my heart goes out to maddie and her relationship with motherhood. she had to become something other than a child and a sister in order to protect her brother in whatever way she could. not to mention, she not only had to navigate the responsibility of caring for another human but the grief of the life she once knew. her brother, her family, her childhood. she lost all that when she lost daniel. thinking about her taking care of a little evan who’s big blue eyes were full of kindness and loneliness. a hunger for contact and for love. i can’t stop thinking about maddie doing her best to provide him with that love, hugs, kisses. about maddie being there for every bump and bruise her sweet baby had. about maddie trying to make every birthday special because he was special because he deserved to feel special. maddie buckley, my love, my baby girl you will always have such a special place in my heart.

















