Cajun

If you message me, anon or not, and ask me stupid fucking questions, and things that make me uncomfortable, that's an immediate block for me.

I will give no one the right to make this a bad space for me.

Yeah, I became that person about 48 hours ago. A half niece contacted me on Ancestry and one picture I had of her dad when he was young that was given to me by my bio dad 14 years ago solved the mystery.

I had a half brother, he died by suicide when he was 29. Bio dad told me 14 years ago about having a half brother that died and said he had met his young daughter. That daughter was the one who contacted me.

He spoke of this supposed half brother once. That was it. Once in 14 years. I didn't even remember his name. I didn't even know if he was telling the truth or if someone had lied to him. But for some reason I held onto that one picture he sent me.

I have 3 nieces, a nephew, and 2 great nephews.

It was a complete shock for all of us. I think more for them than me. My brothers mom did a great job at keeping that secret.

He also blamed my painful stiff joints on my age. I turned 44 yesterday! I don't think being woken up in the middle of the night due to stiffness and joint pain is normal or due to my age!

The positive anti-RNP never even brought it up.

Then he said my symptoms could have been due to different types of viruses that I had to request him test me for because he wasn't even going to test me for them! Probably because he knew as well as I did that they would all be negative.

So, tomorrow I get to see the Rheumatologist and maybe start the journey on finding out why my ANA and anti-RNP are both positive.