Starburst Doodles

Ava: I knew this was going to happen. I knew that if Leeroy intervened like he did he would get hurt. Infact I told him that it would happen. I didn’t know how strong I was, but being the daughter of one of the strongest enderdragons in the realm ... I knew it would be powerful. 

Ava: Did I mention that not only is alexander a strong enderdragon, but infact the king of all enderdragons? The puny ones you see in the end realm are nothing compared to him. Infact, those you see are nothing compared to any of the dragons that live further off that island you see when you enter it. Those are just rouges, outcasts for their weaknesses. Why do you think it’s so easy to kill them?

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Ava: Now think, if I am the daughter of ALexander, the king of enderdragons where does that put me in strength? I’d say pretty high up there. At least someday I will be. That was my first time ever changing into my ... “form”

Ava: The next time I will be stronger, and will have a little more control over it. You see, that’s what went wrong, why Leeroy got hurt. I had no control over myself, I do not recall anything that happened during that time I was a dragon. The only thing I do remember is waking up on that stupid stone island, my clothes tattered, and I had literally almost nothing on me. No recollection of what had happened the night before.  By the time I got back to the castle, it was in ruins. There was blood everywhere. I killed so many people that night. And I hurt one of my best friends. The soulmate of my other best friend! OF COURSE SHE WOULD BE PISSED OFF WITH ME. I COULD HAVE KILLED HIM.

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Ava: Now you ask me why I put up with all this crap, why I don’t break out or try to escape. There was literally nothing I could do to make this better. Besides, even if I wanted to escape .. I couldn’t. Bedrock may be the weakness of angels, but it can also prevent a dragon for leaving a prison cell. I don’t want to escape. What’s the point if every one you love and care for hates you? And the only thing that could possibly forgive you is your guardian who was created to be there for you. To act as a spy and a protector, a friend and a companion. But he’s ..

Ava: He’s just a dog... I’ll lose him eventually just like any other dog i’d pick up in the forest. Slaughtered in battle, killed by someone else ... or by .. me. Same goes with James, and Midnight ... and Coal too! All of them, could easily die at my hands just like everyone else!

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Ava: ... Would I restart my life if I could, or continue living in this hell?

Ava: I’m sorry, this may surprise you ...

Ava:  But i’d rather live here than having to suffer through living without my ‘friends’ now. Everything that ever happened to me is set in stone. There’s nothing I can do about it. It's pointless to think that there is a possible escape from this, some sort of haven or place i can go to once i get out .. if i do. 

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Ava: I’m sorry I disappointed you. I’m sorry for ... everything ... that I have done. Alice ... Leeroy ... Marisa .. You all mean so much to me. 

Ava: To ... see that look of disappointment ... the hatred in your eyes ...You .. wanted to kill me ...

Ava: I’m sorry...

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