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Chile I wish you luck...

Sorry, I don’t have anything else to say

Being an Uttarabhadrapada feels like arriving just a few seconds too late to catch a train and instead of expending energy by running to catch up, you watch it pass and walk or slow down and stay still, waiting for the next. Being a cow yoni and Saturn ruled nakshatra, our movement is slower than those around us (which is usually intentional anyways) so the sense of urgency that so many people feel naturally goes against our desire to go at a self-directed pace, internally and externally. I don't know if this has been correlated before so don't credit me, but cows are called "ruminators" because their digestive system needs to be processed multiple times before they can fully absorb what they’ve eaten. I think that fits well with how UBPs process their emotions and digests subconscious material.

Uttarabhradapadas witness life from a non-linear, somewhat “depersonalized” state. Our active participation is way more passive than those around us normally which is why we’re perceived as unreachable to others (there, yet not quite). We’re aren’t very overt people either, doesn't mean we're dispassionate or indifferent, we care very much which is exactly why we have to somewhat distance ourselves energetically. I think we also just tend to get swept up in feelings—Ours, others' feelings, your's, their's, the living, the dead, feelings from the past, feelings yet to come, etc. (never-ending feelings.)

When feelings and experiences (especially ones that brought pain) go unaddressed and becomes internalized, UBPs can act out in very volatile, corrupt ways—Our internal chaos externalizes pretty evidently. One of the biggest signs an UBP has not swam to the depths is when they do things to others in an unconscious attempt to make them feel the way others made them feel because those feelings and experiences haven’t been processed or “digested” yet—the same volatility can be self directed as well. AhirBudhnya tells us that in order to clear out a foundation that’s built on chaos, you have to swim down and then work your way back up and that the only way out of a burning basement is to go up.

Are another person’s projections the ultimate truth and are they for you to carry? Why would you grant the power for somebody else to invade and control your internal system? You can continue to give them that power by inflicting the same ingrained projections onto others if you choose to do so, but you won’t feel liberated—you’ll become stuck and bound by the same self-limiting beliefs as the ones that were placed onto you, ultimately being one in the same as those who originally caused you harm. By paying too much attention to things outside of yourself when you are not secure, that inner critic, those fears and doubts will be reinforced over and over and at some point you may or may not realize that you’ve been battling yourself; perhaps you catch on way too late.

1H- Agency

2H- Inner bias

3H- Dexterity

4H- Comforts

5H- Conceptualization

6H- Efficiency

7H- Psychology of compensation

8H- Rent

9H- Enterprise

10H- Social extrinsic value

11H- Commonalities

On the flip side, the Moon person may feel totally disregarded or not taken seriously by Saturn, unable to get their needs met. Regardless, the Moon person is likely to take what Saturn does in a personal way or question their deeds and the reasoning behind them because of the impact of their bluntness.

A lot of people find themselves/self-undo when they travel solo because they don’t have any externalities within their day to day lives that are impacting or demanding their attention (6H 7th from 12th). Once you’re given the chance to isolate yourself and withdraw from over-externalization, the more you will discover about yourself. We all have hidden worlds deep within ourselves, hence the importance of learning about yourself as much as possible without the influence or input of others because of how easy it can be to absorb your surroundings.

The Ascendant is you, your physical body, your perception of self, actions, and your personal development so no, the themes of the Ascendant will always be present. If there was no Ascendant there’d be no you.