Yeahhh ....... So I canβt lie I was going through psychosis (usually due to chronic mental degradation, whatever) and what better way to spend it than digging up my months long abandoned blog just to fuck it up? My inbox is filled with people berating me as you could possibly imagine. Not that theyβre to blame, obviouslyβBut I canβt say I feel an ounce of guilt, regret, shame or remorse. At the end of the day, these Tumblr users donβt know me personally, nor do they benefit my life. So no, Iβm not going to apologize for something people literally got over in like a day. If you spend all your emotional energy on online drama, thatβs on you. Go outside.
My girlfriend (who is actually so understanding and sympathetic by the way, god bless her heart I genuinely want to be the best I can for her) and this wretched mess of a site actually ended up helping me manage whatever hellfire was happening inside of my head. At least I didnβt go out and embarrass myself in the real world and lose all my reputation being the guy who canβt go even a WEEK without acting like a complete tweaker. So yeah, if you ever get blasted with inexplicable, chemical rage caused by a dose of heroin? Just take it out on a bunch of spineless children online. Don't do it too much though if you don't want to get into uncomfortable situations
β¦Anyways. Iβll probably end up abandoning this blog again soon, so if you want to have fun watching the short bit of nonsense that went down on here, then be my guest. Iβm not sure if Iβll go on another spree of messing with people because Iβd lose a massive chunk of my supply, frankly, and Iβm not doing that. So I wonβt be active on here. At ALL. I like the username though, so Iβm hoarding it forever.
Besides, I need to go polish a draft for the writing project Iβm currently obsessively working for. My scripts are nearly finished and I expect to publish them soon enough. Just a slight pushback during the last bits, yeah... (itβs fine, Iβm not worried about it.) Itβll all be alright soon. GREATNESS is waiting for me in the future, and these past few months have given me more than enough proof of that.
I need to get back to bed.











