i moved but ironically still post ziall things

I think there will never come a day when Zayn does not want to make Niall smile. Even if maybe he had to sacrifice those smiles for a while for his own happiness. He still wants to make Niall smile, he’s just afraid he can’t anymore, and that the only way to do it is not to talk to him. 

My thoughts in a jumbled mess of feelings and incorrect paraphrased quotes:

i’m not sure he actually calls him Zayno? It sounds to me more like he said “Zayn, oh.” As much as I wish it were otherwise. 

NIALL DOESNT UNDERSTAND WHY HE LEFT. HE TRIES BUT HE CANT QUITE PUT HIS FINGER ON IT. HES THOUGHT AND THOUGHT AND CANT QUTIE IDENTIFY IT AND THAT NAGS AT HIM. WHY WOULD ZAYN WANT TO LEAVE HIM? 

“That worked out well for both of us” Interesting narrowing down to just you and him Niall. Hmmmmmmm

INSTANT DEFENSE OF ZAYN “some people are just like that, not emotional in that sense”–don’t you dare diminish Zayn’s way of being and expressing emotion it is just as valid and Niall will not stand for it

NO ARGUMENTS. maybe that bit is party line but Niall just shuts it down hardcore. THERE WERE NO ARGUMENTS

there’s a great regretful sigh. Niall is happy that it worked out, that they’re all happy, that Zayn’s happier–but the sigh. Oh, that sigh. Heaved of pain and the long struggle to get to that point and the regret that Zayn couldn’t be happy with them

“His heart couldn’t be in it as much as he wanted it to be” I don’t know it was just interesting that he phrased it in that way–that it wasn’t as much as zayn wanted it to be. There’s an interesting note there about passionate, impulsive Zayn who needs to be all in about something. 

“not for a while no”–Niall didn’t see it coming for long. Do you think it blindsided him a little? That Niall didn’t conceive of it as a possibility? But also NO ZAYN WASNT PULLING AWAY FOREVER THIS WASN’T FOREVER IN COMING NIALL KNOWS ZAYN LOVED IT ONCE AND FOR A LONG TIME HE WILL CLING TO THAT. 

i’m still so angry about radio disney like what the fucK…… your last album literally featured morning wood & bondage…. your target market is NOT people under the age of 12

but then again LOOK AT THEIR FUCKING LOGO

THAT SURE AS FUCK LOOKS LIKE IT’S MARKETED TOWARDS PEOPLE UNDER 12

@ ONE DIRECTION CHANGE YOUR LOGO

IF THE ‘ONE DIRECTION’ WAS IN YELLOW AND HAD LITTLE HOLES IN IT IT’D LOOK THE EXACT SAME AS THIS