Wailing Shadow

I've been quite busy lately, compared to how my life was counting a few months or years back. And it's basically all about two things for me. One, to distract my mind from going to places I'd very much rather forget. And two, an attempt to turn my life around and achieve my dreams. And I intend to do anything with all my power to sort of work on the things I need to improve aspects of my life. I'm studying and trying to finish my French courses so I can either go for a University studies or maybe a Trade profession if I'm feeling lazy/cheap. I need a good career if I wanna be financially reliable and I've learned from past experiences that you can be a very sweet guy, kind and respectful, but if you're poor, it's still a tough world to live in. Money talks, unfortunately. And I've come to embrace this notion. I'm training as well. Not only to keep my physical well being healthier and fit, but to prepare myself for a way of life I've been looking into for quite some time now. I'd like to believe that I'm a nice and a very kind person already, so I figured, I might as well work on the physical aspects of myself. And so I dedicate my time to training myself and just basically trying to be cut. Not muscular, but just cut. Doing my best to eat healthier this time around as well. So far, so good. And I'm seeing results. I'm glad to be dedicating my time for things that are for a change, for myself and not for others.

This message spent at least 2 weeks in my draft. This is how much I've been occupied. Though, I do tend to make time for my friends if needed be. I've lost quite a bit and they're the only good parts of my life left that I cannot afford to lose. However, I am no stranger to a life of solitude. And I am not afraid to come back to how I used to be.