Thought I could run bare-face
To you and still not hesitate ,
Because there was a part of me
who always did take a step back,
When it comes to pleasing the love.
I never thought I would become
Rather than the unconditional lover
It hurts really bad to learn
in-front of my best indeed.
Yet here I am begging to love
With thousand knives tearing my heart
And I don’t know what I did wrong.
Too desperate to have someone to
There would be two people in life
I would put my trust again and again ,
My lovely mother and you, my love.
To have my back when the world turns against me,
When I am hitting the bottom rock.
Now I will sit back and recall
All the times you called me pretty,
Or a sympathy for my poor soul.
Yet here I go back , four years into the past
Where I hate myself and I hated my body
As I was not worthy of love.
I didn’t want to go back again
But you gave false hope , all in vain.
But after I forgave thrice
Its took my peaceful nights.
I will always have a scare
But a sign of not being enough.
I look at the mirror and see myself up
To give someone everything
And them not giving me back.
I used to read lots of books,
The romance was filled with
Yet I find myself, stuck in loop
Of heartbreaks at my youth.
I believed there would be one
To love me despite how I was ,
Insecurities wouldn’t do a comeback
Because he would love my soul, not my disproportionate flaws .
I really hoped I would be happier
Because I never did anyone wrong
Yet I find myself crying myself to sleep
Just to receive an unconditional love
Cause I am tired of being strong.
Despite all the pain you have caused
Because you gave the best gift,
With all the chaos amidst
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