ooh back to tumblr because itβs the only place i can post without anyone seeing. finally the internet diary i always needed it to be.
iβm 3 weeks postpartum
i quit drinking cold turkey like it was absolutely nothing when i found out i was pregnant. i went through withdrawal terrified i would lose my baby and never slipped once in 9 months, so thankful i didnβt lose her.
itβs been less than a week, i started with a glass of wine in the evening, but once i allowed myself liquor againβ¦ iβm all the way back. iβm craving nicotine again, im letting myself throw milk down the drain because i canβt help myself in the morning.
my milk supply is rapidly decreasing, it just happened so fast. i already felt like she may be better off without me, drinking about it only made things worse. i want to eject so badly.
