Jules

guess who got gypsophila

-13.03.18

29/100 days of productivity (25.2.2018)

journal series: I’m usually not timid to show any of my journal entires. Because they’re helpful, therapeutic, and fun to do sometimes. But this one. This one is hard. I’m scared and vulnerable and shy to post something like this because it’s a side that I don’t like to show. It’s not fun or glittery or colorful. But it’s real and it’s 100% me. And I guess if it can help others then it could be worth it.

One of my Communication professors talks a lot about power. The power we give to people, to words, to titles. I hate how much power I give to anxiety. Because one day, I’m good. I’m good and I’m getting better and better. But then something so small and insignificant and utterly stupid happens and just like that, the good is gone. I let it take over me. I give it power.

I hate feeling this way. I hate loosing my power. I hate being so sensitive to things that probably don’t matter in the long run. I hate that a perfect day can be ruined by my own brain. It sucks. But we need to remember that feelings may suck but they remind us that we’re human.