Stephen Krus

I wasted my life,

uselessly!

What on God's green earth

have I done?

All I do is just stare at the wall

(or doomscrolling on phone)

just do nothing!

I just let my life, energy, time,

and lots of wasted open opportunities

just... passed me by!

I'm like an idiot

passive observer!

Doing nothing!

Not taking action!

So afraid of failing

in front of people

against their expectations,

opinions and judgements.

Who frickin' cares!

They don't care!

You! Be honest!

You don't even care!

Of course you insecurely care

about their attention,

their judgements,

their expectations,

and their useless opinions!

You insecurely care

those baseless things

because it feeds your ego

it makes you think

that their attention,

their judgements,

their expectations,

and their opinions of you

externally validate your

self-worth (of your ego).

You're addicted to the lie (belief)

that your own very own self-worth

are tied to the expectations and opinions

of other people that exist outside of you.

I call BULLSHIT on that!

All that is illusory bullshit

mind games that your mind

play on you (your ego).

Let it go!

Let all that unnecessary

baggage go!

Be light

be free!

Stop wasting

you and your

life.

Be smart

be wise

and most of all

be aware!

Live a simple life

be content, peaceful

and be happy.

It's doable.

Pressures of life

chaos, misperceptions

misunderstandings

random problems

always keep popping up.

It's like playing an grown-up

version of whack-a-mole

but it never ends

it never ends

so exhausting.

But I must press on

even if I don't feel qualified

or even I don't feel competent

I must press on

I must move on.

Those bastards zionist, nationalist, israelis... they're the one who got us into this mess! 😤

Emotionally... I'm not ready. But... at least we get start the ball rolling in that direction.

Life, this planet, everything will never be the same!

Humanity is already on the other side of the threshold with this being so mainstream.

There's no going back.🤔🛸

What the heck happened to us?

What the heck to this world.

The rest are selfish, delusional, brain-rot, soul-less tyrannical morons are all pressing the self-destruction button.

Like the bat-shit insane NPCs that they are. 😤

So frustrated with life.

I'm beyond tired of being tired!

Nothing is ever right.

Feels like I'm being punished.

For the mistakes I did.

Some force wants me

ruined, destroyed and

beyond saving.

SCREW THAT!

I'm so done being a victim

of fate, destiny, karma,

and other bad actors

who wants me to lose!

I say... SCREW THAT TO INFINITY!

The Source within me

is fighting tooth and nail

with all its might for me

to do right thing, and to right the

wrongs that I've unintentionally

doned.

May the Source grant me

courage, a stilled mind

strength, perseverance

and patience. Lots of it!

May my intention be heard

* Do Comprehensible Input thru repetition... over and over and over... till you understand the material 100%!

* It all about "understanding the messages" meaning whatever words that's said to you... you "understand it". No need to understand it 100% the first try. That's where repetition comes in.

* You repeat the material till you have 100% understanding of it.

* You acquire languages thru listening + understanding only the information that's given to you directly.

Still surviving... not so much thriving though. Stuck in being stuck, by fate or destiny or just plain mediocrity.

Still learning but mostly practicing "going within".

Not by traditional meditation though.

I both succeeded and failed at it at the same time. Not deep enough.

I'm doing it by getting myself into alpha state, do my shield of protection visualization then do my mind awake/body asleep one-step method I learn thru Claude AI, as my body goes into sleep I just watch + be aware of the blackness in front of me.

I'm trying to attain the "void state".

I'm not sure if I have attained it.

Tryin' to...

Hopefully I have attained it.

Ah! The simple life.

Oh how I kinda miss

the simple life.

Simple ways of living

free from stress and

nothing to bring us down.

The memories that we cherish

when we were young

and long for nostalgic foods,

sweets, fruits and other delicacies.

Life used to be so simple back in the day

where we use to chit-chat and hang around our family and friends just to have a laugh.

Oh how I long for those days

Oh how I long for those days

Oh how I long for those days

those days... are so precious.

More than you know.

But the past... is nothing

but a memory inside our minds

nothing but imaginary now.

So we must look forward

create more and better memories

as we can as our breathe is still

in our lungs.

So we must create

future memories

in the now

in the now

in the NOW!

Challenges

There's always will be challenges.

Problems, obstacles, complications

conflicts, unintended consequences

let them come.

Don't be discouraged

or makes yourselves small

because there's an almost

impossible task ahead of you.

Have courage,

steady your mind

even in the midst

of chaos.

The universe always gives

an opening, an opportunity

for you to strike and overcome your

challenges... whatever they may be.

You are not sent here to fail

even if it feels like failing is all you do.

Do the thing over and over

until the universe sees your intentions

and hear your cries to send you aid.

The universe will yield

if only you had courage

if only you persisted in a goal

if only you had take an extra step

you would've have had it all.