Tryin

thinking "everyone can tell im bad at this" as i stand completely motionless doing nothing in public

i just felt myself becoming a memory

i just felt myself being forgotten

you know those studies showing that cursing helps with pain tolerance or whatever. that’s how i feel about making my weird little noises to get through my basic daily activities. sometimes you just have to go hggblaaaah for a minute so you can find the strength within yourself to get up or wash the dishes or send an email. mmmnneh. urgh. the torments are unending but you can always make some little sounds about it.

i’m very self aware. which unfortunately hasn’t solved anything

every day it gets harder to have a relaxed jaw and decent posture

everytime i want something i should be shot in the head

if someone doesn’t do something perverted with me soon i think im gonna die