his attention on the last part of the movie. You were now laying beside each other, your arm around his back and his resting on his leg as the other found a place beside his head. 

The movie ended and you got up just long enough to clean up a bit before returning to bed and putting on the first recommended movie that popped up. Judging by how quiet Felix got and him gradually curling up more in the blankets, you knew he would fall asleep soon. Your plan was to stay with him until he did and then sneak out. Changbin should be home by then and you could leave them to rest while you dealt with your own business. You could always come back in the morning if you needed to. 

It seemed that Felix read your mind though, as he practically wrapped himself around you once you got back into bed. Both his arms and legs were wrapped around you and his head was snuggled into your shoulder. “Y/N,” he muttered tiredly, “can you stay with me tonight, please? I really don’t want to be alone.” You wanted to argue that you couldn’t but you stopped yourself when you look down at Felix. His eyes were closed and his cheeks puffed slightly as he pouted in his tired state, hair falling in his eyes. His grip on you was tight and even the slightest movement had him clinging to you even more. It was almost embarrassing how much of an effect he had on you by just existing but you couldn’t bring yourself to tell him no. 

“Just for tonight, I will stay,” you promised, pressing a kiss to the top of his head, “now go to sleep, you had a long day.” Felix muttered something you couldn’t quite understand but you felt him relax against you as he finally let sleep take over. You alternated between rubbing his back and playing with his hair while humming softly until you were sure that he was asleep and wouldn’t wake up. Even then you were careful not to wake him as you adjusted to a more comfortable position that let you move your arms freely while Felix used you as a pillow. This was the state Changbin found you both in when he finally came home from the studio. You slightly perched up watching some random romance drama that popped up with Felix curled up against you fast asleep. He chuckled softly and gave you both a quick kiss before getting ready for bed himself, leaving with a whispered promise to see you in the morning. 

As your second movie came to an end, you realized this was probably going to be a really long night, though you wouldn’t dare move. 

You ended up breaking your promise slightly and getting up just as the sun began to rise. Dashing over to the window and closing the curtains before the invading rays could reach your skin and burn you. Felix didn’t even stir at your absence, simply curling up to fill the empty space you used to occupy. Seeing that, you decided there would be no harm in staying out of bed as long as you didn’t leave the apartment. Both boys would be waking up to get ready for work shortly anyways. 

You turned off the TV in his room and tucked the sleeping boy in before quietly exiting his room and making your way to the kitchen. Knowing your boyfriends, they wouldn’t get up until the last minute and wouldn’t have time to eat anything before heading to practice. You had learned from one too many experiences that them working all day without food was not a good idea so you decided to surprise them with breakfast. Something light so that they would at least have some food in them but not enough to make them sick with all of the intense choreography they had to do. Just watching them perform made you feel tired so you couldn’t imagine what that did to their stamina. 

Pushing your hair out of your face, you rummaged through the kitchen to figure out what you could make that was quick and easy. By no means were you a good cook, but you had enough knowledge and experience under your belt to make something edible. The fact that they had just gone shopping a few days ago also made your job significantly easier. Instant rice, meat, seasoning, and a few vegetables and you were good to go. It wasn’t exactly the ideal breakfast, especially considering the more traditional Korean breakfasts you’ve seen, but it should be enough to last them until their lunch break. The heat from the pan made you hiss a bit, dodging a few hot juices being flung at you as you tried quickly cooking the meat and vegetables together while also watching the timer on the microwave to make sure you got the rice before it went off and woke up both the boys. Coffee was also an essential so you found yourself dashing all over the kitchen like a frantic chef working alone at a restaurant during a dinner rush. It was times like this that you were beyond thankful for your enhanced speed. 

You could hear distant shuffling and footsteps which told you that one of your boyfriends was now awake. A few minutes later and you felt small arms wrap around you and pull you into a warm embrace. The build and scent immediately told you that the person behind you was Felix, making you smile as you leaned against him. 

“Good morning Sunshine,” you greeted, turning your head enough to kiss his cheek. Felix laughed softly as he snuggled against you. 

“You scared me when I woke up and you weren’t there, I thought you left,” he whined. The raspier tone of his voice was an indicator that he was still quite tired and you frowned a bit. It felt at times like they were working more than resting and that concerned you but you knew nothing about their job so who were you to question it. You trusted that the boys knew their limit and would rest if it became too much. 

“I figured you guys would be hungry so I thought I would make you a quick breakfast before practice,” you explained. Turning off the stove, you separated the food into two portions before placing the dishes in the sink to be washed once they left. You set both breakfasts on the counter before turning around in Felix's hold. Wrapping your arms around his neck, you smiled softly before giving him a gentle peck, “How did you sleep Lix?”

“So much better than normal with you there,” he confessed, “you’re a really good pillow you know?” 

“I wouldn’t know actually, you are the first one to ever use me as a pillow,” you teased. Felix laughed as he rubbed your arms softly. 

“Well I wouldn’t mind having you as a personal pillow more often, you’re really comfortable,” he joked back. You rolled your eyes and pulled away, nudging him towards the food you just finished making. 

“Hurry up and eat you dork, I want to make sure you guys have some food in you before going to practice. By the way, is Changbin planning on getting up any time soon?” Felix put his hands up in mock surrender as he walked over and grabbed one of the dishes. 

“I’m pretty sure I heard him getting up when I went to the bathroom. I’m sure he’ll be out here shortly,” he said as he took the first bite, “this is great by the way! Thank you Y/N.” He continued to eat as you worked on putting everything away. You were planning on cleaning properly when they left but you didn’t want to risk leaving anything out because food was sensitive. Sure enough, Changbin stepped into the kitchen shortly after you gave Felix his breakfast. He also looked tired but slightly more awake than your younger boyfriend. 

“Good morning,” he said with a smile, walking over to the both of you. He gave Felix a quick hug and kiss on the cheek before walking over to you and doing the same. 

“Morning Hyung,” Felix greeted before motioning to the other plate, “Y/N made us breakfast.” You hummed in agreement as you handed it to him.

“You guys should hurry up and eat before you’re late, I would hate to be the one to get you guys in trouble,” you said half teasingly. You didn’t actually know if they would get in trouble for being late or not but you were assuming that would be the case given how demanding every other aspect of their job was. 

“I’m sure Chan won’t mind if we’re a few minutes late,” Changbin said with a chuckle, “especially for such a good reason.”

“When you say good do you mean me or the food?” you questioned with a laugh of your own. 

“Why not both?” Felix mused. You playfully rolled your eyes which made him smile. The boys quickly finished their food and thanked you before grabbing their things and getting ready to head out. You exchanged very brief hugs and quick goodbye kisses to the both of them before practically pushing them out the door with the promise to see them later. 

Once they were gone you made your way back to the kitchen, doing the dishes and cleaning off the counter before wandering around a bit. You decided to make yourself useful a bit by straightening up so they wouldn’t have to worry about chores before calling it a day and returning back to your own place. It was still way too bright outside so you needed to rest a bit and catch up on a few things hopefully before the sun set. Though you kept your phone on and within arms reach the whole time, that way you would be available the second one of the boys needed you. 

If anyone asked, you would definitely deny it, but it was becoming more and more obvious how devoted you were to Felix and Changbin. That thought alone was more than enough to terrify you, but you also wouldn’t want it any other way.

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